She had only just begun to realize she was going to have a child. She was sitting opposite him in the railway carriage; they were alone. She hadn’t spoken to him the whole morning; he had had to make all the arrangements for the journey by himself—she was absolutely inert—she seemed not to know what was going on. He took her hands, but she looked straight in front of her with haggard eyes, as if she didn’t see him, and her lips kept moving. He bent towards her. She was saying: ‘A lover! A lover! I’ve got a lover!’ She kept on repeating it in the same tone; and still the same word kept coming from her over and over again, as if it were the only one she remembered. I assure you, Robert, that when he told me that, I didn’t feel in the least inclined to laugh any more. I’ve never in my life heard anything more pathetic. But all the same, I felt that as he was speaking he was detaching himself more and more from the whole thing. It was as though his feeling were passing away in the same breath as his words; it was as though he were grateful to my emotion for coming to relay his own.”
“I don’t know how you would say it in Russian or English, but I assure you that, in French, you do it exceedingly well.”
“Thanks. I’m aware of it—It was after that, that he began to talk to me about natural history; and I tried to persuade him that it would be monstrous to sacrifice his career to his love.”
“In other words, you advised him to sacrifice his love. And is it your intention to take the place of that love?”
Lilian remained silent.
“This time, I think it really is he,” went on Robert, rising. “Quick! one word before he comes in. My father died this evening.”
“Ah!” she said simply.
“You haven’t a fancy to become Comtesse de Passavant, have you?”
At this Lilian flung herself back with a burst of laughter.
“Oh, oh, my dear friend! The fact is I have a vague recollection that I’ve mislaid a husband somewhere or other in England. What! I never told you?”
“Not that I remember.”
“You might have guessed it; as a rule a Lady’s accompanied by a Lord.”
The Comte de Passavant, who had never had much faith in the authenticity of his friend’s title, smiled. She went on: “Is it to cloak your own life, that you’ve taken it into your head to propose such a thing to me? No, my dear friend, no. Let’s stay as we are. Friends, eh?” And she held out her hand, which he kissed.
“Ah! Ah! I thought as much,” cried Vincent, as he came into the room. “The traitor! He has dressed!”
“Yes, I had promised not to change, so as to keep him in countenance,” said Robert. “I’m sorry, my dear fellow, but I suddenly remembered I was in mourning.”
Vincent held his head high. An air of triumph and of joy breathed from his whole person. At his arrival, Lilian had sprung to her feet. She looked him up and down for a moment, then rushed joyously at Robert and began belabouring his back with her fists, jumping, dancing and exclaiming as she did so. (Lilian irritates me rather when she puts on this affectation of childishness.)
“He has lost his bet! He has lost his bet!”
“What bet?” asked Vincent.
“He had bet that you would lose your money again to-night. Tell us! Quickly! You’ve won. How much?”
“I have had the extraordinary courage—and virtue—to leave off at fifty thousand and come away.”
Lilian gave a roar of delight.
“Bravo! Bravo! Bravo!” she cried. Then she flung her arms round Vincent’s neck. From head to foot, he felt her glowing, lissom body, with its strange perfume of sandal-wood, pressed against his own; and Lilian kissed him on the forehead, on the cheeks, on the lips. Vincent staggered and freed himself. He took a bundle of bank-notes out of his pocket.
“Here! take back what you advanced me,” he said, holding out five of them to Robert.
“No,” answered Robert.
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