To his other friend, Lady Laura Standish,
he did explain something of his feelings, not absolutely describing
to her the extent of hindrance to which his modesty had subjected
him, but letting her know that he had his qualms as well as his
aspirations. But as Lady Laura always recommended patience, and
more than once expressed her opinion that a young member would be
better to sit in silence at least for one session, he was not
driven to the mortification of feeling that he was incurring her
contempt by his bashfulness. As regarded the men among whom he
lived, I think he was almost annoyed at finding that no one seemed
to expect that he should speak. Barrington Erle, when he had first
talked of sending Phineas down to Loughshane, had predicted for him
all manner of parliamentary successes, and had expressed the
warmest admiration of the manner in which Phineas had discussed
this or that subject at the Union. "We have not above one or two
men in the House who can do that kind of thing," Barrington Erle
had once said. But now no allusions whatever were made to his
powers of speech, and Phineas in his modest moments began to be
more amazed than ever that he should find himself seated in that
chamber.
To the forms and technicalities of parliamentary business he did
give close attention, and was unremitting in his attendance. On one
or two occasions he ventured to ask a question of the Speaker, and
as the words of experience fell into his ears, he would tell
himself that he was going through his education,—that he was
learning to be a working member, and perhaps to be a statesman. But
his regrets with reference to Mr. Low and the dingy chambers in Old
Square were very frequent; and had it been possible for him to undo
all that he had done, he would often have abandoned to some one
else the honour of representing the electors of Loughshane.
But he was supported in all his difficulties by the kindness of
his friend, Lady Laura Standish. He was often in the house in
Portman Square, and was always received with cordiality, and, as he
thought, almost with affection. She would sit and talk to him,
sometimes saying a word about her brother and sometimes about her
father, as though there were more between them than the casual
intimacy of London acquaintance. And in Portman Square he had been
introduced to Miss Effingham, and had found Miss Effingham to
be—very nice. Miss Effingham had quite taken to him, and he had
danced with her at two or three parties, talking always, as he did
so, about Lady Laura Standish.
"I declare, Laura, I think your friend Mr. Finn is in love with
you," said Violet to Lady Laura one night.
"I don't think that. He is fond of me, and so am I of him. He is
so honest, and so naïve without being awkward! And then he is
undoubtedly clever."
"And so uncommonly handsome," said Violet.
"I don't know that that makes much difference," said Lady
Laura.
"I think it does if a man looks like a gentleman as well."
"Mr. Finn certainly looks like a gentleman," said Lady
Laura.
"And no doubt is one," said Violet. "I wonder whether he has got
any money."
"Not a penny, I should say."
"How does such a man manage to live? There are so many men like
that, and they are always mysteries to me. I suppose he'll have to
marry an heiress."
"Whoever gets him will not have a bad husband," said Lady Laura
Standish.
Phineas during the summer had very often met Mr. Kennedy. They
sat on the same side of the House, they belonged to the same club,
they dined together more than once in Portman Square, and on one
occasion Phineas had accepted an invitation to dinner sent to him
by Mr. Kennedy himself. "A slower affair I never saw in my life,"
he said afterwards to Laurence Fitzgibbon. "Though there were two
or three men there who talk everywhere else, they could not talk at
his table." "He gave you good wine, I should say," said Fitzgibbon,
"and let me tell you that that covers a multitude of sins." In
spite, however, of all these opportunities for intimacy, now,
nearly at the end of the session, Phineas had hardly spoken a dozen
words to Mr. Kennedy, and really knew nothing whatsoever of the
man, as one friend,—or even as one acquaintance knows another. Lady
Laura had desired him to be on good terms with Mr. Kennedy, and for
that reason he had dined with him. Nevertheless he disliked Mr.
Kennedy, and felt quite sure that Mr. Kennedy disliked him. He was
therefore rather surprised when he received the following
note:—
Albany, Z 3, July 17, 186––.
My dear Mr.
Finn,
I shall have some friends at Loughlinter next month, and should
be very glad if you will join us.
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