This preference, however, she betrayed only by
an almost imperceptible difference of voice and look and also by
occasionally asking his opinion. She seemed to guess that Jean's
views would support her own, while those of Pierre must inevitably
be different. When she spoke of the doctor's ideas on politics,
art, philosophy, or morals, she would sometimes say: "Your
crotchets." Then he would look at her with the cold gleam of an
accuser drawing up an indictment against women—all women, poor weak
things.
Never till his sons came home had M. Roland invited her to join
his fishing expeditions, nor had he ever taken his wife; for he
liked to put off before daybreak, with his ally, Captain Beausire,
a master mariner retired, whom he had first met on the quay at high
tides and with whom he had struck up an intimacy, and the old
sailor Papagris, known as Jean Bart, in whose charge the boat was
left.
But one evening of the week before, Mme. Rosemilly, who had been
dining with them, remarked, "It must be great fun to go out
fishing." The jeweller, flattered by her interest and suddenly
fired with the wish to share his favourite sport with her, and to
make a convert after the manner of priests, exclaimed: "Would you
like to come?"
"To be sure I should."
"Next Tuesday?"
"Yes, next Tuesday."
"Are you the woman to be ready to start at five in the
morning?"
She exclaimed in horror:
"No, indeed: that is too much."
He was disappointed and chilled, suddenly doubting her true
vocation. However, he said:
"At what hour can you be ready?"
"Well—at nine?"
"Not before?"
"No, not before. Even that is very early."
The old fellow hesitated; he certainly would catch nothing, for
when the sun has warmed the sea the fish bite no more; but the two
brothers had eagerly pressed the scheme, and organized and arranged
everything there and then.
So on the following Tuesday the Pearl had dropped anchor under
the white rocks of Cape la Heve; they had fished till midday, then
they had slept awhile, and then fished again without catching
anything; and then it was that father Roland, perceiving, rather
late, that all that Mme. Rosemilly really enjoyed and cared for was
the sail on the sea, and seeing that his lines hung motionless, had
uttered in a spirit of unreasonable annoyance, that vehement
"Tschah!" which applied as much to the pathetic widow as to the
creatures he could not catch.
Now he contemplated the spoil—his fish—with the joyful thrill of
a miser; seeing as he looked up at the sky that the sun was getting
low: "Well, boys," said he, "suppose we turn homeward."
The young men hauled in their lines, coiled them up, cleaned the
hooks and stuck them into corks, and sat waiting.
Roland stood up to look out like a captain.
"No wind," said he. "You will have to pull, young 'uns."
And suddenly extending one arm to the northward, he
exclaimed:
"Here comes the packet from Southampton."
Away over the level sea, spread out like a blue sheet, vast and
sheeny and shot with flame and gold, an inky cloud was visible
against the rosy sky in the quarter to which he pointed, and below
it they could make out the hull of the steamer, which looked tiny
at such a distance. And to southward other wreaths of smoke,
numbers of them, could be seen, all converging towards the Havre
pier, now scarcely visible as a white streak with the lighthouse,
upright, like a horn, at the end of it.
Roland asked: "Is not the Normandie due to-day?" And Jean
replied:
"Yes, to-day."
"Give me my glass. I fancy I see her out there."
The father pulled out the copper tube, adjusted it to his eye,
sought the speck, and then, delighted to have seen it,
exclaimed:
"Yes, yes, there she is. I know her two funnels. Would you like
to look, Mme. Rosemilly?"
She took the telescope and directed it towards the Atlantic
horizon, without being able, however, to find the vessel, for she
could distinguish nothing—nothing but blue, with a coloured halo
round it, a circular rainbow—and then all manner of queer things,
winking eclipses which made her feel sick.
She said as she returned the glass:
"I never could see with that thing. It used to put my husband in
quite a rage; he would stand for hours at the windows watching the
ships pass."
Old Roland, much put out, retorted:
"Then it must be some defect in your eye, for my glass is a very
good one."
Then he offered it to his wife.
"Would you like to look?"
"No, thank you. I know before hand that I could not see through
it."
Mme. Roland, a woman of eight-and-forty but who did not look it,
seemed to be enjoying this excursion and this waning day more than
any of the party.
Her chestnut hair was only just beginning to show streaks of
white. She had a calm, reasonable face, a kind and happy way with
her which it was a pleasure to see. Her son Pierre was wont to say
that she knew the value of money, but this did not hinder her from
enjoying the delights of dreaming. She was fond of reading, of
novels, and poetry, not for their value as works of art, but for
the sake of the tender melancholy mood they would induce in her. A
line of poetry, often but a poor one, often a bad one, would touch
the little chord, as she expressed it, and give her the sense of
some mysterious desire almost realized. And she delighted in these
faint emotions which brought a little flutter to her soul,
otherwise as strictly kept as a ledger.
Since settling at Havre she had become perceptibly stouter, and
her figure, which had been very supple and slight, had grown
heavier.
This day on the sea had been delightful to her. Her husband,
without being brutal, was rough with her, as a man who is the
despot of his shop is apt to be rough, without anger or hatred; to
such men to give an order is to swear. He controlled himself in the
presence of strangers, but in private he let loose and gave himself
terrible vent, though he was himself afraid of every one. She, in
sheer horror of the turmoil, of scenes, of useless explanations,
always gave way and never asked for anything; for a very long time
she had not ventured to ask Roland to take her out in the boat. So
she had joyfully hailed this opportunity, and was keenly enjoying
the rare and new pleasure.
From the moment when they started she surrendered herself
completely, body and soul, to the soft, gliding motion over the
waves. She was not thinking; her mind was not wandering through
either memories or hopes; it seemed to her as though her heart,
like her body, was floating on something soft and liquid and
delicious which rocked and lulled it.
When their father gave the word to return, "Come, take your
places at the oars!" she smiled to see her sons, her two great
boys, take off their jackets and roll up their shirt-sleeves on
their bare arms.
Pierre, who was nearest to the two women, took the stroke oar,
Jean the other, and they sat waiting till the skipper should say:
"Give way!" For he insisted on everything being done according to
strict rule.
Simultaneously, as if by a single effort, they dipped the oars,
and lying back, pulling with all their might, began a struggle to
display their strength. They had come out easily, under sail, but
the breeze had died away, and the masculine pride of the two
brothers was suddenly aroused by the prospect of measuring their
powers. When they went out alone with their father they plied the
oars without any steering, for Roland would be busy getting the
lines ready, while he kept a lookout in the boat's course, guiding
it by a sign or a word: "Easy, Jean, and you, Pierre, put your back
into it." Or he would say, "Now, then, number one; come, number
two—a little elbow grease." Then the one who had been dreaming
pulled harder, the one who had got excited eased down, and the
boat's head came round.
But to-day they meant to display their biceps. Pierre's arms
were hairy, somewhat lean but sinewy; Jean's were round and white
and rosy, and the knot of muscles moved under the skin.
At first Pierre had the advantage.
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