Hearing me confess my love of the
Nuit d'Octobre, he had burst out in a bray of laughter, like
a bugle-call, and told me, by way of warning: "You must conquer
your vile taste for A. de Musset, Esquire. He is a bad egg, one of
the very worst, a pretty detestable specimen. I am bound to admit,
natheless," he added graciously, "that he, and even the man Racine,
did, each of them, once in his life, compose a line which is not
only fairly rhythmical, but has also what is in my eyes the supreme
merit of meaning absolutely nothing. One is
La blanche Oloossone et la blanche Camire,
and the other
La fille de Minos et de Pasiphaë."
They were submitted to my judgment, as evidence for the defence
of the two runagates, in an article by my very dear master Father
Lecomte, who is found pleasing in the sight of the immortal gods.
By which token, here is a book which I have not the time, just now,
to read, a book recommended, it would seem, by that colossal
fellow. He regards, or so they tell me, its author, one Bergotte,
Esquire, as a subtle scribe, more subtle, indeed, than any beast of
the field; and, albeit he exhibits on occasion a critical pacifism,
a tenderness in suffering fools, for which it is impossible to
account, and hard to make allowance, still his word has weight with
me as it were the Delphic Oracle. Read you then this lyrical prose,
and, if the Titanic master-builder of rhythm who composed
Bhagavat and the Lévrier de Magnus speaks not
falsely, then, by Apollo, you may taste, even you, my master, the
ambrosial joys of Olympus." It was in an ostensible vein of sarcasm
that he had asked me to call him, and that he himself called me,
"my master." But, as a matter of fact, we each derived a certain
amount of satisfaction from the mannerism, being still at the age
in which one believes that one gives a thing real existence by
giving it a name.
Unfortunately I was not able to set at rest, by further talks
with Bloch, in which I might have insisted upon an explanation, the
doubts he had engendered in me when he told me that fine lines of
poetry (from which I, if you please, expected nothing less than the
revelation of truth itself) were all the finer if they meant
absolutely nothing. For, as it happened, Bloch was not invited to
the house again. At first, he had been well received there. It is
true that my grandfather made out that, whenever I formed a strong
attachment to any one of my friends and brought him home with me,
that friend was invariably a Jew; to which he would not have
objected on principle—indeed his own friend Swann was of Jewish
extraction—had he not found that the Jews whom I chose as friends
were not usually of the best type. And so I was hardly ever able to
bring a new friend home without my grandfather's humming the "O,
God of our fathers" from La Juive, or else "Israel, break
thy chain," singing the tune alone, of course, to an
"um-ti-tum-ti-tum, tra-la"; but I used to be afraid of my friend's
recognising the sound, and so being able to reconstruct the
words.
Before seeing them, merely on hearing their names, about which,
as often as not, there was nothing particularly Hebraic, he would
divine not only the Jewish origin of such of my friends as might
indeed be of the chosen people, but even some dark secret which was
hidden in their family.
"And what do they call your friend who is coming this
evening?"
"Dumont, grandpapa."
"Dumont! Oh, I'm frightened of Dumont."
And he would sing:
Archers, be on your guard!
Watch without rest, without sound,
and then, after a few adroit questions on points of detail, he
would call out "On guard! on guard," or, if it were the victim
himself who had already arrived, and had been obliged,
unconsciously, by my grandfather's subtle examination, to admit his
origin, then my grandfather, to shew us that he had no longer any
doubts, would merely look at us, humming almost inaudibly the air
of
What! do you hither guide the feet
Of this timid Israelite?
or of
Sweet vale of Hebron, dear paternal fields,
or, perhaps, of
Yes, I am of the chosen race.
These little eccentricities on my grandfather's part implied no
ill-will whatsoever towards my friends. But Bloch had displeased my
family for other reasons. He had begun by annoying my father, who,
seeing him come in with wet clothes, had asked him with keen
interest:
"Why, M. Bloch, is there a change in the weather; has it been
raining? I can't understand it; the barometer has been 'set
fair.'"
Which drew from Bloch nothing more instructive than "Sir, I am
absolutely incapable of telling you whether it has rained. I live
so resolutely apart from physical contingencies that my senses no
longer trouble to inform me of them."
"My poor boy," said my father after Bloch had gone, "your friend
is out of his mind. Why, he couldn't even tell me what the weather
was like. As if there could be anything more interesting! He is an
imbecile."
Next, Bloch had displeased my grandmother because, after
luncheon, when she complained of not feeling very well, he had
stifled a sob and wiped the tears from his eyes.
"You cannot imagine that he is sincere," she observed to me.
"Why he doesn't know me. Unless he's mad, of course."
And finally he had upset the whole household when he arrived an
hour and a half late for luncheon and covered with mud from head to
foot, and made not the least apology, saying merely: "I never allow
myself to be influenced in the smallest degree either by
atmospheric disturbances or by the arbitrary divisions of what is
known as Time. I would willingly reintroduce to society the opium
pipe of China or the Malayan kriss, but I am wholly and entirely
without instruction in those infinitely more pernicious (besides
being quite bleakly bourgeois) implements, the umbrella and the
watch."
