He
did not want to be one in a hundred - one per cent of an education.
He regarded himself as the only person for whom his education had
value, and he wanted the whole of it. He got barely half of an
average. Long afterwards, when the devious path of life led him
back to teach in his turn what no student naturally cared or needed
to know, he diverted some dreary hours of faculty-meetings by
looking up his record in the class-lists, and found himself graded
precisely in the middle. In the one branch he most needed -
mathematics - barring the few first scholars, failure was so nearly
universal that no attempt at grading could have had value, and
whether he stood fortieth or ninetieth must have been an accident
or the personal favor of the professor. Here his education failed
lamentably. At best he could never have been a mathematician; at
worst he would never have cared to be one; but he needed to read
mathematics, like any other universal language, and he never
reached the alphabet.
Beyond two or three Greek plays, the student got
nothing from the ancient languages. Beyond some incoherent theories
of free-trade and protection, he got little from Political Economy.
He could not afterwards remember to have heard the name of Karl
Marx mentioned, or the title of "Capital." He was equally ignorant
of Auguste Comte. These were the two writers of his time who most
influenced its thought. The bit of practical teaching he afterwards
reviewed with most curiosity was the course in Chemistry, which
taught him a number of theories that befogged his mind for a
lifetime. The only teaching that appealed to his imagination was a
course of lectures by Louis Agassiz on the Glacial Period and
Paleontology, which had more influence on his curiosity than the
rest of the college instruction altogether. The entire work of the
four years could have been easily put into the work of any four
months in after life.
Harvard College was a negative force, and negative
forces have value. Slowly it weakened the violent political bias of
childhood, not by putting interests in its place, but by mental
habits which had no bias at all. It would also have weakened the
literary bias, if Adams had been capable of finding other
amusement, but the climate kept him steady to desultory and useless
reading, till he had run through libraries of volumes which he
forgot even to their title-pages. Rather by instinct than by
guidance, he turned to writing, and his professors or tutors
occasionally gave his English composition a hesitating approval;
but in that branch, as in all the rest, even when he made a long
struggle for recognition, he never convinced his teachers that his
abilities, at their best, warranted placing him on the rank-list,
among the first third of his class. Instructors generally reach a
fairly accurate gauge of their scholars' powers. Henry Adams
himself held the opinion that his instructors were very nearly
right, and when he became a professor in his turn, and made
mortifying mistakes in ranking his scholars, he still obstinately
insisted that on the whole, he was not far wrong. Student or
professor, he accepted the negative standard because it was the
standard of the school.
He never knew what other students thought of it, or
what they thought they gained from it; nor would their opinion have
much affected his. From the first, he wanted to be done with it,
and stood watching vaguely for a path and a direction. The world
outside seemed large, but the paths that led into it were not many
and lay mostly through Boston, where he did not want to go. As it
happened, by pure chance, the first door of escape that seemed to
offer a hope led into Germany, and James Russell Lowell opened
it.
Lowell, on succeeding Longfellow as Professor of
Belles-Lettres, had duly gone to Germany, and had brought back
whatever he found to bring. The literary world then agreed that
truth survived in Germany alone, and Carlyle, Matthew Arnold,
Renan, Emerson, with scores of popular followers, taught the German
faith. The literary world had revolted against the yoke of coming
capitalism - its money-lenders, its bank directors, and its railway
magnates. Thackeray and Dickens followed Balzac in scratching and
biting the unfortunate middle class with savage ill-temper, much as
the middle class had scratched and bitten the Church and Court for
a hundred years before. The middle class had the power, and held
its coal and iron well in hand, but the satirists and idealists
seized the press, and as they were agreed that the Second Empire
was a disgrace to France and a danger to England, they turned to
Germany because at that moment Germany was neither economical nor
military, and a hundred years behind western Europe in the
simplicity of its standard. German thought, method, honesty, and
even taste, became the standards of scholarship. Goethe was raised
to the rank of Shakespeare - Kant ranked as a law-giver above
Plato. All serious scholars were obliged to become German, for
German thought was revolutionizing criticism. Lowell had followed
the rest, not very enthusiastically, but with sufficient
conviction, and invited his scholars to join him. Adams was glad to
accept the invitation, rather for the sake of cultivating Lowell
than Germany, but still in perfect good faith. It was the first
serious attempt he had made to direct his own education, and he was
sure of getting some education out of it; not perhaps anything that
he expected, but at least a path.
Singularly circuitous and excessively wasteful of
energy the path proved to be, but the student could never see what
other was open to him.
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