Godwin's home
was a very small house in a monotonous little street; a garret
served as bedroom for the two boys, also as the elder one's
laboratory. Servant Mrs. Peak had none. She managed everything
herself, as in the old Greenwich days, leaving Charlotte free to
work at her embroidery. Godwin took turns with Oliver at blacking
the shoes.
As a matter of course the boys accompanied their mother each
Sunday morning to the parish church, and this ceremony was becoming
an insufferable tax on Godwin's patience. It was not only that he
hated the name of religion, and scorned with much fierceness all
who came in sympathetic contact therewith; the loss of time seemed
to him an oppressive injury, especially now that he began to suffer
from restricted leisure. He would not refuse to obey his mother's
wish, but the sullenness of his Sabbatic demeanour made the whole
family uncomfortable. As often as possible he feigned illness. He
tried the effect of dolorous sighs and groans; but Mrs. Peak could
not dream of conceding a point which would have seemed to her the
condonation of deadly sin. 'When I am a man!' muttered Godwin. 'Ah!
when I am a man!'
A year had gone by, and the routine to which he was bound began
to have a servile flavour. His mind chafed at subjugation to
commercial interests. Sick of 'sheep and cattle dressings', he grew
tired of chemistry altogether, and presently of physical science in
general. His evenings were given to poetry and history; he took up
the classical schoolbooks again, and found a charm in Latin syntax
hitherto unperceived. It was plain to him now how he had been
wronged by the necessity of leaving school when his education had
but just begun.
Discontent becoming ripe for utterance, he unbosomed himself to
Mr Gunnery. It happened that the old man had just returned from a
visit to Kingsmill, where he had spent a week in the museum, then
newly enriched with geologic specimens. After listening in silence
to the boy's complaints, and pondering for a long time, he began to
talk of Whitelaw College.
'Does it cost much to study there?' Godwin asked, gloomily.
'No great sum, I think. There are scholarships to be had.'
Mr. Gunnery threw out the suggestion carelessly. Knowing the
hazards of life, he could not quite justify himself in encouraging
Godwin's restiveness.
'Scholarships? For free study?'
'Yes; but that wouldn't mean free living, you know. Students
don't live at the College.'
'How do you go in for a scholarship?'
The old man replied, meditatively, 'If you were to pass the
Cambridge Local Examination, and to get the first place in the
Kingsmill district, you would have three years of free study at
Whitelaw.'
'Three years?' shouted Godwin, springing up from his chair.
'But how could you live, my boy?'
Godwin sat down again, and let his head fall forward.
How to keep oneself alive during a few years of intellectual
growth?—a question often asked by men of mature age, but seldom by
a lad of sixteen. No matter. He resolved that he would study for
this Cambridge Local Examination, and have a try for the
scholarship. His attainments were already up to the standard
required for average success in such competitions. On obtaining a
set of 'papers', he found that they looked easy enough. Could he
not come out first in the Kingsmill district?
He worked vigorously at special subjects; aid was needless, but
he wished for more leisure. Not a word to any member of his
household. When his mother discovered that he was reading in the
bedroom till long past midnight, she made serious objection on the
score of health and on that of gas bills. Godwin quietly asserted
that work he must, and that if necessary he would buy candles out
of his pocket-money.
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