If he could only get Phineas
into the dingy chambers he might do much!
But Phineas had now become so imbued with the atmosphere of
politics, had been so breathed upon by Lady Laura and Barrington
Erle, that he could no longer endure the thought of any other life
than that of a life spent among the lobbies. A desire to help to
beat the Conservatives had fastened on his very soul, and almost
made Mr. Low odious in his eyes. He was afraid of Mr. Low, and for
the nonce would not go to him any more;—but he must see the porter
at Lincoln's Inn, he must write a line to Mr. Low, and he must tell
Mrs. Bunce that for the present he would still keep on her rooms.
His letter to Mr. Low was as follows:—
Great Marlborough Street, May, 186––.
My dear Low,
I have made up my mind against taking the chambers, and am now
off to the Inn to say that I shall not want them. Of course, I know
what you will think of me, and it is very grievous to me to have to
bear the hard judgment of a man whose opinion I value so highly;
but, in the teeth of your terribly strong arguments, I think that
there is something to be said on my side of the question. This seat
in Parliament has come in my way by chance, and I think it would be
pusillanimous in me to reject it, feeling, as I do, that a seat in
Parliament confers very great honour. I am, too, very fond of
politics, and regard legislation as the finest profession going.
Had I any one dependent on me, I probably might not be justified in
following the bent of my inclination. But I am all alone in the
world, and therefore have a right to make the attempt. If, after a
trial of one or two sessions, I should fail in that which I am
attempting, it will not even then be too late to go back to the
better way. I can assure you that at any rate it is not my
intention to be idle.
I know very well how you will fret and fume over what I say, and
how utterly I shall fail in bringing you round to my way of
thinking; but as I must write to tell you of my decision, I cannot
refrain from defending myself to the best of my ability.
Yours always faithfully,
Phineas Finn.
Mr. Low received this letter at his chambers, and when he had
read it, he simply pressed his lips closely together, placed the
sheet of paper back in its envelope, and put it into a drawer at
his left hand. Having done this, he went on with what work he had
before him, as though his friend's decision were a matter of no
consequence to him. As far as he was concerned the thing was done,
and there should be an end of it. So he told himself; but
nevertheless his mind was full of it all day; and, though he wrote
not a word of answer to Phineas, he made a reply within his own
mind to every one of the arguments used in the letter. "Great
honour! How can there be honour in what comes, as he says, by
chance? He hasn't sense enough to understand that the honour comes
from the mode of winning it, and from the mode of wearing it; and
that the very fact of his being member for Loughshane at this
instant simply proves that Loughshane should have had no privilege
to return a member! No one dependent on him! Are not his father and
his mother and his sisters dependent on him as long as he must eat
their bread till he can earn bread of his own? He will never earn
bread of his own. He will always be eating bread that others have
earned." In this way, before the day was over, Mr. Low became very
angry, and swore to himself that he would have nothing more to say
to Phineas Finn. But yet he found himself creating plans for
encountering and conquering the parliamentary fiend who was at
present so cruelly potent with his pupil. It was not till the third
evening that he told his wife that Finn had made up his mind not to
take chambers. "Then I would have nothing more to say to him," said
Mrs. Low, savagely. "For the present I can have nothing more to say
to him." "But neither now nor ever," said Mrs. Low, with great
emphasis; "he has been false to you." "No," said Mr. Low, who was a
man thoroughly and thoughtfully just at all points; "he has not
been false to me. He has always meant what he has said, when he was
saying it. But he is weak and blind, and flies like a moth to the
candle; one pities the poor moth, and would save him a stump of his
wing if it be possible."
Phineas, when he had written his letter to Mr.
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