As I opened the door, I heard at the same
instant a deep groan, expressive of intolerable anguish. The sound
of the door in opening seemed to alarm the person within; I heard
the lid of a trunk hastily shut, and the noise as of fastening a
lock. I conceived that Mr. Falkland was there, and was going
instantly to retire; but at that moment a voice, that seemed
supernaturally tremendous, exclaimed, Who is there? The voice was
Mr. Falkland's. The sound of it thrilled my very vitals. I
endeavoured to answer, but my speech failed, and being incapable of
any other reply, I instinctively advanced within the door into the
room. Mr. Falkland was just risen from the floor upon which he had
been sitting or kneeling. His face betrayed strong symptoms of
confusion. With a violent effort, however, these symptoms vanished,
and instantaneously gave place to a countenance sparkling with
rage.
"Villain!" cried he, "what has brought you here?" I hesitated a
confused and irresolute answer. "Wretch!" interrupted Mr. Falkland,
with uncontrollable impatience, "you want to ruin me. You set
yourself as a spy upon my actions; but bitterly shall you repent
your insolence. Do you think you shall watch my privacies with
impunity?" I attempted to defend myself. "Begone, devil!" rejoined
he. "Quit the room, or I will trample you into atoms." Saying this,
he advanced towards me. But I was already sufficiently terrified,
and vanished in a moment. I heard the door shut after me with
violence; and thus ended this extraordinary scene.
I saw him again in the evening, and he was then tolerably
composed. His behaviour, which was always kind, was now doubly
attentive and soothing. He seemed to have something of which he
wished to disburthen his mind, but to want words in which to convey
it. I looked at him with anxiety and affection. He made two
unsuccessful efforts, shook his head, and then putting five guineas
into my hand, pressed it in a manner that I could feel proceeded
from a mind pregnant with various emotions, though I could not
interpret them. Having done this, he seemed immediately to
recollect himself, and to take refuge in the usual distance and
solemnity of his manner.
I easily understood that secrecy was one of the things expected
from me; and, indeed, my mind was too much disposed to meditate
upon what I had heard and seen, to make it a topic of
indiscriminate communication. Mr. Collins, however, and myself
happened to sup together that evening, which was but seldom the
case, his avocations obliging him to be much abroad. He could not
help observing an uncommon dejection and anxiety in my countenance,
and affectionately enquired into the reason. I endeavoured to evade
his questions, but my youth and ignorance of the world gave me
little advantage for that purpose. Beside this, I had been
accustomed to view Mr. Collins with considerable attachment, and I
conceived from the nature of his situation that there could be
small impropriety in making him my confident in the present
instance.
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