Late at night Selma started her successive cry … a cry of life’s partition from life … a cry of continuance in the firmament of nothingness … a cry of a weak force before the stillness of great forces … the cry of poor Selma who was lying down in despair under the feet of life and death.
At dawn Selma gave birth to a baby boy. When she opened her eyes she saw smiling faces all over the room, then she looked again and saw life and death still wrestling by her bed. She closed her eyes and cried, saying for the first time, “Oh, my son.” The midwife wrapped the infant with silk swaddles and placed him by his mother, but the doctor kept looking at Selma and sorrowfully shaking his head.
The voices of joy woke the neighbors, who rushed into the house to felicitate the father upon the birth of his heir, but the doctor still gazed at Selma and her infant and shook his head.…
The servants hurried to spread the good news to Mansour Bey, but the doctor stared at Selma and her child with a disappointed look on his face.
As the sun came out, Selma took the infant to her breast; he opened his eyes for the first time and looked at his mother; then he quivered and closed them for the last time. The doctor took the child from Selma’s arms, and on his cheeks fell tears; then he whispered to himself, “He is a departing guest.”
The child passed away while the neighbors were celebrating with the father in the big hall at the house and drinking to the health of the heir; and Selma looked at the doctor, and pleaded, “Give me my child and let me embrace him.”
Though the child was dead, the sounds of the drinking cups increased in the hall.…
He was born at dawn and died at sunrise.…
He was born like a thought and died like a sigh and disappeared like a shadow.
He did not live to console and comfort his mother.
His life began at the end of the night and ended at the beginning of the day, like a drop of dew poured by the eyes of the dark and dried by the touch of the light.
A pearl brought by the tide to the coast and returned by the ebb into the depth of the sea.…
A lily that has just blossomed from the bud of life and is mashed under the feet of death.
A dear guest whose appearance illuminated Selma’s heart and whose departure killed her soul.
This is the life of men, the life of nations, the life of suns, moons and stars.
And Selma focused her eyes upon the doctor and cried, “Give me my child and let me embrace him; give me my child and let me nurse him.”
Then the doctor bent his head. His voice choked and he said, “Your child is dead, Madame, be patient.”
Upon hearing the doctor’s announcement, Selma uttered a terrible cry. Then she was quiet for a moment and smiled happily. Her face brightened as if she had discovered something, and quietly she said, “Give me my child; bring him close to me and let me see him dead.”
The doctor carried the dead child to Selma and placed him between her arms. She embraced him, then turned her face toward the wall and addressed the dead infant saying, “You have come to take me away, my child; you have come to show me the way that leads to the coast. Here I am, my child; lead me and let us leave this dark cave.”
And in a minute the sun’s ray penetrated the window curtains and fell upon two calm bodies lying on a bed, guarded by the profound dignity of silence and shaded by the wings of death. The doctor left the room with tears in his eyes, and as he reached the big hall the celebration was converted into a funeral, but Mansour Bey Galib never uttered a word or shed a tear. He remained standing motionless like a statue, holding a drinking cup with his right hand.
. . . . .
The second day Selma was shrouded with her white wedding dress and laid in a coffin; the child’s shroud was his swaddle; his coffin was his mother’s arms; his grave was her calm breast. Two corpses were carried in one coffin, and I walked reverently with the crowd accompanying Selma and her infant to their resting place.
Arriving at the cemetery, Bishop Galib commenced chanting while the other priests prayed, and on their gloomy faces appeared a veil of ignorance and emptiness.
As the coffin went down, one of the bystanders whispered, “This is the first time in my life I have seen two corpses in one coffin.” Another one said, “It seems as if the child had come to rescue his mother from her pitiless husband.”
A third one said, “Look at Mansour Bey: he is gazing at the sky as if his eyes were made of glass. He does not look like he has lost his wife and child in one day.” A fourth one added, “His uncle, the Bishop, will marry him again tomorrow to a wealthier and stronger woman.”
The Bishop and the priests kept on singing and chanting until the grave digger was through filling the ditch. Then, the people, individually, approached the Bishop and his nephew and offered their respects to them with sweet words of sympathy, but I stood lonely aside without a soul to console me, as if Selma and her child meant nothing to me.
The farewell-bidders left the cemetery; the grave digger stood by the new grave holding a shovel with his hand.
