He stayed with his people all his
days, from the hour he was born till the hour he went into Sandhurst
nearly at the top of the list. He was beautifully taught in all that wins
marks by a private tutor, and carried the extra weight of “never having
given his parents an hour’s anxiety in his life.” What he learnt at
Sandhurst beyond the regular routine is of no great consequence. He looked
about him, and he found soap and blacking, so to speak, very good. He ate
a little, and came out of Sandhurst not so high as he went in. Them there
was an interval and a scene with his people, who expected much from him.
Next a year of living “unspotted from the world” in a third-rate depot
battalion where all the juniors were children, and all the seniors old
women; and lastly he came out to India, where he was cut off from the
support of his parents, and had no one to fall back on in time of trouble
except himself.
Now India is a place beyond all others where one must not take things
too seriously—the midday sun always excepted. Too much work and too much
energy kill a man just as effectively as too much assorted vice or too
much drink. Flirtation does not matter because every one is being
transferred and either you or she leave the Station, and never return.
Good work does not matter, because a man is judged by his worst output and
another man takes all the credit of his best as a rule. Bad work does not
matter, because other men do worse, and incompetents hang on longer in
India than anywhere else. Amusements do not matter, because you must
repeat them as soon as you have accomplished them once, and most
amusements only mean trying to win another person’s money. Sickness does
not matter, because it’s all in the day’s work, and if you die another man
takes over your place and your office in the eight hours between death and
burial. Nothing matters except Home furlough and acting allowances, and
these only because they are scarce. This is a slack, kutcha country where
all men work with imperfect instruments; and the wisest thing is to take
no one and nothing in earnest, but to escape as soon as ever you can to
some place where amusement is amusement and a reputation worth the
having.
But this Boy—the tale is as old as the Hills—came out, and took all
things seriously. He was pretty and was petted. He took the pettings
seriously, and fretted over women not worth saddling a pony to call upon.
He found his new free life in India very good. It DOES look attractive in
the beginning, from a Subaltern’s point of view—all ponies, partners,
dancing, and so on. He tasted it as the puppy tastes the soap. Only he
came late to the eating, with a growing set of teeth. He had no sense of
balance—just like the puppy—and could not understand why he was not
treated with the consideration he received under his father’s roof. This
hurt his feelings.
He quarrelled with other boys, and, being sensitive to the marrow,
remembered these quarrels, and they excited him. He found whist, and
gymkhanas, and things of that kind (meant to amuse one after office) good;
but he took them seriously too, just as he took the “head” that followed
after drink. He lost his money over whist and gymkhanas because they were
new to him.
He took his losses seriously, and wasted as much energy and interest
over a two-goldmohur race for maiden ekka-ponies with their manes hogged,
as if it had been the Derby. One-half of this came from inexperience—much
as the puppy squabbles with the corner of the hearth-rug—and the other
half from the dizziness bred by stumbling out of his quiet life into the
glare and excitement of a livelier one. No one told him about the soap and
the blacking because an average man takes it for granted that an average
man is ordinarily careful in regard to them. It was pitiful to watch The
Boy knocking himself to pieces, as an over-handled colt falls down and
cuts himself when he gets away from the groom.
This unbridled license in amusements not worth the trouble of breaking
line for, much less rioting over, endured for six months—all through one
cold weather—and then we thought that the heat and the knowledge of having
lost his money and health and lamed his horses would sober The Boy down,
and he would stand steady. In ninety-nine cases out of a hundred this
would have happened. You can see the principle working in any Indian
Station. But this particular case fell through because The Boy was
sensitive and took things seriously—as I may have said some seven times
before. Of course, we couldn’t tell how his excesses struck him
personally. They were nothing very heart-breaking or above the average. He
might be crippled for life financially, and want a little nursing.
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