Partly because he was out of
practice, partly -
"It is a little difficult to get over here," she
said. A tree had fallen during the last rainy weather, and hung
half suspended by its roots, obstructing the path. "You must not
hold by it, it might give way and drag us with it."
At last there is something which she considers
difficult, he thought.
She deliberated for a moment before the
farthest-spreading branches which had to be crossed; then, lifting
her skirts to her knees, over them she went, and over the next ones
as well, and then across the trunk to the farthest side, where
there were no branches in the way; then obliquely up the hillside.
She stood still at the top of the height and watched him crawl up
after her.
It cost him a struggle; he was out of breath and the
perspiration poured off him. When he got up to her, everything swam
before him; and although it was only for a fraction of a second, it
left him fairly captivated by her strength,
She stood and looked at him with bright, roguish
eyes. She was flushed and hot, and her bosom rose and fell quickly;
but there was no doubt that she could at once have taken an equally
long and steep climb. He was not able to speak a word.
"Now turn round and look at the sea," she said.
The words affected him as though great Pan had
uttered them from the mountains far behind. He turned his eyes
towards them. It seemed as though Nature herself had spoken to him.
The words caressed him as with a hand now cold, now warm, and he
became a different being. For he had lost himself - lost himself in
her as she walked along the river-bank and climbed the hillside.
She seemed to draw fresh power from the woods, to grow taller, more
agile, more vigorous. The fervour of her eyes, the richness of her
voice, the grace of her movements, the glimpses of her soul, had
allured him down there in the valley, beside the rushing river, and
the feeling of loss of individuality had increased with the
exertion and the excitement. No ball-room or play-ground, no
gymnasium or riding-school can display the physical powers, and the
spirit which underlies them, the unity of mind and body, as does
the scaling of steep hills and rocky slopes. At last, intoxicated
by these feelings, he thought to himself - I am climbing after her,
climbing to the highest pinnacle of happiness. Up there! Up there!
The composure of her manner towards him, her freedom from
embarrassment, maddened him. Up there! Up there! And ever as they
mounted she became more spirited, he more distressed. Up there! Up
there! His eyes grew dim, for a few seconds he could not move,
could not speak. Then she had said, "Now you must look at the
sea."
He seemed to see with different eyes, to be endowed
with new sensations, and these new sensations gave answer to what
the distant mountains had said. They answered the sea out there
before him, the island-studded sea, the open sea beyond, the wide
swelling ocean, the desires and destinies of life all the world
over. The sea lay steel-bright beneath the suffused sunlight, and
seemed to gaze on the rugged land as on a beloved child instinct
with vital power. Cling thou to the mighty one, or thy strength
will be thine undoing!
And many of the inventions which he had dreamed of
loomed vaguely before him. They lay outside there. It depended on
him whether he should one day bring them safely into port.
"What are you thinking about?" said she, the sound
of her voice put these thoughts to flight and recalled him to the
present. He felt how full and rich her contralto voice was, A
moment ago he could have told her this, and more besides, as an
introduction to still more. Now he sat down without answering, and
she did the same.
"I come up here very often," she said, "to look at
the sea. From here it seems the source of life and death; down
there it is a mere highway." He smiled. She continued: "The sea has
this power, that whatever pre-occupation one may bring up here, it
vanishes in a moment; but down below it remains with one."
He looked at her.
"Yes, it is true," said she, and coloured.
"I do not in the least doubt it," he replied.
But she did not continue the subject. "You are
looking at the saplings, I see."
"Yes."
"You must know that last year there was a long
drought; almost all the young trees up here withered away, and in
other places on the hillsides also, as you see." She pointed as she
spoke. "It looks so ugly as one comes into the bay. I thought about
that yesterday. I thought also that you should not be here long
before you saw that you had done us an injustice, for could
anything be prettier than that little fir-tree down there in the
hollow? just look at its colour; that is a healthy fellow! and
these sturdy saplings, and that little gem there!" The tones of
Helene's voice betrayed the interest which she felt. "But how that
one over there has grown." She scrambled across to it, and he after
her.
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