This
feeling is the proof of eternal life—once alive, alive for ever. To
live is to feel this yearning, huge expectancy.
Daddy had taught them this, though, of course, they knew it
instinctively already. And any moment now the door would open and his
figure, familiar, yet each time more wonderful, would cross the
threshold, close the door behind him, and … something desirable
would happen.
“I wish he’d hurry,” said Tim impatiently. “There won’t be any time
left.” And he glanced at the cruel clock that stopped all their
pleasure but never stopped itself. “The motor got here hours ago. He
can’t STILL be having tea.” Judy, her brown hair in disorder, her belt
sagging where it was of little actual use, sighed deeply. But there
was patience and understanding in her big, dark eyes. “He’s in with
Mother doing finances,” she said with resignation. “It’s Saturday.
Let’s sit down and wait.” Then, seeing that Maria already occupied the
big armchair, and sat staring comfortably into the fire, she did not
move. Maria was making a purring, grunting sound of great contentment;
she felt no anxiety of any kind apparently.
But Tim was less particular.
“Alright,” he said, squashing himself down beside Maria, whose
podgy form accommodated itself to the intrusion like a cat, “as long
as Aunt Emily doesn’t catch him on the way and begin explaining.”
“She’s in bed with a headache,” mentioned Judy. “She’s safe
enough.” For it was an established grievance against their mother’s
sister that she was always explaining things. She was a terrible
explainer. She couldn’t move without explaining. She explained
everything in the world. She was a good soul, they knew, but she had
to explain that she was a good soul. They rather dreaded her.
Explanations took time for one thing, and for another they took away
all wonder. In bed with a headache, she was safely accounted for,
explained.
“She thinks we miss her,” reflected Tim. He did not say it; it just
flashed through his mind, with a satisfaction that added vaguely to
his pleasurable anticipation of what was coming. And this satisfaction
increased his energy. “Shove over a bit,” he added aloud to Maria, and
though Maria did not move of her own volition, she was nevertheless
shoved over. The pair of them settled down into the depths of the
chair, but while Maria remained quite satisfied with her new position,
her brother fussed and fidgeted with impatience born of repressed
excitement. “Run out and knock at the door,” he proposed to Judy.
“He’ll never get away from Mother unless we let him KNOW we’re
waiting.”
Judy, kneeling on a chair and trying to make it sea-saw, pulled up
her belt, sprang down, then hesitated.
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