She
was hatless as usual, and the sun caught her hair and one side of her
cheek and throat.
“Oh, I’m so glad!” she cried, clapping her little
hands softly in his face, “so very glad, because that means that if you
like me you must also like what I do, and what I belong to.”
Already he regretted bitterly having lost control of
himself. Something in the phrasing of her sentence chilled him. He knew
the fear of embarking upon an unknown and dangerous sea.
“You will take part in our real life, I mean,” she
added softly, with an indescribable coaxing of manner, as though she
noticed his shrinking. “You will come back to us.”
Already this slip of a child seemed to dominate him;
he felt her power coming over him more and more; something emanated
from her that stole over his senses and made him aware that her
personality, for all its simple grace, held forces that were stately,
imposing, august. He saw her again moving through smoke and flame amid
broken and tempestuous scenery, alarmingly strong, her terrible mother
by her side. Dimly this shone through her smile and appearance of
charming innocence.
“You will, I know,” she repeated, holding him with her eyes.
They were quite alone up there on the ramparts, and
the sensation that she was overmastering him stirred a wild
sensuousness in his blood. The mingled abandon and reserve in her
attracted him furiously, and all of him that was man rose up and
resisted the creeping influence, at the same time acclaiming it with
the full delight of his forgotten youth. An irresistible desire came to
him to question her, to summon what still remained to him of his own
little personality in an effort to retain the right to his normal self.
The girl had grown quiet again, and was now leaning
on the broad wall close beside him, gazing out across the darkening
plain, her elbows on the coping, motionless as a figure carved in
stone. He took his courage in both hands.
“Tell me, Use,” he said, unconsciously
imitating her own purring softness of voice, yet aware that he was
utterly in earnest, “what is the meaning of this town, and what is this
real life you speak of? And why is it that the people watch me from
morning to night? Tell me what it all means? And, tell me,” he added
more quickly with passion in his voice, “what you really are—yourself?”
She turned her head and looked at him through
half-closed eyelids, her growing inner excitement betraying itself by
the faint colour that ran like a shadow across her face.
“It seems to me,”—he faltered oddly under her
gaze—”that I have some right to know–-“
Suddenly she opened her eyes to the full. “You love
me, then?” she asked softly.
“I swear,” he cried impetuously, moved as by the
force of a rising tide, “I never felt before—I have never known any
other girl who—”
“Then you have the right to know,” she calmly
interrupted his confused confession, “for love shares all secrets.”
She paused, and a thrill like fire ran swiftly
through him. Her words lifted him off the earth, and he felt a radiant
happiness, followed almost the same instant in horrible contrast by the
thought of death. He became aware that she had turned her eyes upon his
own and was speaking again.
“The real life I speak of,” she whispered, “is the
old, old life within, the life of long ago, the life to which you, too,
once belonged, and to which you still belong.”
A faint wave of memory troubled the deeps of his
soul as her low voice sank into him. What she was saying he knew
instinctively to be true, even though he could not as yet understand
its full purport. His present life seemed slipping from him as he
listened, merging his personality in one that was far older and
greater. It was this loss of his present self that brought to him the
thought of death.
“You came here,” she went on, “with the purpose of
seeking it, and the people felt your presence and are waiting to know
what you decide, whether you will leave them without having found it,
or whether–-“
Her eyes remained fixed upon his own, but her face
began to change, growing larger and darker with an expression of age.
“It is their thoughts constantly playing about your
soul that makes you feel they watch you. They do not watch you with
their eyes. The purposes of their inner life are calling to you,
seeking to claim you. You were all part of the same life long, long
ago, and now they want you back again among them.”
Vezin’s timid heart sank with dread as he listened;
but the girl’s eyes held him with a net of joy so that he had no wish
to escape. She fascinated him, as it were, clean out of his normal self.
“Alone, however, the people could never have caught
and held you,” she resumed. “The motive force was not strong enough; it
has faded through all these years. But I”—she paused a moment and
looked at him with complete confidence in her splendid eyes—”I possess
the spell to conquer you and hold you: the spell of old love. I can win
you back again and make you live the old life with me, for the force of
the ancient tie between us, if I choose to use it, is irresistible. And
I do choose to use it. I still want you. And you, dear soul of my dim
past”— she pressed closer to him so that her breath passed across his
eyes, and her voice positively sang—”I mean to have you, for you love
me and are utterly at my mercy.”
Vezin heard, and yet did not hear; understood, yet
did not understand. He had passed into a condition of exaltation. The
world was beneath his feet, made of music and flowers, and he was
flying somewhere far above it through the sunshine of pure delight. He
was breathless and giddy with the wonder of her words. They intoxicated
him.
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