I can assure him that I do not intend to let a coward escape, and I
am therefore grieved to say that until he owns up I shall be compelled to
repeat this detention every day.”
It was nearing the time of house-matches and detentions were more than
usually tiresome. A.J. soon found his enemies active, and even his friends
inclined to be cool. After the third detention he was, in fact, rather
disgracefully bullied, and after the fourth he gave in and confessed. He had
expected Smalljohn to be very stern, and was far more terrified to find him
good-humoured. “Pangs of conscience, eh, Fothergill?” he queried,
and A.J. replied: “No, sir.”
“No? That sounds rather defiant, doesn’t it?”
A.J. did not answer, and Smalljohn, instead of getting into a temper,
positively beamed. “My dear Fothergill, I quite understand. You think
my system’s unfair, don’t you?—I have heard mysterious
rumours to that effect, anyhow. Well, my boy, I daresay you’re right.
It is unfair. It makes you see how impossible it is for you to be a sneak and
a coward—it brings out your better self—that better self which,
for some perverse reason, you were endeavouring to stifle. To a boy who is
really not half the bad fellow he tries to make out, my system is perhaps the
unfairest thing in the world…Well, you have been punished, I doubt
not—for apart from the still small voice, your comrades, I understand,
have somewhat cogently expressed their disapproval. In the circumstances,
then, I shall not punish you any further. And now stay and have some cocoa
with me.”
“If you don’t mind, sir,” answered A.J. not very
coherently, “I’m afraid I must go. I’ve got a letter
’to finish—”
“Oh, very well, then—some other evening. Goodnight.”
And the next morning Smalljohn, whose worst crime was that he thought he
understood boys, recounted in the common-room how magnanimity had melted
young Fothergill almost to tears—how with shaking voice the boy had
declined the cocoa invitation and had asked to be allowed to go.
It had been A.J.’s first fight, and he fully realised that he had
lost. What troubled him most was not Smalljohn’s victory but the
attitude of his fellows; if they, had only stood with him, Smalljohn could
have been defeated. Yet they called him a coward because in Rugby football,
which he was compelled to play although he disliked it, he sometimes showed
that he didn’t consider it worth while to get hurt. At the end of his
third year the headmaster’s report summed him up, not too unreasonably,
as: “A thoughtful boy, with many good qualities, but apt to be
obstinate and self- opinionated. Is hardly getting out of Barrowhurst all he
should.”
A.J. had two adventures at Barrowhurst altogether; the first was the
Smalljohn affair, which was no more than a nine days’ wonder and
certainly did not add to his popularity; but the second was in a different
class: it established his fame on a suddenly Olympian basis, and passed,
indeed, into the very stuff of Barrowhurst tradition. Two miles away from the
school is the tunnel that carries the Scotch expresses under the Pennines. It
is over three miles long, boring under the ridge from one watershed to
another. A.J. walked through it one school half-holiday. Platelayers met him
staggering out, half-deafened and half-suffocated, with eyes inflamed,
soot-blackened face, and hands bleeding where he had groped his way along the
tunnel wall. He was taken to the school in a cab, and had to spend a week in
bed; after which he was thrashed by the headmaster. He gave no explanation of
his escapade beyond the fact that he had wanted to discover what it would be
like.
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