"Answer
him one question, and he'll ask you a dozen directly. Hulks are
prison-ships, right 'cross th' meshes." We always used that name
for marshes, in our country.
"I wonder who's put into prison-ships, and why they're put
there?" said I, in a general way, and with quiet desperation.
It was too much for Mrs. Joe, who immediately rose. "I tell you
what, young fellow," said she, "I didn't bring you up by hand to
badger people's lives out. It would be blame to me and not praise,
if I had. People are put in the Hulks because they murder, and
because they rob, and forge, and do all sorts of bad; and they
always begin by asking questions. Now, you get along to bed!"
I was never allowed a candle to light me to bed, and, as I went
up stairs in the dark, with my head tingling,—from Mrs. Joe's
thimble having played the tambourine upon it, to accompany her last
words,—I felt fearfully sensible of the great convenience that the
hulks were handy for me. I was clearly on my way there. I had begun
by asking questions, and I was going to rob Mrs. Joe.
Since that time, which is far enough away now, I have often
thought that few people know what secrecy there is in the young
under terror. No matter how unreasonable the terror, so that it be
terror. I was in mortal terror of the young man who wanted my heart
and liver; I was in mortal terror of my interlocutor with the iron
leg; I was in mortal terror of myself, from whom an awful promise
had been extracted; I had no hope of deliverance through my
all-powerful sister, who repulsed me at every turn; I am afraid to
think of what I might have done on requirement, in the secrecy of
my terror.
If I slept at all that night, it was only to imagine myself
drifting down the river on a strong spring-tide, to the Hulks; a
ghostly pirate calling out to me through a speaking-trumpet, as I
passed the gibbet-station, that I had better come ashore and be
hanged there at once, and not put it off. I was afraid to sleep,
even if I had been inclined, for I knew that at the first faint
dawn of morning I must rob the pantry. There was no doing it in the
night, for there was no getting a light by easy friction then; to
have got one I must have struck it out of flint and steel, and have
made a noise like the very pirate himself rattling his chains.
As soon as the great black velvet pall outside my little window
was shot with gray, I got up and went down stairs; every board upon
the way, and every crack in every board calling after me, "Stop
thief!" and "Get up, Mrs. Joe!" In the pantry, which was far more
abundantly supplied than usual, owing to the season, I was very
much alarmed by a hare hanging up by the heels, whom I rather
thought I caught when my back was half turned, winking. I had no
time for verification, no time for selection, no time for anything,
for I had no time to spare. I stole some bread, some rind of
cheese, about half a jar of mincemeat (which I tied up in my
pocket-handkerchief with my last night's slice), some brandy from a
stone bottle (which I decanted into a glass bottle I had secretly
used for making that intoxicating fluid, Spanish-liquorice-water,
up in my room: diluting the stone bottle from a jug in the kitchen
cupboard), a meat bone with very little on it, and a beautiful
round compact pork pie. I was nearly going away without the pie,
but I was tempted to mount upon a shelf, to look what it was that
was put away so carefully in a covered earthen ware dish in a
corner, and I found it was the pie, and I took it in the hope that
it was not intended for early use, and would not be missed for some
time.
There was a door in the kitchen, communicating with the forge; I
unlocked and unbolted that door, and got a file from among Joe's
tools. Then I put the fastenings as I had found them, opened the
door at which I had entered when I ran home last night, shut it,
and ran for the misty marshes.
Chapter III
It was a rimy morning, and very damp. I had seen the damp lying
on the outside of my little window, as if some goblin had been
crying there all night, and using the window for a
pocket-handkerchief. Now, I saw the damp lying on the bare hedges
and spare grass, like a coarser sort of spiders' webs; hanging
itself from twig to twig and blade to blade. On every rail and
gate, wet lay clammy, and the marsh mist was so thick, that the
wooden finger on the post directing people to our village—a
direction which they never accepted, for they never came there—was
invisible to me until I was quite close under it. Then, as I looked
up at it, while it dripped, it seemed to my oppressed conscience
like a phantom devoting me to the Hulks.
The mist was heavier yet when I got out upon the marshes, so
that instead of my running at everything, everything seemed to run
at me. This was very disagreeable to a guilty mind. The gates and
dikes and banks came bursting at me through the mist, as if they
cried as plainly as could be, "A boy with Somebody's else's pork
pie! Stop him!" The cattle came upon me with like suddenness,
staring out of their eyes, and steaming out of their nostrils,
"Halloa, young thief!" One black ox, with a white cravat on,—who
even had to my awakened conscience something of a clerical
air,—fixed me so obstinately with his eyes, and moved his blunt
head round in such an accusatory manner as I moved round, that I
blubbered out to him, "I couldn't help it, sir! It wasn't for
myself I took it!" Upon which he put down his head, blew a cloud of
smoke out of his nose, and vanished with a kick-up of his hind-legs
and a flourish of his tail.
All this time, I was getting on towards the river; but however
fast I went, I couldn't warm my feet, to which the damp cold seemed
riveted, as the iron was riveted to the leg of the man I was
running to meet. I knew my way to the Battery, pretty straight, for
I had been down there on a Sunday with Joe, and Joe, sitting on an
old gun, had told me that when I was 'prentice to him, regularly
bound, we would have such Larks there! However, in the confusion of
the mist, I found myself at last too far to the right, and
consequently had to try back along the river-side, on the bank of
loose stones above the mud and the stakes that staked the tide out.
Making my way along here with all despatch, I had just crossed a
ditch which I knew to be very near the Battery, and had just
scrambled up the mound beyond the ditch, when I saw the man sitting
before me. His back was towards me, and he had his arms folded, and
was nodding forward, heavy with sleep.
I thought he would be more glad if I came upon him with his
breakfast, in that unexpected manner, so I went forward softly and
touched him on the shoulder. He instantly jumped up, and it was not
the same man, but another man!
And yet this man was dressed in coarse gray, too, and had a
great iron on his leg, and was lame, and hoarse, and cold, and was
everything that the other man was; except that he had not the same
face, and had a flat broad-brimmed low-crowned felt hat on. All
this I saw in a moment, for I had only a moment to see it in: he
swore an oath at me, made a hit at me,—it was a round weak blow
that missed me and almost knocked himself down, for it made him
stumble,—and then he ran into the mist, stumbling twice as he went,
and I lost him.
"It's the young man!" I thought, feeling my heart shoot as I
identified him.
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