"I must remember," she resumed,
"that your way of understanding my position is not my way. I
ought to have told you that Mr. John Zant feels needless anxiety
about my health. He declares that he will not lose sight of me
until his mind is at ease. It is useless to attempt to alter his
opinion. He says my nerves are shattered--and who that sees me can
doubt it? He tells me that my only chance of getting better is to
try change of air and perfect repose--how can I contradict him? He
reminds me that I have no relation but himself, and no house open
to me but his own--and God knows he is right!"
She said those last words in accents of melancholy resignation,
which grieved the good man whose one merciful purpose was to serve
and console her. He spoke impulsively with the freedom of an old
friend
"I want to know more of you and Mr. John Zant than I know
now," he said. "My motive is a better one than mere
curiosity. Do you believe that I feel a sincere interest in
you?"
"With my whole heart."
That reply encouraged him to proceed with what he had to say.
"When you recovered from your fainting-fit," he began,
"Mr. John Zant asked questions, of course?"
"He asked what could possibly have happened, in such a
quiet place as Kensington Gardens, to make me faint."
"And how did you answer?"
"Answer? I couldn't even look at him!"
"You said nothing?"
"Nothing. I don't know what he thought of me; he might
have been surprised, or he might have been offended."
"Is he easily offended?" Mr. Rayburn asked.
"Not in my experience of him."
"Do you mean your experience of him before your
illness?"
"Yes. Since my recovery, his engagements with country
patients have kept him away from London. I have not seen him since
he took these lodgings for me. But he is always considerate. He has
written more than once to beg that I will not think him neglectful,
and to tell me (what I knew already through my poor husband) that
he has no money of his own, and must live by his
profession."
"In your husband's lifetime, were the two brothers on
good terms?"
"Always. The one complaint I ever heard my husband make of
John Zant was that he didn't come to see us often enough, after
our marriage. Is there some wickedness in him which we have never
suspected? It may be--but
how can it be? I have every reason to be grateful to the
man against whom I have been supernaturally warned! His conduct to
me has been always perfect. I can't tell you what I owe to his
influence in quieting my mind, when a dreadful doubt arose about my
husband's death."
"Do you mean doubt if he died a natural death?"
"Oh, no! no! He was dying of rapid consumption--but his
sudden death took the doctors by surprise. One of them thought that
he might have taken an overdose of his sleeping drops, by mistake.
The other disputed this conclusion, or there might have been an
inquest in the house. Oh, don't speak of it any more! Let us
talk of something else. Tell me when I shall see you
again."
"I hardly know. When do you and your brother-in-law leave
London?"
"To-morrow." She looked at Mr. Rayburn with a piteous
entreaty in her eyes; she said, timidly: "Do you ever go to
the seaside, and take your dear little girl with you?"
The request, at which she had only dared to hint, touched on the
idea which was at that moment in Mr. Rayburn's mind.
Interpreted by his strong prejudice against John Zant, what she
had said of her brother-in-law filled him with forebodings of peril
to herself; all the more powerful in their influence, for this
reason--that he shrank from distinctly realizing them. If another
person had been present at the interview, and had said to him
afterward: "That man's reluctance to visit his
sister-in-law, while her husband was living, is associated with a
secret sense of guilt which her innocence cannot even imagine: he,
and he alone, knows the cause of her husband's sudden death:
his feigned anxiety about her health is adopted as the safest means
of enticing her into his house--if those formidable conclusions had
been urged on Mr. Rayburn, he would have felt it his duty to reject
them, as unjustifiable aspersions on an absent man. And yet, when
he took leave that evening of Mrs. Zant, he had pledged himself to
give Lucy a holiday at the seaside: and he had said, without
blushing, that the child really deserved it, as a reward for
general good conduct and attention to her lessons!
IX.
THREE days later, the father and daughter arrived toward evening
at St.
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