In solitude the Desert soaked down into him.
At night the jackals cried in the darkness round his cautiously-fed
camp fire—small, because wood had to be carried—and in the daytime
kites circled overhead to inspect him, and an occasional white vulture
flapped across the blue. The weird desolation of this rocky valley, he
thought, was like the scenery of the moon. He took no watch with him,
and the arrival of the donkey boy an hour after sunrise came almost
from another planet, bringing things of time and common life out of
some distant gulf where they had lain forgotten among lost ages.
The short hour of twilight brought, too, a bewitchment into the
silence that was a little less than comfortable. Full light or darkness
he could manage, but this time of half things made him want to shut his
eyes and hide. Its effect stepped over imagination. The mind got lost.
He could not understand it. For the cliffs and boulders of discoloured
limestone shone then with an inward glow that signaled to the Desert
with veiled lanterns. The misshapen hills, carved by wind and rain into
ominous outlines, stirred and nodded. In the morning light they retired
into themselves, asleep. But at dusk the tide retreated. They rose from
the sea, emerging naked, threatening. They ran together and joined
shoulders, the entire army of them. And the glow of their sandy bodies,
self-luminous, continued even beneath the stars. Only the moonlight
drowned it. For the moonrise over the Mokattam Hills brought a white,
grand loveliness that drenched the entire Desert. It drew a marvellous
sweetness from the sand. It shone across a world as yet unfinished,
whereon no life might show itself for ages yet to come. He was alone
then upon an empty star, before the creation of things that breathed
and moved.
What impressed him, however, more than everything else was the
enormous vitality that rose out of all this apparent death. There was
no hint of ht melancholy that belongs commonly to flatness; the sadness
of wide, monotonous landscape was not here. The endless repetition of
sweeping vale and plateau brought infinity within measurable
comprehension. He grasped a definite meaning in the phrase “world
without end”; the Desert had no end and no beginning. It gave him a
sense of eternal peace, the silent peace that starfields know. Instead
of subduing the soul with bewilderment, it inspired with courage,
confidence, hope. Through this sand which was the wreck of countless
geological ages, rushed life that was terrific and uplifting, too huge
to include melancholy, too deep to betray itself in movement. Here was
the stillness of eternity. Behind the spread grey masque of apparent
death lay stores of accumulated life, ready to break forth at any
point. In the Desert he felt himself absolutely royal.
And this contrast of Life, veiling itself in Death, was a
contradiction that somehow intoxicated. The Desert exhilaration never
left him. He was never alone. A companionship of millions went with
him, and he felt the Desert close, as stars are close to one another,
or grains of sand.
It was the Khamasin, the hot wind bringing sand, that drove him
in—with the feeling that these few days and nights had been
immeasurable, and that he had been away a thousand years.
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