Don’t you come in here tomorrow saying I swindled you. You poured I don’t know how many out for yourself.”
“Don’t say that, Elsabe,” I said, half-blustering, half-whining. “I’d never do such a thing! What do I care about money—!”
“Don’t teach me about men! When they’re drunk and randy it’s all ‘What do I care about money!’ and next morning they turn up with the police, shouting about being swindled. The brandy, and the champagne, and my cigarettes … that comes to.…”
She named a sum.
“Is that all?” I said boastfully and pulled out my wallet. “Here you are!”
I put down the money.
“And here …,” I took out a hundred-mark note and laid it beside the other. “This is for you because I hate you and because you’re ruining me. Take it, take it. I don’t want anything from you, anything at all! Go away! I’ve got you in my blood already, I couldn’t possess you more than I do. You’re very likely dull and boring. You’re not from hereabouts, you’re from some city, of course, where you left everything behind—this is just the remains!”
We stood facing each other, the money lay on the table, the light was gloomy. I swayed gently on my feet. I was holding the half-empty brandy bottle by the neck. She looked at me.
“Put your money away,” she whispered. “Take your money off the table. I don’t want your money … you’d better go!”
“You can’t force me to take the money back. I’m leaving it here … I present you with it, my queen of bright brandy called Elsabe. I’m going.…”
Laboriously I made my way to the door. The key was on the inside and I struggled to turn it in the lock.
“Hey, you,” she said behind me. “You.…”
I turned round. Her voice had become low but full and soft. All the impudence had gone out of it.
“You …” she repeated, and now in her eyes there was colour and light. “You—do you want to?”
Now it was I who looked at her silently.
“Take your shoes off, be quiet on the stairs, the landlady mustn’t hear you. Come on, be quick.…”
Silently, I did as she told me. I don’t know why I did. I didn’t desire her now. I didn’t desire her in that way, at all.
“Give me your hand.”
She switched off the light and led me by the hand. In the other hand I still held the brandy bottle. It was completely dark in the bar-room. I crept after her. Moonlight through a little dusty window fell on the narrow angular staircase.
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