You must suffer
me to go my own dark way. I have brought on myself a punishment and
a danger that I cannot name. If I am the chief of sinners, I am the
chief of sufferers also. I could not think that this earth
contained a place for sufferings and terrors so unmanning; and you
can do but one thing, Utterson, to lighten this destiny, and that
is to respect my silence." Utterson was amazed; the dark influence
of Hyde had been withdrawn, the doctor had returned to his old
tasks and amities; a week ago, the prospect had smiled with every
promise of a cheerful and an honoured age; and now in a moment,
friendship, and peace of mind, and the whole tenor of his life were
wrecked. So great and unprepared a change pointed to madness; but
in view of Lanyon's manner and words, there must lie for it some
deeper ground.
A week afterwards Dr. Lanyon took to his bed, and in something
less than a fortnight he was dead. The night after the funeral, at
which he had been sadly affected, Utterson locked the door of his
business room, and sitting there by the light of a melancholy
candle, drew out and set before him an envelope addressed by the
hand and sealed with the seal of his dead friend. "PRIVATE: for the
hands of G. J. Utterson ALONE, and in case of his predecease to be
destroyed unread," so it was emphatically superscribed; and the
lawyer dreaded to behold the contents. "I have buried one friend
to-day," he thought: "what if this should cost me another?" And
then he condemned the fear as a disloyalty, and broke the seal.
Within there was another enclosure, likewise sealed, and marked
upon the cover as "not to be opened till the death or disappearance
of Dr. Henry Jekyll." Utterson could not trust his eyes. Yes, it
was disappearance; here again, as in the mad will which he had long
ago restored to its author, here again were the idea of a
disappearance and the name of Henry Jekyll bracketted. But in the
will, that idea had sprung from the sinister suggestion of the man
Hyde; it was set there with a purpose all too plain and horrible.
Written by the hand of Lanyon, what should it mean? A great
curiosity came on the trustee, to disregard the prohibition and
dive at once to the bottom of these mysteries; but professional
honour and faith to his dead friend were stringent obligations; and
the packet slept in the inmost corner of his private safe.
It is one thing to mortify curiosity, another to conquer it; and
it may be doubted if, from that day forth, Utterson desired the
society of his surviving friend with the same eagerness. He thought
of him kindly; but his thoughts were disquieted and fearful. He
went to call indeed; but he was perhaps relieved to be denied
admittance; perhaps, in his heart, he preferred to speak with Poole
upon the doorstep and surrounded by the air and sounds of the open
city, rather than to be admitted into that house of voluntary
bondage, and to sit and speak with its inscrutable recluse. Poole
had, indeed, no very pleasant news to communicate. The doctor, it
appeared, now more than ever confined himself to the cabinet over
the laboratory, where he would sometimes even sleep; he was out of
spirits, he had grown very silent, he did not read; it seemed as if
he had something on his mind. Utterson became so used to the
unvarying character of these reports, that he fell off little by
little in the frequency of his visits.
Chapter 7
Incident at the Window
It chanced on Sunday, when Mr. Utterson was on his usual walk
with Mr. Enfield, that their way lay once again through the
by-street; and that when they came in front of the door, both
stopped to gaze on it.
"Well," said Enfield, "that story's at an end at least. We shall
never see more of Mr. Hyde."
"I hope not," said Utterson. "Did I ever tell you that I once
saw him, and shared your feeling of repulsion?"
"It was impossible to do the one without the other," returned
Enfield. "And by the way, what an ass you must have thought me, not
to know that this was a back way to Dr. Jekyll's! It was partly
your own fault that I found it out, even when I did."
"So you found it out, did you?" said Utterson. "But if that be
so, we may step into the court and take a look at the windows. To
tell you the truth, I am uneasy about poor Jekyll; and even
outside, I feel as if the presence of a friend might do him
good."
The court was very cool and a little damp, and full of premature
twilight, although the sky, high up overhead, was still bright with
sunset. The middle one of the three windows was half-way open; and
sitting close beside it, taking the air with an infinite sadness of
mien, like some disconsolate prisoner, Utterson saw Dr. Jekyll.
"What! Jekyll!" he cried.
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