Rayburn returned to his house on
foot, by way of trying what exercise would do toward composing his
mind.
The experiment failed. He went upstairs and played with Lucy; he
drank an extra glass of wine at dinner; he took the child and her
governess to a circus in the evening; he ate a little supper,
fortified by another glass of wine, before he went to bed--and
still those vague forebodings of evil persisted in torturing him.
Looking back through his past life, he asked himself if any woman
(his late wife of course excepted!) had ever taken the predominant
place in his thoughts which Mrs. Zant had assumed--without any
discernible reason to account for it? If he had ventured to answer
his own question, the reply would have been: Never!
All the next day he waited at home, in expectation of Mr. John
Zant's promised visit, and waited in vain.
Toward evening the parlor-maid appeared at the family tea-table,
and presented to her master an unusually large envelope sealed with
black wax, and addressed in a strange handwriting. The absence of
stamp and postmark showed that it had been left at the house by a
messenger.
"Who brought this?" Mr. Rayburn asked.
"A lady, sir--in deep mourning."
"Did she leave any message?"
"No, sir."
Having drawn the inevitable conclusion, Mr. Rayburn shut himself
up in his library. He was afraid of Lucy's curiosity and
Lucy's questions, if he read Mrs. Zant's letter in his
daughter's presence.
Looking at the open envelope after he had taken out the leaves
of writing which it contained, he noticed these lines traced inside
the cover:
"My one excuse for troubling you, when I might have
consulted my brother-in-law, will be found in the pages which I
inclose. To speak plainly, you have been led to fear that I am not
in my right senses. For this very reason, I now appeal to you. Your
dreadful doubt of me, sir, is my doubt too. Read what I have
written about myself--and then tell me, I entreat you, which I am:
A person who has been the object of a supernatural revelation? or
an unfortunate creature who is only fit for imprisonment in a
mad-house?"
Mr. Rayburn opened the manuscript. With steady attention, which
soon quickened to breathless interest, he read what follows:
VI.
THE LADY'S MANUSCRIPT.
YESTERDAY morning the sun shone in a clear blue sky--after a
succession of cloudy days, counting from the first of the
month.
The radiant light had its animating effect on my poor spirits. I
had passed the night more peacefully than usual; undisturbed by the
dream, so cruelly familiar to me, that my lost husband is still
living--the dream from which I always wake in tears. Never, since
the dark days of my sorrow, have I been so little troubled by the
self-tormenting fancies and fears which beset miserable women, as
when I left the house, and turned my steps toward Kensington
Gardens--for the first time since my husband's death.
Attended by my only companion, the little dog who had been his
favorite as well as mine, I went to the quiet corner of the Gardens
which is nearest to Kensington.
On that soft grass, under the shade of those grand trees, we had
loitered together in the days of our betrothal. It was his favorite
walk; and he had taken me to see it in the early days of our
acquaintance. There, he had first asked me to be his wife. There,
we had felt the rapture of our first kiss. It was surely natural
that I should wish to see once more a place sacred to such memories
as these? I am only twenty-three years old; I have no child to
comfort me, no companion of my own age, nothing to love but the
dumb creature who is so faithfully fond of me.
I went to the tree under which we stood, when my dear one's
eyes told his love before he could utter it in words. The sun of
that vanished day shone on me again; it was the same noontide hour;
the same solitude was around me. I had feared the first effect of
the dreadful contrast between past and present. No! I was quiet and
resigned. My thoughts, rising higher than earth, dwelt on the
better life beyond the grave. Some tears came into my eyes. But I
was not unhappy. My memory of all that happened may be trusted,
even in trifles which relate only to myself--I was not unhappy.
The first object that I saw, when my eyes were clear again, was
the dog. He crouched a few paces away from me, trembling pitiably,
but uttering no cry. What had caused the fear that overpowered
him?
I was soon to know.
I called to the dog; he remained immovable--conscious of some
mysterious coming thing that held him spellbound.
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