Now my chair (as I learnt to call it, and to
think it) was soft and luxurious, and seemed somehow to give one's body
rest just in that part where one most needed it.
I was not at my ease that first day, nor indeed for many days afterwards,
notwithstanding my chair was so comfortable. Yet I forgot my sad pain in
silently wondering over the meaning of many of the things we turned out
of those curious old drawers. I was puzzled to know why some were kept
at all; a scrap of writing maybe, with only half a dozen common-place
words written on it, or a bit of broken riding-whip, and here and there a
stone, of which I thought I could have picked up twenty just as good in
the first walk I took. But it seems that was just my ignorance; for my
lady told me they were pieces of valuable marble, used to make the floors
of the great Roman emperors palaces long ago; and that when she had been
a girl, and made the grand tour long ago, her cousin Sir Horace Mann, the
Ambassador or Envoy at Florence, had told her to be sure to go into the
fields inside the walls of ancient Rome, when the farmers were preparing
the ground for the onion-sowing, and had to make the soil fine, and pick
up what bits of marble she could find. She had done so, and meant to
have had them made into a table; but somehow that plan fell through, and
there they were with all the dirt out of the onion-field upon them; but
once when I thought of cleaning them with soap and water, at any rate,
she bade me not to do so, for it was Roman dirt—earth, I think, she
called it—but it was dirt all the same.
Then, in this bureau, were many other things, the value of which I could
understand—locks of hair carefully ticketed, which my lady looked at
very sadly; and lockets and bracelets with miniatures in them,—very
small pictures to what they make now-a-days, and called miniatures: some
of them had even to be looked at through a microscope before you could
see the individual expression of the faces, or how beautifully they were
painted. I don't think that looking at these made may lady seem so
melancholy, as the seeing and touching of the hair did. But, to be sure,
the hair was, as it were, a part of some beloved body which she might
never touch and caress again, but which lay beneath the turf, all faded
and disfigured, except perhaps the very hair, from which the lock she
held had been dissevered; whereas the pictures were but pictures after
all—likenesses, but not the very things themselves. This is only my own
conjecture, mind. My lady rarely spoke out her feelings. For, to begin
with, she was of rank: and I have heard her say that people of rank do
not talk about their feelings except to their equals, and even to them
they conceal them, except upon rare occasions. Secondly,—and this is my
own reflection,—she was an only child and an heiress; and as such was
more apt to think than to talk, as all well-brought-up heiresses must be.
I think. Thirdly, she had long been a widow, without any companion of
her own age with whom it would have been natural for her to refer to old
associations, past pleasures, or mutual sorrows. Mrs. Medlicott came
nearest to her as a companion of this sort; and her ladyship talked more
to Mrs. Medlicott, in a kind of familiar way, than she did to all the
rest of the household put together. But Mrs. Medlicott was silent by
nature, and did not reply at any great length. Adams, indeed, was the
only one who spoke much to Lady Ludlow.
After we had worked away about an hour at the bureau, her ladyship said
we had done enough for one day; and as the time was come for her
afternoon ride, she left me, with a volume of engravings from Mr.
Hogarth's pictures on one side of me (I don't like to write down the
names of them, though my lady thought nothing of it, I am sure), and upon
a stand her great prayer-book open at the evening psalms for the day, on
the other. But as soon as she was gone, I troubled myself little with
either, but amused myself with looking round the room at my leisure. The
side on which the fire-place stood was all panelled,—part of the old
ornaments of the house, for there was an Indian paper with birds and
beasts and insects on it, on all the other sides. There were coats of
arms, of the various families with whom the Hanburys had intermarried,
all over these panels, and up and down the ceiling as well. There was
very little looking-glass in the room, though one of the great drawing-
rooms was called the "Mirror Room," because it was lined with glass,
which my lady's great-grandfather had brought from Venice when he was
ambassador there. There were china jars of all shapes and sizes round
and about the room, and some china monsters, or idols, of which I could
never bear the sight, they were so ugly, though I think my lady valued
them more than all. There was a thick carpet on the middle of the floor,
which was made of small pieces of rare wood fitted into a pattern; the
doors were opposite to each other, and were composed of two heavy tall
wings, and opened in the middle, moving on brass grooves inserted into
the floor—they would not have opened over a carpet. There were two
windows reaching up nearly to the ceiling, but very narrow and with deep
window-seats in the thickness of the wall. The room was full of scent,
partly from the flowers outside, and partly from the great jars of pot-
pourri inside. The choice of odours was what my lady piqued herself
upon, saying nothing showed birth like a keen susceptibility of smell. We
never named musk in her presence, her antipathy to it was so well
understood through the household: her opinion on the subject was believed
to be, that no scent derived from an animal could ever be of a
sufficiently pure nature to give pleasure to any person of good family,
where, of course, the delicate perception of the senses had been
cultivated for generations. She would instance the way in which
sportsmen preserve the breed of dogs who have shown keen scent; and how
such gifts descend for generations amongst animals, who cannot be
supposed to have anything of ancestral pride, or hereditary fancies about
them. Musk, then, was never mentioned at Hanbury Court.
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