When I turned away in my ignorance, with a
heavy heart, the dreadful blankness which had twice shut out from
me the beings of my own race, was not between me and my dog. The
poor little creature filled me with pity; I called him to me. He
moved at the sound of my voice, and followed me languidly; not
quite awakened yet from the trance of terror that had possessed
him.
Before I had retired by more than a few steps, I thought I was
conscious of the Presence again. I held out my longing arms to it.
I waited in the hope of a touch to tell me that I might return.
Perhaps I was answered by indirect means? I only know that a
resolution to return to the same place, at the same hour, came to
me, and quieted my mind.
The morning of the next day was dull and cloudy; but the rain
held off. I set forth again to the Gardens.
My dog ran on before me into the street--and stopped: waiting to
see in which direction I might lead the way. When I turned toward
the Gardens, he dropped behind me. In a little while I looked back.
He was following me no longer; he stood irresolute. I called to
him. He advanced a few steps--hesitated--and ran back to the
house.
I went on by myself. Shall I confess my superstition? I thought
the dog's desertion of me a bad omen.
Arrived at the tree, I placed myself under it. The minutes
followed each other uneventfully. The cloudy sky darkened. The dull
surface of the grass showed no shuddering consciousness of an
unearthly creature passing over it.
I still waited, with an obstinacy which was fast becoming the
obstinacy of despair. How long an interval elapsed, while I kept
watch on the ground before me, I am not able to say. I only know
that a change came.
Under the dull gray light I saw the grass move--but not as it
had moved, on the day before. It shriveled as if a flame had
scorched it. No flame appeared. The brown underlying earth showed
itself winding onward in a thin strip--which might have been a
footpath traced in fire. It frightened me. I longed for the
protection of the Invisible Presence. I prayed for a warning of it,
if danger was near.
A touch answered me. It was as if a hand unseen had taken my
hand--had raised it, little by little--had left it, pointing to the
thin brown path that wound toward me under the shriveled blades of
grass.
I looked to the far end of the path.
The unseen hand closed on my hand with a warning pressure: the
revelation of the coming danger was near me--I waited for it. I saw
it.
The figure of a man appeared, advancing toward me along the thin
brown path. I looked in his face as he came nearer. It showed me
dimly the face of my husband's brother--John Zant.
The consciousness of myself as a living creature left me. I knew
nothing; I felt nothing. I was dead.
When the torture of revival made me open my eyes, I found myself
on the grass. Gentle hands raised my head, at the moment when I
recovered my senses. Who had brought me to life again? Who was
taking care of me?
I looked upward, and saw--bending over me--John Zant.
VII.
THERE, the manuscript ended.
Some lines had been added on the last page; but they had been so
carefully erased as to be illegible. These words of explanation
appeared below the canceled sentences:
"I had begun to write the little that remains to be told,
when it struck me that I might, unintentionally, be exercising an
unfair influence on your opinion.
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