He thought that
Marsh's looks did not match his words. He spoke as the devoted
father, afraid that his little boy should overhear nauseous and
offensive gossip and conjecture about a horrible and obscene crime.
But he: looked like a man who had caught sight of a gallows, and
that, Last felt, was altogether a very different kind of fear. And,
then, there was his reference to his wife. Last had noticed that
since the crime in the forest there had been something amiss with
her; but, again, he mistrusted Marsh's comment. Here was a woman
whose usual habit was a rather lazy good humour; but of late there
had been a look and an air of suppressed fury, the burning glance of
a jealous woman, the rage of despised beauty. She spoke little, and
then as briefly as possible; but one might suspect flames and fires
within. Last had seen this and wondered, but not very much, being
resolved to mind his own business. He had supposed there had been
some difference of opinion between her and her husband; very likely
about the re-arrangement of the drawing-room furniture and hiring a
grand piano. He certainly had not thought of tracing Mrs. Marsh's
altered air to the villainous crime that had been committed. And now
Marsh was telling him that these glances of concealed rage were the
outward signs of tender maternal anxiety; and not one word of all
that did he believe. He put Marsh's half-hidden terror beside his
wife's half-hidden fury; he thought of the book in the summer-house
and things that were being whispered about the horror in the wood:
and loathing and dread possessed him. He had no proof, it was true;
merely conjecture, but he felt no doubt. There could be no other
explanation. And what could he do, but leave this terrible place?
Last could get no sleep. He undressed and went to bed, and tossed
about in the half-dark of the summer night. Then he lit his lamp and
dressed again, and wondered whether he had better not steal away
without a word, and walk the eight miles to the station, and escape
by the first train that went to London. It was not merely loathing
for the man and his works; it was deadly fear, also, that urged him
to fly from the White House. He felt sure that if Marsh guessed at
his suspicions of the truth, his life might well be in danger. There
was no mercy or scruple in that evil man. He might even now be at his
door, listening, waiting. There was cold terror in his heart, and
cold sweat pouring at the thought. He paced softly up and down his
room in his bare feet, pausing now and again to listen for that other
soft step outside. He locked the door as silently as he could, and
felt safer. He would wait till the day came and people were stirring
about the house, and then he might venture to come out and make his
escape.
And yet when he heard the servants moving over their work, he
hesitated. The light of the sun was shining in the valley, and the
white mist over the silver river floated upward and vanished; the
sweet breath of the wood entered the window of his room. The black
horror and fear were raised from his spirit. He began to hesitate, to
suspect his judgment, to enquire whether he had not rushed to his
black conclusions in a panic of the night. His logical deductions at
midnight seemed to smell of nightmare in the brightness of that
valley; the song of the aspiring lark confuted him. He remembered
Garraway's great argument after a famous supper at the Turk's Head:
that it was always unsafe to make improbability the guide of life.
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