It made me feel quite queer not to be answered; and when
you tell anything sudden and strange, you expect people will say
SOMETHING—whatever it is."
Nobody but Sara herself ever knew what had happened in her room
after she had run upstairs and locked her door. In fact, she
herself scarcely remembered anything but that she walked up and
down, saying over and over again to herself in a voice which did
not seem her own, "My papa is dead! My papa is dead!"
Once she stopped before Emily, who sat watching her from her
chair, and cried out wildly, "Emily! Do you hear? Do you hear—
papa is dead? He is dead in India—thousands of miles away."
When she came into Miss Minchin's sitting room in answer to her
summons, her face was white and her eyes had dark rings around
them. Her mouth was set as if she did not wish it to reveal what
she had suffered and was suffering. She did not look in the
least like the rose-colored butterfly child who had flown about
from one of her treasures to the other in the decorated
schoolroom. She looked instead a strange, desolate, almost
grotesque little figure.
She had put on, without Mariette's help, the cast-aside black-
velvet frock. It was too short and tight, and her slender legs
looked long and thin, showing themselves from beneath the brief
skirt. As she had not found a piece of black ribbon, her short,
thick, black hair tumbled loosely about her face and contrasted
strongly with its pallor. She held Emily tightly in one arm, and
Emily was swathed in a piece of black material.
"Put down your doll," said Miss Minchin. "What do you mean by
bringing her here?"
"No," Sara answered. "I will not put her down. She is all I
have. My papa gave her to me."
She had always made Miss Minchin feel secretly uncomfortable,
and she did so now. She did not speak with rudeness so much as
with a cold steadiness with which Miss Minchin felt it difficult
to cope—perhaps because she knew she was doing a heartless and
inhuman thing.
"You will have no time for dolls in future," she said. "You
will have to work and improve yourself and make yourself useful."
Sara kept her big, strange eyes fixed on her, and said not a
word.
"Everything will be very different now," Miss Minchin went on.
"I suppose Miss Amelia has explained matters to you."
"Yes," answered Sara. "My papa is dead. He left me no money. I
am quite poor."
"You are a beggar," said Miss Minchin, her temper rising at the
recollection of what all this meant. "It appears that you have
no relations and no home, and no one to take care of you."
For a moment the thin, pale little face twitched, but Sara again
said nothing.
"What are you staring at?" demanded Miss Minchin, sharply. "Are
you so stupid that you cannot understand? I tell you that you
are quite alone in the world, and have no one to do anything for
you, unless I choose to keep you here out of charity."
"I understand," answered Sara, in a low tone; and there was a
sound as if she had gulped down something which rose in her
throat. "I understand."
"That doll," cried Miss Minchin, pointing to the splendid
birthday gift seated near—"that ridiculous doll, with all her
nonsensical, extravagant things—I actually paid the bill for
her!"
Sara turned her head toward the chair.
"The Last Doll," she said. "The Last Doll." And her little
mournful voice had an odd sound.
"The Last Doll, indeed!" said Miss Minchin. "And she is mine,
not yours. Everything you own is mine."
"Please take it away from me, then," said Sara. "I do not want
it."
If she had cried and sobbed and seemed frightened, Miss Minchin
might almost have had more patience with her. She was a woman
who liked to domineer and feel her power, and as she looked at
Sara's pale little steadfast face and heard her proud little
voice, she quite felt as if her might was being set at naught.
"Don't put on grand airs," she said. "The time for that sort of
thing is past. You are not a princess any longer. Your
carriage and your pony will be sent away—your maid will be
dismissed. You will wear your oldest and plainest clothes—your
extravagant ones are no longer suited to your station. You are
like Becky—you must work for your living."
To her surprise, a faint gleam of light came into the child's
eyes—a shade of relief.
"Can I work?" she said.
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