‘I feel I ought to go anyhow,’ she resumed, ‘and of course it would
be jollier if you came too.
You’d get in such a muddle here by yourself, and eat wrong things,
and forget to air the rooms, and—oh, everything!’ She looked up
laughing. ‘Only,’ she added, ‘there’s the British Museum— ?’
‘But there’s a big library there’, I answered, ‘and all the hooks
of reference I could possibly want. It was of you I was thinking. You
could take up your painting again; you always sell half of what you
paint. It would be a splendid rest too, and Sussex is a jolly country
to walk in. By all means, Fanny, I advise—’
Our eyes met, as I stammered in my attempts to avoid expressing the
thought that hid in both our minds. My sister had a weakness for
dabbling in the various ‘new’ theories of the day, and Mabel, who
before her marriage had belonged to foolish societies for investigating
the future life to the neglect of the present one, had fostered this
undersirable tendency. Her amiable, impressionable temperament was
open to every psychic wind that blew. I deplored, detested the whole
business. But even more than this I abhorred the later influence that
Mr. Franklyn had steeped his wife in, capturing her body and soul in
his sombre doctrines. I had dreaded lest my sister also might be
caught.
‘Now that she is alone again—’
I stopped short. Our eyes now made pretence impossible, for the
truth had slipped out inevitably, stupidly, although unexpressed in
definite language. We laughed, turning our faces a moment to look at
other things in the room. Frances picked up a book and examined its
cover as though she had made an important discovery, while I took my
case out and lit a cigarette I did not want to smoke. We left the
matter there. I went out of the room before further explanation could
cause tension. Disagreements grow into discord from such tiny
things—wrong adjectives, or a chance inflection of the voice. Frances
had a right to her views of life as much as I had. At least, I
reflected comfortably, we had separated upon an agreement this time,
recognised mutually, though not actually stated.
And this point of meeting was, oddly enough, our way of regarding
some one who was dead.
For we had both disliked the husband with a great dislike, and
during his three years’ married life had only been to the house
once—for a weekend visit; arriving late on Saturday, we had left after
an early breakfast on Monday morning. Ascribing my sister’s dislike to
a natural jealousy at losing her old friend, I said merely that he
displeased me. Yet we both knew that the real emotion lay much deeper.
Frances, loyal, honourable creature, had kept silence; and beyond
saying that house and grounds—he altered one and laid out the
other—distressed her as an expression of his personality somehow
(“distressed” was the word she used), no further explanation had passed
her lips.
Our dislike of his personality was easily accounted for—up to a
point, since both of us shared the artist’s point of view that a
creed, cut to measure and carefully dried, was an ugly thing, and that
a dogma to which believers must subscribe or perish everlastingly was a
barbarism resting upon cruelty. But while my own dislike was purely
due to an abstract worship of Beauty, my sister’s had another twist in
it, for with her ‘new’ tendencies, she believed that all religions were
an aspect of truth and that no one, even the lowest wretch, could
escape ‘heaven’ in the long run.
Samuel Franklyn, the rich banker, was a man universally respected
and admired, and the marriage, though Mabel was fifteen years his
junior, won general applause; his bride was an heiress in her own
right—breweries—and the story of her conversion at a revivalist
meeting where Samuel Franklyn had spoken fervidly of heaven, and
terrifyingly of sin, hell and damnation, even contained a touch of
genuine romance.
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