But presently Rowden
suggested an adjournment to the garden, and once out there it was possible to
escape from co-operative creameries and switch to another group who were
discussing the theatre.
Paul was capricious in conversation; his rare silences might indicate that
he was either bored or entranced; but so might his talkativeness, for if he
were bored he would take quick refuge in the pleasure of his own voice, and
if entranced, there would be generated in him sooner or later a terrific
desire to entrance the entrancer. This latter occurred during the talk in the
garden when Paul, having silently worshipped a well-known literary critic
during the latter’s eloquent opinion about the proper way to produce the
plays of Synge, suddenly interrupted with an opinion of his own. It began
modestly, soon acquired an eloquence fully equal to the critic’s, and grew to
a quite brilliant exegesis that attracted several listeners from another
group.
And in the thick of it, without a nod or a word, the well-known literary
critic walked off.
Paul finished his sentence and stopped. He felt himself flushing to the
roots of his hair, and the aboriginal in him responded with a mental and
almost muttered: Why, the son of a bitch… He knew he had been snubbed, and
though it was not the first time, the identity of the snubber made it perhaps
the most devastating in his experience.
One of the group around him, an actor later to become world-famous,
laughed and said: “Don’t mind him, boy. He’s just not used to being
contradicted.”
“But I wasn’t contradicting him! I was merely explaining—”
They all laughed then as if the whole incident had been a supreme joke
climaxed by his own declaration of innocence. A tall, thin, youngish
playwright whose white hair made effective contrast with his bead-black eyes,
remarked: “I imagine you must have found Moscow very interesting, Mr.
Saffron.”
“Moscow? I’ve never been to Moscow.”
“Indeed? I thought you must be a disciple of Stanislavski.”
“Who?”
The playwright looked as if the question could be damnation either way:
the revelation of Paul as an ignoramus, or cover for his appropriation of
another person’s ideas.
Actually Paul had not caught the name, but the wine he had drunk increased
the dismay he felt at having been snubbed by a man he admired and laughed at
for a joke he couldn’t share. He exclaimed hotly: “So I never heard of
somebody?… So what? You guys never heard of me till today, did you?”
Later it occurred to him that the name had been Stanislavski, and that he
had behaved as if it were unknown to him. The gaucherie completed his
mortification.
* * * * *
The party dispersed soon after that, and Paul, still
troubled, found
himself a couple of hours later in the library, staring at the Cézannes with
his mind half elsewhere on a road that wandered disconcertingly between
Moscow and Glendalough. The butler brought in a tray of tea-things, and
Rowden entered soon afterwards. Paul noticed idly that he wore different
clothes; must have an enormous wardrobe, changed for every meal, a fad
maybe… and he recollected something that Roberts had told him with evident
pride during one of their drives: “Mr. Rowden, sir, is very particular. Clean
sheets and pillow-slips every time he goes to bed— even when he takes
his little nap in the afternoon. Very particular, he is.” So he’s probably
been taking his little nap, Paul reflected.
Rowden attended to the tea-making, a ritual he always performed himself,
because it involved bringing the water exactly to a boil over the spirit
kettle, mixing the leaves from separate caddies, heating the silver pot with
a swill of boiling water and then rinsing it into a bowl; the result, no
doubt, was an excellent brew, but Paul didn’t like tea anyway and only drank
it from politeness.
Rowden said, handing Paul a cup: “What on earth did you do to our
latter-day Coleridge? He went off in a considerable huff and somebody told me
you’d insulted him.”
“_I_ insulted HIM? All I did was to beg to differ from a few things he
said. He’d been laying the law down—it was time someone else put in a
word.”
“I’m afraid you upset him.”
“I’m sorry if I did—I didn’t mean to. But he was talking about the
function of the stage director and I’m just as entitled to an opinion about
that as he is about books.”
“He directs plays too.”
“Then I don’t think he can be very good at it.”
Rowden laughed. “Confidentially, I rather agree.”
“Why confidentially?”
“Because if you criticize him in this town it means you’re agin the
government, and as I’m not agin any government, provided it governs, I keep
my mouth shut. I’m afraid you’re too politically naďve to understand our
local situation.”
“Probably. That’s why I was sent here to write about it.”
“It might interest you, though, to note what happens to a writer when some
accident of history makes him a cultural pontiff over a nationalist
literature. The first result is that he ceases to produce any literature
himself. The next thing is a tremendous inflation of his ego.”
“I can see you don’t like him much.”
“Did you?”
Paul hadn’t liked him at all, yet he stirred uneasily at any sign of
agreement with Rowden on such an issue. The important fact was that the
literary critic, likeable or not, was indisputably an inhabitant of the world
that Paul claimed as his own. He said: “I certainly didn’t intend any
disrespect and I’d hate to think he was so put out by anything I said that he
wouldn’t visit your house again. Maybe I should write him a note?”
“I wouldn’t bother. He’ll be here again, don’t worry. He’s on so many
committees he couldn’t leave me alone for long. Whenever there’s money to be
raised for one thing or another these people change their tune.”
Again Paul felt the uneasiness; he could not allow Rowden to have that
kind of last word. “If they do,” he retorted, “maybe it’s because they know
so many tunes and changing them’s so easy. Don’t forget they have their
opinion of you just as you have of them, and like you, they’re smart enough
to keep it to themselves. When they ask for money you think they’re humbling
themselves, and they let you think it because they figure they get more that
way, but actually there’s something in them that your cheque-book couldn’t
buy, and secretly you resent that, so you give it a nasty name—you call
it an inflated ego.” Paul laughed to take away some of the sting. “Excuse me
for being so personal.
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