I fully recognise that my
countrymen have not yet advanced [to] as far as the machinery of Parisian harlotry
because …
— Because …?
— Well, because they can do it by hand, that’s why!
— Good God, you don’t mean to say you think …
— My good youth, I know what I am saying is true and so do you
know it. Ask Father Pat and ask Dr Thisbody and ask Dr Thatbody. I was at school and
you were at school — and that’s enough about it.
— O, Daedalus!
This accusation laid a silence on the conversation. Then Madden
spoke:
— Well, if these are your ideas I don’t see what you
want coming to me and talking about learning Irish.
— I would like to learn it — as a language, said Stephen
lyingly. At least I would like to see first.
— So you admit you are an Irishman after all and not one of the
red garrison.
— Of course I do.
— And don’t you think that every
Irishman worthy of the name should be able to speak his native tongue?
— I really don’t know.
— And don’t you think that we as a race have a right to
be free?
— O, don’t ask me such questions, Madden. You can use
these phrases of the platform but I can’t.
— But surely you have some political opinions, man!
— I am going to think them out. I am an artist, don’t
you see? Do you believe that I am?
— O, yes, I know you are.
— Very well then, how the devil can you expect me to settle
everything all at once? Give me time.
So it was decided that Stephen was to begin a course of lessons in
Irish. He bought the O’Growney’s primers published by the Gaelic
League but refused either to pay a subscription to the League or to wear the badge
in his buttonhole. He had found out what he had desired, namely, the class in which
Miss Clery was. People at home did not seem opposed to this new freak of his. Mr
Casey taught him a few Southern songs in Irish and always raised his glass to
Stephen saying “Sinn Fein” instead of “Good Health.” Mrs
Daedalus was probably pleased for she thought that the superintendence of priests
and the society of harmless enthusiasts might succeed in influencing her son in the
right direction: she had begun to fear for him. Maurice said nothing and asked no
questions. He did not understand what made his brother associate with the patriots
and he did not believe that the study of Irish seemed in any way useful to Stephen:
but he was silent and waited. Mr Daedalus said that he did not mind his son’s
learning the language so long as it did not keep him from his legitimate work.
One evening when Maurice came back from school he brought with him the
news that the retreat would begin in three days’ time. This news suddenly
delivered showed Stephen his position. He could hardly believe that in a year his
point of view had changed so completely. Only twelve months ago he had been clamouring for forgiveness and promising endless penances. He could
hardly believe that it was no other than he who had clung so fiercely to the sole
means of salvation which the Church vouchsafes to her guilty children. He marvelled
at the terror which had then possessed him. One evening during the retreat he asked
his brother what kind of sermons the priest was giving. The two were standing
together looking into the window of a stationer’s shop and it was a picture
of S. Anthony in the window which had led to the question. Maurice smiled broadly as
he answered:
— Hell today.
— And what kind of a sermon was it?
— Usual kind of thing. Stink in the morning and pain of loss in
the evening.
Stephen laughed and looked at the square-shouldered boy beside him.
Maurice announced facts in a dry satirical voice and his cloudy complexion did not
change colour when he laughed. He made Stephen think of the pictures in
‘Silas Verney.’ His sombre gravity, his careful cleansing of his
muchworn clothes, and the premature disillusionment of his manner all suggested the
human vesture of some spiritual or philosophic problem transplanted from Holland.
Stephen did not know in what stage the problem was and he thought it wiser to allow
it its own path of solution.
— Do you know what the priest told us also? asked Maurice after
a pause.
— What?
— He said we weren’t to have companions.
— Companions?
— « That we weren’t to go for walks in the
evenings with any special companions. If we wanted to take a walk, he said, a lot of
us were to go together. »
Stephen halted in the street and struck the palms of his hands
together.
— What’s up with you? said Maurice.
— I know what’s up with them, said Stephen.
They’re afraid.
— Of course they’re afraid, said
Maurice gravely.
— By the bye of course you have made the retreat?
— O, yes. I’m going to the altar in the morning.
— Are you really?
— Tell the truth, Stephen. When mother gives you the money on
Sunday to go in to short twelve in Marlboro’ St do you really go to Mass?
Stephen coloured slightly.
— Why do you ask that?
— Tell the truth.
— No … I don’t.
— And where do you go?
— O anywhere … about the town.
— So I thought.
— You’re a ’cute fellow, said Stephen in a
sidewise fashion. Might I ask do you go to mass yourself?
— O, yes, said Maurice.
They walked on [then] for a short time in silence.
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