She
thought that these invitations were merely formal, and so, from one
point of view, they were. He was most ready to appease her, most
ready to show her everything, for he felt himself to blame, though
he certainly thought that she might have understood; but her
presence would have marred their tete-a-tete; he would have been
embarrassed enough if she had acquiesced!
The Dean, with his wife and daughter, came the
following Sunday to return Fru Kaas's visit. She was politeness
itself, and specially thanked Helene for her care of Hellebergene.
Helene coloured without knowing why, but when Rafael also coloured,
she blushed still deeper. This was the event of the visit; nothing
else of importance occurred.
In their daily walks through the fields and woods,
the two young people soon exhausted the topic of Hellebergene. He
took up another theme. His inventions became the topic of
conversation. He had acquired, from his studies with his mother, an
unusual facility in explaining his meaning, and in Helene he found
a listener such as he had rarely before met with. She was
sufficiently acquainted with the laws of nature to understand a
simple description. But all the same it was not his inventions but
himself that he discoursed on. He quite realised this, and became
all the more eager. Her eyes made his reasoning clearer. He had
never before had such complete faith in himself as when near her,
and now no misgivings succeeded.
Helene, however, had not hitherto known the
direction and results of his studies. He was an engineer, that was
all that she had heard on the subject. When he had told her more
about it he rose considerably in her estimation. It was SHE now who
began to feel constrained. At first she did not understand why she
felt obliged to put more restraint upon herself. After a time she
began to excuse herself from joining him, and their walks became
more rare. "She had so much to do now."
He did not comprehend the reason of this; he fancied
that his mother might be to blame (which, by the way, was quite a
mistake), and he grew angry. He was already greatly affronted that
his mother had chosen to confound his former gallantries with his
present attachment. He quite forgot that at first he had merely
sought to amuse himself here as elsewhere. He gave himself up
entirely to his passion, which would brook no hindrance, no
opposition; it became majestic. In Helene he had found his future
life.
But her parents had grown less cordial of late owing
to Fru Kaas's coldness, and the time came when all attempts to
obtain meetings with Helene failed. He had never been so
infatuated. He seemed to see her continually before him - her
luxuriant beauty, her light step, her grey eyes gazing steadfastly
into his.
Why could they not be married to-morrow or the next
day? What could be more natural? What could more certainly help him
forward?
The constraint between his mother and himself had
reached a greater pitch than ever before. He thought seriously of
leaving her and the country. He still had some money left, the
proceeds of the patent, and he could easily make more. How irksome
it became to him to go into the fields and woods without Helene! He
could not study; he had no one to talk to; what should he do?
Devote himself to boating! - row out far beyond the
bay, right up to the town! One day, as he rowed along the coast,
beyond the bay, he noticed that the clay and flag-stone formation
in the hills and ridges was speckled with grey. Helene had told him
how extraordinary it looked out there now that the trees were gone,
but as they would have had to come out in the boat to see it he had
let the remark pass. Now he decided to land there. The shore rose
steeply from the water, but he scrambled up.
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