She felt that this humbled her, made her of no account,
but ah! how great it made him seem!
The rowing, the climbing, the excitement, gave
animation to Rafael's explanations; face and figure showed his
state of tension. She felt almost giddy: should she return to the
boat and row away alone? But she was too proud thus to betray
herself.
It seemed to her that there was the look of a
conqueror in his eyes; but she did not intend to be conquered.
Neither did she wish to appear as the one who had remained at home
and speculated on his return. That would be simply to turn all that
was most cherished, most unselfish in her life, against herself.
Something in him frightened her, something which, perhaps, he
himself could not master - his inward agitation. It was not
boisterous or terrifying; it was glowing, earnest zeal, which
seemed to deprive him of power and her of will, and this she would
not endure.
Hardly had they gained the summit from which they
could look out over the islands to the open sea, and across to
Hellebergene, to the parsonage, and the river flowing into the
inner bay, than he turned away from it all towards her, as she
stood with heaving breast, glowing cheeks, and eyes which dare not
turn away from the sea.
"Helene," he whispered, approaching her; he wished
to take her in his arms.
She trembled, although she did not turn round; the
next moment she sprang away from him, and did not pause till she
had got down to the boat, which she was about to push off, but
bethought herself that it would be too cowardly, so she remained
standing and watched him come after her.
"Helene," he called from above, "why do you run away
from me?"
"Rafael, you must not," she answered when he
rejoined her. The strongest accent of both prayer and command of
which a powerful nature is capable sounded in her words. She in the
boat, he on the shore; they eyed one another like two antagonists,
watchful and breathing hard, till he loosed the boat, stepped in
and pushed off.
She took her seat; but before doing the same he
said:
"You know quite well what I wanted to say to you."
He spoke with difficulty.
She did not answer and got out her oars; her tears
were ready to flow. They rowed home again more slowly than they had
come.
A lark hovered over their heads. The note of a
thrush was heard away inland. A guillemot skimmed over the water in
the same direction as their own, and a tern on curved wing screamed
in their wake. There was a sense of expectation over all. The scent
of the young fir-trees and the heather was wafted out to them;
farther in lay the flowery meadows of Hellebergene. At a great
distance an eagle could be seen, high in air, winging his way from
the mountains, followed by a flock of screaming crows, who imagined
that they were chasing him. Rafael drew Helene's attention to
them.
"Yes, look at them," she said; and these few words,
spoken naturally, helped to put both more at their ease. He looked
round at her and smiled, and she smiled back at him. He felt in the
seventh heaven of delight, but it must not be spoken. But the oars
seemed to repeat in measured cadence, "It - is - she. It - is -
she. It - is - she." He said to himself, Is not her resistance a
thousand times sweeter than -
"It is strange that the sea birds no longer breed on
the islands in here," he said.
"That is because for a long time the birds have not
been protected; they have gone farther out."
"They must be protected again: we must manage to
bring the birds back, must we not?"
"Yes," she answered.
He turned quickly towards her. Perhaps she should
not have said that, she thought, for had he not said "we"?
To show how far she was from such a thought, she
looked towards the land. "The clover is not good this year."
"No. What shall you do with the plot next year?"
But she did not fall into the trap. He turned round,
but she looked away.
Now the rush of the river tossed them up and down in
a giddy dance, as the force of the stream met the boat. Rafael
looked up to where they had walked together the first day. He
turned to see if she were not, by chance, looking in the same
direction. Yes, she was!
They rowed on towards the landing-place at the
parsonage, and he spoke once or twice, but she had learned that
that was dangerous. They reached the beach.
"Helene!" said he, as she jumped on shore with a
good-bye in passing, "Helene!" But she did not stay. "Helene!" he
shouted, with such meaning in it that she turned.
She looked at him, but only remained for a moment.
No more was needed! He rowed home like the greatest conqueror that
those waters had ever seen. Ever since the Vikings had met together
in the innermost creek, and left behind them the barrow which is
still to be seen near the parsonage - yes, ever since the elk of
the primaeval forest, with mighty antlers, swam away from the doe
which he had won in combat, to the other which he heard on the
opposite shore. Since the first swarm of ants, like a waving fan,
danced up and down in the sunlight, on its one day of flight. Since
the first seals struggled against each other to reach the one whom
they saw lie sunning herself on the rocks.
Fru Kaas had seen them pass as they rowed out at a
furious pace.
1 comment