She lived in a
small house by herself, in one of the smallest streets of May Fair,
and walked about sturdily by herself, and spoke her mind about
everything. She was greatly devoted to her brother Laurence,—so
devoted that there was nothing she would not do for him, short of
lending him money.
But Phineas when he found himself out in the square thought
nothing of Aspasia Fitzgibbon. He had gone to Lady Laura Standish
for sympathy, and she had given it to him in full measure. She
understood him and his aspirations if no one else did so on the
face of the earth. She rejoiced in his triumph, and was not too
hard to tell him that she looked forward to his success. And in
what delightful language she had done so! "Faint heart never won
fair lady." It was thus, or almost thus, that she had encouraged
him. He knew well that she had in truth meant nothing more than her
words had seemed to signify. He did not for a moment attribute to
her aught else. But might not he get another lesson from them? He
had often told himself that he was not in love with Laura
Standish;—but why should he not how tell himself that he was in
love with her? Of course there would be difficulty. But was it not
the business of his life to overcome difficulties? Had he not
already overcome one difficulty almost as great; and why should he
be afraid of this other? Faint heart never won fair lady! And this
fair lady,—for at this moment he was ready to swear that she was
very fair,—was already half won. She could not have taken him by
the hand so warmly, and looked into his face so keenly, had she not
felt for him something stronger than common friendship.
He had turned down Baker Street from the square, and was now
walking towards the Regent's Park. He would go and see the beasts
in the Zoological Gardens, and make up his mind as to his future
mode of life in that delightful Sunday solitude. There was very
much as to which it was necessary that he should make up his mind.
If he resolved that he would ask Lady Laura Standish to be his
wife, when should he ask her, and in what manner might he propose
to her that they should live? It would hardly suit him to postpone
his courtship indefinitely, knowing, as he did know, that he would
be one among many suitors. He could not expect her to wait for him
if he did not declare himself. And yet he could hardly ask her to
come and share with him the allowance made to him by his father!
Whether she had much fortune of her own, or little, or none at all,
he did not in the least know. He did know that the Earl had been
distressed by his son's extravagance, and that there had been some
money difficulties arising from this source.
But his great desire would be to support his own wife by his own
labour. At present he was hardly in a fair way to do that, unless
he could get paid for his parliamentary work. Those fortunate
gentlemen who form "The Government" are so paid. Yes;—there was the
Treasury Bench open to him, and he must resolve that he would seat
himself there. He would make Lady Laura understand this, and then
he would ask his question. It was true that at present his
political opponents had possession of the Treasury Bench;—but all
governments are mortal, and Conservative governments in this
country are especially prone to die. It was true that he could not
hold even a Treasury lordship with a poor thousand a year for his
salary without having to face the electors of Loughshane again
before he entered upon the enjoyment of his place;—but if he could
only do something to give a grace to his name, to show that he was
a rising man, the electors of Loughshane, who had once been so easy
with him, would surely not be cruel to him when he showed himself a
second time among them. Lord Tulla was his friend, and he had those
points of law in his favour which possession bestows. And then he
remembered that Lady Laura was related to almost everybody who was
anybody among the high Whigs. She was, he knew, second cousin to
Mr. Mildmay, who for years had been the leader of the Whigs, and
was third cousin to Barrington Erle. The late President of the
Council, the Duke of St. Bungay, and Lord Brentford had married
sisters, and the St. Bungay people, and the Mildmay people, and the
Brentford people had all some sort of connection with the Palliser
people, of whom the heir and coming chief, Plantagenet Palliser,
would certainly be Chancellor of the Exchequer in the next
Government. Simply as an introduction into official life nothing
could be more conducive to chances of success than a matrimonial
alliance with Lady Laura.
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