That uncertain voice, which didn’t stress his words and gave her the impression that he was walking at her side without paying attention to her.
She didn’t reply and didn’t open her eyes.
“Are you feeling ill?”
“I’m not ill. But I’d like to get home. I’m freezing.”
“You said it wasn’t far ...”
“Don’t worry, it isn’t. Another twenty paces and you’re free.”
She didn’t expect even a polite denial from him. She took his arm, determined not to say anything more to him; she was impatient to be left alone. She forced herself to take ever longer strides, although her right leg was still hurting.
For the first time since that stupid accident had happened, she felt like she wanted to cry.
She finally stopped in front of a multiple-storey building, leaned against the glass front door and extended her hand ...
“This is it. You can go now. Thank you.”
He squeezed her hand for a second without holding it, then touched a finger to his hat, sketching a vague half-wave.
She wanted to tell him: You’re the most unpleasant man in the world. But she was too tired to tell him anything. She left him there in front of the building, and went into the bright foyer, where an enervating wave of heat received her.
... She was alone in the elevator. She pressed the button for the top floor, the sixth, then fell onto the bench with a relieved sigh. She promised herself she would cry with all her heart once she got to her apartment. She felt that nothing could be better for her: a good cry followed by a steaming hot bath.
Somewhere between two floors the elevator stopped with a brusque shudder. At first she thought she had arrived, but she realized that in fact she was suspended in the air.
This is the day for accidents. She tried to make a joke in her mind. She pressed for a long time on the alarm button.
She remembered that last summer the old lady from the third floor had spent a whole morning locked in the elevator between two floors. The thought terrified her. She pressed again, with a long, nervous, harsh start of panic, on the red button. In the deep silence, everything was motionless; somewhere far away, as weak as a call from another world, the alarm bell rang without anyone responding to it.
She could no longer hold back her tears. She looked at herself in the elevator’s rectangular mirror and felt pity for the state she was in: dishevelled, ragged, dirty, frozen. The hot tears welled from her eyes, and she received them with a sudden pleasure, as if she had drawn near to a warm hearth.
From below someone, probably the porter, shouted: “Hey, third-floor door. Who opened the third-floor door?”
The third-floor door was closed: the elevator set off noiselessly on its way. She would have liked not to stop again, to travel like that forever, and to be able to cry peacefully to the slow, silent movements of the elevator.
On the top floor the young gentleman in the grey overcoat was waiting for her. She looked at him in astonishment, unable to understand what was going on.
“You?”
“Me. I forgot to give you the iodine tincture and the oxygenated water.”
Indeed, he pulled two bottles out of his pocket enveloped in the pharmacy’s multicoloured paper.
“And how did you get up here?”
“By the stairs.”
“Six floors?”
“Six.”
What an odd guy! she thought, watching him for a moment, intrigued again by his lack of expression. Now, too, he had that far-away, unquestioning gaze, which she had first seen when she had raised her head from the snow.
She remembered that she had been crying. Embarrassed, she lowered her eyes; but it was too late: he had noticed.
“You were crying?”
“No ... Well, yes. A little. But it’s not important! It’s never important when I cry ...”
She took the key out of her handbag.
“Do you want to come in for a moment?”
He responded by lifting his shoulders.
“Does that mean Yes, or does that mean No?”
“I don’t know what it means.
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