The Desert played with
him. Sand stole into his being—through the eyes.
And so obsessing was this majesty of its close presence, that
Henriot sometimes wondered how people dared their little social
activities within its very sight and hearing; how they played golf and
tennis upon reclaimed edges of its face, picnicked so blithely hard
upon its frontiers, and danced at night while this stern, unfathomable
Thing lay breathing just beyond the trumpery walls that kept it out.
The challenge of their shallow admiration seemed presumptuous, almost
provocative. Their pursuit of pleasure suggested insolent indifference.
They ran fool-hardy hazards, he felt; for there was no worship in their
vulgar hearts. With a mental shudder, sometimes he watched the cheap
tourist horde go laughing, chattering past within view of its ancient,
half-closed eyes. It was like defying deity.
For, to his stirred imagination the sublimity of the Desert dwarfed
humanity. These people had been wiser to choose another place for the
flaunting of their tawdry insignificance. Any minute this Wilderness,
“huddled in grey annihilation,” might awaken and notice them … !
In his own hotel were several “smart,” so-called “Society” people
who emphasised the protest in him to the point of definite contempt.
Overdressed, the latest worldly novel under their arms, they strutted
the narrow pavements of their tiny world, immensely pleased with
themselves. Their vacuous minds expressed themselves in the slang of
their exclusive circle—value being the element excluded. The pettiness
of their outlook hardly distressed him—he was too familiar with it at
home—but their essential vulgarity, their innate ugliness, seemed more
than usually offensive in the grandeur of its present setting. Into the
mighty sands they took the latest London scandal, gabbling it over even
among the Tombs and Temples. And “it was to laugh,” the pains they
spent wondering whom they might condescend to know, never dreaming that
they themselves were not worth knowing. Against the background of the
noble Desert their titles seemed the cap and bells of clowns.
And Henriot, knowing some of them personally, could not always
escape their insipid company. Yet he was the gainer. They little
guessed how their commonness heightened contrast, set mercilessly thus
beside the strange, eternal beauty of the sand.
Occasionally the protest in his soul betrayed itself in words, which
of course they did not understand. “He is so clever, isn’t he?” And
then, having relieved his feelings, he would comfort himself
characteristically:
“The Desert has not noticed them. The Sand is not aware of their
existence. How should the sea take note of rubbish that lies above its
tide-line?”
For Henriot drew near to its great shifting altars in an attitude of
worship. The wilderness made him kneel in heart. Its shining reaches
led to the oldest Temple in the world, and every journey that he made
was like a sacrament. For him the Desert was a consecrated place. It
was sacred.
And his tactful hosts, knowing his peculiarities, left their house
open to him when he cared to come—they lived upon the northern edge of
the oasis—and he was as free as though he were absolutely alone. He
blessed them; he rejoiced that he had come. Little Helouan accepted
him. The Desert knew that he was there.
From his corner of the big dining-room he could see the other
guests, but his roving eye always returned to the figure of a solitary
man who sat at an adjoining table, and whose personality stirred his
interest. While affecting to look elsewhere, he studied him as closely
as might be. There was something about the stranger that touched his
curiosity—a certain air of expectation that he word. But it was more
than that; it was anticipation, apprehension in it somewhere. The man
was nervous, uneasy. His restless way of suddenly looking about him
proved it. Henriot tried every one else in the room as well, but,
though his thought settled on others too, he always came back to the
figure of this solitary being opposite, who ate his dinner as if afraid
of being seen, and glanced up sometimes as if fearful of being watched.
Henriot’s curiosity, before he knew it, became suspicion.
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