Nell had
struggled upward out of menacing depths. She had reconstructed a
broken life. And now she was fighting for the name and happiness
of her child. Little Nell! Cameron experienced a shuddering ripple
in all his being–the physical rack of an emotion born of a new and
strange consciousness.
As Cameron gazed out over the blood-red, darkening desert suddenly
the strife in his soul ceased. The moment was one of incalculable
change, in which his eyes seemed to pierce the vastness of cloud
and range, and mystery of gloom and shadow–to see with strong vision
the illimitable space before him. He felt the grandeur of the desert,
its simplicity, its truth. He had learned at last the lesson it
taught. No longer strange was his meeting and wandering with Warren.
Each had marched in the steps of destiny; and as the lines of their
fates had been inextricably tangled in the years that were gone,
so now their steps had crossed and turned them toward one common
goal. For years they had been two men marching alone, answering
to an inward driving search, and the desert had brought them together.
For years they had wandered alone in silence and solitude, where
the sun burned white all day and the stars burned white all night,
blindly following the whisper of a spirit. But now Cameron knew
that he was no longer blind, and in this flash of revelation he
felt that it had been given him to help Warren with his burden.
He returned to camp trying to evolve a plan. As always at that
long hour when the afterglow of sunset lingered in the west,
Warren plodded to and fro in the gloom. All night Cameron lay
awake thinking.
In the morning, when Warren brought the burros to camp and began
preparations for the usual packing, Cameron broke silence.
“Pardner, your story last night made me think. I want to tell you
something about myself. It’s hard enough to be driven by sorrow
for one you’ve loved, as you’ve been driven; but to suffer sleepless
and eternal remorse for the ruin of one you’ve loved as I have
suffered–that is hell. . . .Listen. In my younger days–it seems
long now, yet it’s not so many years–I was wild. I wronged the
sweetest and loveliest girl I ever knew. I went away not dreaming
that any disgrace might come to her. Along about that time I fell
into terrible moods–I changed–I learned I really loved her. Then
came a letter I should have gotten months before. It told of her
trouble–importuned me to hurry to save her. Half frantic with
shame and fear, I got a marriage certificate and rushed back to her town.
She was gone–had been gone for weeks, and her disgrace was known.
Friends warned me to keep out of reach of her father. I trailed her–
found her. I married her. But too late!…She would not live with me.
She left me–I followed her west, but never found her.”
Warren leaned forward a little and looked into Cameron’s eyes, as
if searching there for the repentance that might make him less
deserving of a man’s scorn.
Cameron met the gaze unflinchingly, and again began to speak:
“You know, of course, how men out here somehow lose old names, old
identities. It won’t surprise you much to learn my name really isn’t
Cameron, as I once told you.”
Warren stiffened upright. It seemed that there might have been a
blank, a suspension, between his grave interest and some strange
mood to come.
Cameron felt his heart bulge and contract in his breast; all his
body grew cold; and it took tremendous effort for him to make his
lips form words.
“Warren, I’m the man you’re hunting. I’m Burton.
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