She flung off her
bonnet and smothered her prostrate weeping in the cushions.
Delia
sat perplexed. Of all unforeseen complications this was surely the least
imaginable. And with all the acquired Ralston that was in her she could not
help seeing the force of Joe’s objection, could almost find herself
agreeing with him. No one in New York had forgotten the death of the poor Henry
van der Luydens’ only child, who had caught small-pox at the circus to which an
unprincipled nurse had surreptitiously taken him. After such a warning as that,
parents felt justified in every precaution against contagion. And poor people
were so ignorant and careless, and their children, of course, so perpetually
exposed to everything catching. No, Joe Ralston was certainly right, and
Charlotte almost insanely unreasonable. But it would be useless to tell her so
now. Instinctively, Delia temporized.
“After
all,” she whispered to the prone ear, “if it’s only after you have children—you
may not have any—for some time.”
“Oh,
yes, I shall!” came back in anguish from the cushions.
Delia
smiled with matronly superiority. “Really, Chatty, I don’t quite see how you
can know. You don’t understand.”
Charlotte
Lovell lifted herself up. Her collar of Brussels lace had come undone and hung in a wisp on
her crumpled bodice, and through the disorder of her hair the white lock
glimmered haggardly. In her pale brown eyes the little green specks floated
like leaves in a trout-pool.
“Poor
girl,” Delia thought, “how old and ugly she looks! More than ever like an old
maid; and she doesn’t seem to realize in the least
that she’ll never have another chance.”
“You
must try to be sensible, Chatty dear. After all, one’s own babies have the
first claim.”
“That’s
just it.” The girl seized her fiercely by the wrists. “How can I give up my own
baby?”
“Your—your—?” Delia’s world again began to waver under her. “Which of the poor little waifs, dearest, do you call your own
baby?” she questioned patiently.
Charlotte looked her straight in the eyes. “I call my
own baby my own baby.”
“Your own—? Take care—you’re hurting my wrists, Chatty!”
Delia freed herself, forcing a smile. “Your own—?”
“My own little girl. The one that Jessamine and Cyrus—”
“Oh—”
Delia Ralston gasped.
The
two cousins sat silent, facing each other; but Delia looked away. It came over
her with a shudder of repugnance that such things, even if they had to be said,
should not have been spoken in her bedroom, so near the spotless nursery across
the passage. Mechanically she smoothed the organ-like folds of her silk skirt,
which her cousin’s embrace had tumbled. Then she looked again at Charlotte’s eyes, and her own melted.
“Oh, poor Chatty—my poor Chatty!” She held out her arms to
her cousin.
II.
The
shepherd continued to steal his kiss from the shepherdess, and the clock in the
fallen trunk continued to tick out the minutes.
Delia,
petrified, sat unconscious of their passing, her cousin clasped to her. She was
dumb with the horror and amazement of learning that her own blood ran in the
veins of the anonymous foundling, the “hundred dollar baby” about whom New York had so long furtively jested and conjectured.
It was her first contact with the nether side of the smooth social surface, and
she sickened at the thought that such things were, and that she, Delia Ralston,
should be hearing of them in her own house, and from the lips of the victim!
For Chatty of course was a victim—but whose? She had spoken no name, and Delia
could put no question: the horror of it sealed her lips. Her mind had instantly
raced back over Chatty’s past; but she saw no masculine figure in it but Joe
Ralston’s. And to connect Joe with the episode was obviously unthinkable. Someone in the south, then—? But no: Charlotte had been ill when she left—and in a flash
Delia understood the real nature of that illness, and of the girl’s
disappearance. But from such speculations too her mind recoiled, and
instinctively she fastened on something she could still grasp: Joe Ralston’s
attitude about Chatty’s paupers. Of course Joe could not let his wife risk
bringing contagion into their home—that was safe ground to dwell on. Her own
Jim would have felt in the same way; and she would certainly have agreed with
him.
Her
eyes travelled back to the clock. She always thought of Clem Spender when she
looked at the clock, and suddenly she wondered—if things had been
different—what he would have said if
she had made such an appeal to him as Charlotte had made to Joe. The thing was hard to
imagine; yet in a flash of mental readjustment Delia saw herself as Clem’s
wife, she saw her children as his, she pictured herself asking him to let her
go on caring for the poor waifs in the Mercer Street stable, and she distinctly
heard his laugh and his light answer: “Why on earth did you ask, you little
goose? Do you take me for such a Pharisee as that?”
Yes,
that was Clem Spender all over—tolerant, reckless, indifferent to consequences,
always doing the kind thing at the moment, and too often leaving others to pay
the score.
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