Felsby, and caused the party to break up early; she knew she
had in some way been rather wicked. “Oh, mother, I’m so TERRIBLY sorry. I
don’t know WHAT could have possessed me. I’ll never, NEVER say such things
again… It all sprang out of nothing—I just heard you talking on the
telephone to someone, and the idea got hold of me that it was a man proposing
to you…”
Livia felt her mother’s hand tighten over her own. “But—
darling…”
“Yes, I know, mother. I know it’s silly.”
But Emily didn’t think it was silly so much as uncanny. There was, of
course, no question of her marrying; that was impossible under the existing
conditions of British law. But she had fallen in love, and it was that man
who had telephoned, begging her to come to London again as early as possible
in the New Year. His name was Standon, and he had met Emily by chance in a
London restaurant on her return north from one of those no longer monthly
visits. He was several years her junior, and lived in a studio in Baron’s
Court, painting portraits when he could get commissions, and idling when he
could not. He liked Emily because she was easy-going and had money; she loved
him because he was attractive and also (though she did not realize this)
because she was starved for the kind of attention he was always most happy to
provide. It was not a bad bargain, in the circumstances.
* * * * *
After the scene at the Stoneclough Christmas dinner-table
of which Dr.
Whiteside had been a witness, he pressed his argument that Livia should be
told the truth and then allowed to mix with children of her own age; and even
Emily (thinking of Mr. Standon) realized that something had to be done.
However, a solution occurred to her of a kind that she delighted in—
one that really solved nothing, but merely delayed the issue. Why not send
Livia to a good boarding-school in another part of the country? In such
surroundings could she not mix with children of her own age AS WELL AS remain
in happy ignorance about her father? If the headmistress were let into the
secret beforehand, surely there was no reason why the plan should not work
out perfectly?
So Livia went to Cheldean, in Sussex, where for the first time in her life
she was thoroughly unhappy. She had tried to look forward to meeting other
girls, imagining that they would all be eager to know her; but the facts of
school life, and even more the fictions, brought quick disillusionment. She
could not fit herself easily into the patterns of schoolgirl right and wrong,
of not doing things that were ‘not done’, of avoiding taboos. And questions
that Miss Fortescue would have tried to answer even though they were
unanswerable were thought merely exhibitionist or absurd at Cheldean; so
after a few unwelcome experiences Livia ceased to ask them. That helped to
lessen her initial unpopularity, the more so as she was growing up rather
personably; she was a girl one would look at twice, even if one did not agree
that she was beautiful.
Meanwhile the cotton trade in and around Browdley slumped further, giving
Mr. Felsby more to shout about during family dinners that took place at least
once during every school vacation. And also during one of these vacations
Livia was introduced to this man called Standon, who spent a week-end at
Stoneclough for the ostensible purpose of advising Emily about a colour
scheme for the drawing-room. The visit was not an entire success, for Sarah
thought it nonsense that a man should travel all the way from London to tell
anyone how to paint a house, while Miss Fortescue could not believe that a
youth with such exquisite manners was not somehow a deceiver. Livia simply
did not like him. All this was a rather poor reward for Mr. Standon’s efforts
to be agreeable to everybody, as well as for Emily’s carefully planned scheme
to introduce him to the family without causing too much comment. But it was
impossible for Mr. Standon not to cause comment, and though Mr. Felsby did
not meet him, rumours of his visit got through to the old man and gave him
material for unlimited banter afterwards. “And how’s your painter friend?” he
would ask, nudging Emily in the ribs. “Still sleeping with nothing on?” (This
was according to a horrified report made by Sarah after taking a cup of tea
up to Mr. Standon’s bedroom early one morning.) Of course Mr.
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