. . And I honestly believe I pulled
him back each time by main strength and determination--do you know
what I mean?" she said hoarsely and eagerly--"I was just
determined not to let him go. If his heart had stopped beating I
believe I could have done something to make it start again--I'd have
stood over him and blown my breath into him--got my blood into
him--shook him," she said with a powerful, nervous movement of
her big hands--"anything just to keep him alive."
"She's--she's--saved his life--time after time," said
Barton slowly, flicking his cigar ash carefully away, and looking
down deeply, searching for a word.
"He'd--he'd--have been a dead man long ago--if it hadn't been
for her."
"Yeah--I know she has," George Pentland drawled
agreeably. "I know you've sure stuck by Uncle Will--I guess he
knows it, too."
"It's not that I mind it, George--you know what I mean?"
she said eagerly. "Good heavens! I believe I could give away a
dozen lives if I thought it was going to save his life! . . . But
it's the strain of it. . . . Month after month . . . year
after year . . . lying awake at night wondering if he's all right
over there in that back room in Mama's house--wondering if he's
keeping warm in that old cold house--"
"Why, no, child," the older woman said hastily. "I
kept a good fire burnin' in that room all last winter--that was the
warmest room in the whole place--there wasn't a warmer--"
But immediately she was engulfed, swept aside, obliterated in the
flood-tide of the other's speech.
"--Wondering if he's sick or needs me--if he's begun to bleed
again--oh! George, it makes me sick to think about it--that poor old
man left there all alone, rotting away with that awful cancer, with
that horrible smell about him all the time--everything he wears gets
simply stiff with that rotten corrupt matter--Do you know what
it is to wait, wait, wait, year after year, and year after year,
never knowing when he's going to die, to have him hang on by a thread
until it seems you've lived forever--that there'll never be an
end--that you'll never have a chance to live your own life--to have a
moment's peace or rest or happiness yourself? My God, does it always
have to be this way? . . . Can I never have a moment's happiness? . .
. Must they always come to me? Does everything have to
be put on my shoulders? . . . Will you tell me that?" Her voice
had risen to a note of frenzied despair. She was glaring at her
cousin with a look of desperate and frantic entreaty, her whole gaunt
figure tense and strained with the stress of her hysteria.
"That's--that's the trouble now," said Barton, looking
down and searching for the word. "She's .
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