Mary had come down to stay with them for a while, bringing a warmth and life that helped Cal through his grief.

Mary was light and flighty, so unlike her brother, and he found fault with everything she did. The tears in her eyes when she kissed Cal goodbye were the first he’d ever seen from her. ‘You be sure to come and see me,’ she’d implored.

Not long after that, Cal moved into a room in a student flat and left his father to fester. Even university had been a source of tension between them. His father thought Cal should aim for medicine, law, the ministry or teaching and had been appalled when he had opted for business studies.

‘Business is the way to make money,’ Cal had argued.

‘What’s money, when you can do good?’

‘I wouldn’t expect you to know about money,’ had been Cal’s retort. And so it had gone on.

His father died before he could retire back to the island he loved, his body and mind taut with resentment at all around him.

Mary was all Cal had left and she made every effort to maintain the bond. There were cards and letters and each year she would come to see him. ‘I’ve come to the city to find a man,’ she’d joke. He made time for her and she asked for no more, but it seemed incongruous to him to spend time with his aunt. Still, her heart was so big and he enjoyed her spoiling him.  

Reflecting back to his school holidays, he saw that it had been the lack of choice that he had resented. The actual holidays had been fun, especially when he travelled up on his own as soon as the schools finished. For a couple of weeks it was just him and Mary and she allowed him untrammelled freedom. Restrictions would be imposed once again when his father’s leave began and his folks arrived. But it was then that he could see the man his father might have been. They would go fishing together and for a time there was peace between them.

Now he was back. It had been twenty years and more. Perhaps it was time to bury the sourness of the past. He had been away too long.

He spent almost the entire crossing of the Minch out on deck, lost in the hypnotic trance of the water, the movement of the sea never rising beyond a gentle swell. They docked at Tarbert in Harris. The port was little more than a village at a neck of land, with the Minch on one side and the mighty Atlantic on the other.

Soon the Audi was bouncing from the ramp onto the pier. To the south were some of the best unspoilt beaches in the world, miles of empty white sands. Cal’s journey was taking him north.

Since his last visit, the old single track road had been widened and resurfaced. It had been a trial of a journey before, stuck behind the slow vehicles which had disembarked ahead of you. Now, Cal could zoom past two and three cars at a time. But the zig-zagging twist down the side of the Clisham mountain was a real test, and his heart jumped when he felt the rear end swing as he took one hairpin bend just too fast, yet the screech of the tyres and the wisp of smoke thrilled him at the same time. This was truly burning rubber. He imagined that with some sunshine, this could be like the roads of Monte Carlo. The dramatic beauty of Loch Seaforth cutting into the land was lost to him as he pushed northwards out of Harris and into Lewis, the fabled heather isle.

More than the roads had changed. The thatch-covered, stone-built blackhouses that had lasted a century and more, were fallen monuments to a lifestyle long gone. Even the sort of dwellings with which he’d been familiar, with their dormer windows and chimneys at the gable ends, looked cold and bare.