As I approached him, I inquired, “Do you remember where Farris Effandi Karamy was buried?”
He looked at me for a moment, then pointed at Selma’s grave and said, “Right here; I placed his daughter upon him and upon his daughter’s breast rests her child, and upon all I put the earth back with this shovel.”
Then I said, “In this ditch you have also buried my heart.”
As the grave digger disappeared behind the poplar trees, I could not resist any more; I dropped down on Selma’s grave and wept.
Contents
part one
The Master and the Disciple
THE MASTER’S JOURNEY TO VENICE
THE DEATH OF THE MASTER
part two
The Words of the Master
OF LIFE
OF THE MARTYRS TO MAN’S LAW
THOUGHTS AND MEDITATIONS
OF THE FIRST LOOK • OF THE FIRST KISS • OF MARRIAGE
OF THE DIVINITY OF MAN
OF REASON AND KNOWLEDGE
OF MUSIC
OF WISDOM
OF LOVE AND EQUALITY
FURTHER SAYINGS OF THE MASTER
THE LISTENER
LOVE AND YOUTH
WISDOM AND I
THE TWO CITIES
NATURE AND MAN
THE ENCHANTRESS
YOUTH AND HOPE
RESURRECTION
I came to say a word and I shall say it now. But if death prevents me, it will be said by Tomorrow, for Tomorrow never leaves a secret in the book of Eternity.
I came to live in the glory of Love and the light of Beauty, which are the reflections of God. I am here, living, and I cannot be exiled from the domain of life, for through my living word I will live in death.
I came here to be for all and with all, and what I do today in my solitude will be echoed Tomorrow by the multitude.
What I say now with one heart will be said Tomorrow by thousands of hearts.
THE VOICE OF THE MASTER
1
The Master’s Journey to Venice
AND IT CAME TO PASS that the Disciple saw the Master walking silently to and fro in the garden, and signs of deep sorrow showed upon his pale face. The Disciple greeted the Master in the name of Allah, and inquired after the cause of his grief. The Master motioned with his staff, and bade the Disciple seat himself on the rock by the fish pond. The Disciple did so, and made ready to listen to the Master’s story.
Said the Master:
“You desire me to tell you of the tragedy which Memory reenacts every day and night upon the stage of my heart. You are weary of my long silence and my unspoken secret, and you are troubled by my sighs and lamentations. To yourself you say, ‘If the Master will not admit me into the temple of his sorrows, how shall I ever enter into the house of his affections?’
“Hearken to my story … Listen, but do not pity me; for pity is intended for the weak—and I am still strong in my affliction.
“From the days of my youth, I have been haunted, waking and sleeping, by the phantom of a strange woman. I see her when I am alone at night, sitting by my bedside. In the midnight silence I hear her heavenly voice. Often, when I close my eyes, I feel the touch of her gentle fingers upon my lips; and when I open my eyes, I am overcome with dread, and suddenly begin listening intently to the whispered sounds of Nothingness.…
“Often I wonder, saying to myself, ‘Is it my fancy that sets me spinning until I seem to lose myself in the clouds? Have I fashioned from the sinews of my dreams a new divinity with a melodious voice and a gentle touch? Have I lost my senses, and in my madness have I created this dearly loved companion? Have I withdrawn myself from the society of men and the clamor of the city so that I might be alone with the object of my adoration? Have I shut my eyes and ears to Life’s forms and accents so that I might the better see her and hear her divine voice?’
“Often I wonder: ‘Am I a madman who is content to be alone, and from the phantoms of his loneliness fashions a companion and spouse for his soul?’
“I speak of a Spouse, and you marvel at that word. But how often are we puzzled by some strange experience, which we reject as impossible, but whose reality we cannot efface from our minds, try as we will?
“This visionary woman has indeed been my spouse, sharing with me all the joys and sorrows of life. When I awake in the morning, I see her bending over my pillow, gazing at me with eyes glowing with kindness and maternal love. She is with me when I plan some undertaking, and she helps me bring it to fulfilment. When I sit down to my repast, she sits with me, and we exchange thoughts and words. In the evening, she is with me again, saying, ‘We have tarried too long in this place. Let us walk in the fields and meadows.’ Then I leave my work, and follow her into the fields, and we sit on a high rock and gaze at the distant horizon.
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