In spite of all this he would still have been received at
Combray. He was, of course, hardly the friend my parents would have
chosen for me; they had, in the end, decided that the tears which
he had shed on hearing of my grandmother's illness were genuine
enough; but they knew, either instinctively or from their own
experience, that our early impulsive emotions have but little
influence over our later actions and the conduct of our lives; and
that regard for moral obligations, loyalty to our friends, patience
in finishing our work, obedience to a rule of life, have a surer
foundation in habits solidly formed and blindly followed than in
these momentary transports, ardent but sterile. They would have
preferred to Bloch, as companions for myself, boys who would have
given me no more than it is proper, by all the laws of middle-class
morality, for boys to give one another, who would not unexpectedly
send me a basket of fruit because they happened, that morning, to
have thought of me with affection, but who, since they were
incapable of inclining in my favour, by any single impulse of their
imagination and emotions, the exact balance of the duties and
claims of friendship, were as incapable of loading the scales to my
prejudice. Even the injuries we do them will not easily divert from
the path of their duty towards us those conventional natures of
which my great-aunt furnished a type: who, after quarrelling for
years with a niece, to whom she never spoke again, yet made no
change in the will in which she had left that niece the whole of
her fortune, because she was her next-of-kin, and it was the
'proper thing' to do.
But I was fond of Bloch; my parents wished me to be happy; and
the insoluble problems which I set myself on such texts as the
'absolutely meaningless' beauty of La fille de Minos et de
Pasiphaë tired me more and made me more unwell than I should
have been after further talks with him, unwholesome as those talks
might seem to my mother's mind. And he would still have been
received at Combray but for one thing. That same night, after
dinner, having informed me (a piece of news which had a great
influence on my later life, making it happier at one time and then
more unhappy) that no woman ever thought of anything but love, and
that there was not one of them whose resistance a man could not
overcome, he had gone on to assure me that he had heard it said on
unimpeachable authority that my great-aunt herself had led a 'gay'
life in her younger days, and had been notoriously 'kept.' I could
not refrain from passing on so important a piece of information to
my parents; the next time Bloch called he was not admitted, and
afterwards, when I met him in the street, he greeted me with
extreme coldness.
But in the matter of Bergotte he had spoken truly.
For the first few days, like a tune which will be running in
one's head and maddening one soon enough, but of which one has not
for the moment 'got hold,' the things I was to love so passionately
in Bergotte's style had not yet caught my eye. I could not, it is
true, lay down the novel of his which I was reading, but I fancied
that I was interested in the story alone, as in the first dawn of
love, when we go every day to meet a woman at some party or
entertainment by the charm of which we imagine it is that we are
attracted. Then I observed the rare, almost archaic phrases which
he liked to employ at certain points, where a hidden flow of
harmony, a prelude contained and concealed in the work itself would
animate and elevate his style; and it was at such points as these,
too, that he would begin to speak of the "vain dream of life," of
the "inexhaustible torrent of fair forms," of the "sterile,
splendid torture of understanding and loving," of the "moving
effigies which ennoble for all time the charming and venerable
fronts of our cathedrals"; that he would express a whole system of
philosophy, new to me, by the use of marvellous imagery, to the
inspiration of which I would naturally have ascribed that sound of
harping which began to chime and echo in my ears, an accompaniment
to which that imagery added something ethereal and sublime. One of
these passages of Bergotte, the third or fourth which I had
detached from the rest, filled me with a joy to which the meagre
joy I had tasted in the first passage bore no comparison, a joy
which I felt myself to have experienced in some innermost chamber
of my soul, deep, undivided, vast, from which all obstructions and
partitions seemed to have been swept away. For what had happened
was that, while I recognised in this passage the same taste for
uncommon phrases, the same bursts of music, the same idealist
philosophy which had been present in the earlier passages without
my having taken them into account as the source of my pleasure, I
now no longer had the impression of being confronted by a
particular passage in one of Bergotte's works, which traced a
purely bi-dimensional figure in outline upon the surface of my
mind, but rather of the 'ideal passage' of Bergotte, common to
every one of his books, and to which all the earlier, similar
passages, now becoming merged in it, had added a kind of density
and volume, by which my own understanding seemed to be
enlarged.
I was by no means Bergotte's sole admirer; he was the favourite
writer also of a friend of my mother's, a highly literary lady;
while Dr. du, Boulbon had kept all his patients waiting until he
finished Bergotte's latest volume; and it was from his consulting
room, and from a house in a park near Combray that some of the
first seeds were scattered of that taste for Bergotte, a
rare-growth in those days, but now so universally acclimatised that
one finds it flowering everywhere throughout Europe and America,
and even in the tiniest villages, rare still in its refinement, but
in that alone. What my mother's friend, and, it would seem, what
Dr.
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