He ought perhaps to have
put a spoke in the wheel of their marriage; they were too young;
but after that experience of Jo's susceptibility he had been only
too anxious to see him married. And in four years the crash had
come! To have approved his son's conduct in that crash was, of
course, impossible; reason and training—that combination of potent
factors which stood for his principles—told him of this
impossibility, and his heart cried out. The grim remorselessness of
that business had no pity for hearts. There was June, the atom with
flaming hair, who had climbed all over him, twined and twisted
herself about him—about his heart that was made to be the plaything
and beloved resort of tiny, helpless things. With characteristic
insight he saw he must part with one or with the other; no
half-measures could serve in such a situation. In that lay its
tragedy. And the tiny, helpless thing prevailed. He would not run
with the hare and hunt with the hounds, and so to his son he said
good-bye.
That good-bye had lasted until now.
He had proposed to continue a reduced allowance to young Jolyon,
but this had been refused, and perhaps that refusal had hurt him
more than anything, for with it had gone the last outlet of his
penned-in affection; and there had come such tangible and solid
proof of rupture as only a transaction in property, a bestowal or
refusal of such, could supply.
His dinner tasted flat. His pint of champagne was dry and bitter
stuff, not like the Veuve Clicquots of old days.
Over his cup of coffee, he bethought him that he would go to the
opera. In the Times, therefore—he had a distrust of other papers—he
read the announcement for the evening. It was 'Fidelio.'
Mercifully not one of those new-fangled German pantomimes by
that fellow Wagner.
Putting on his ancient opera hat, which, with its brim flattened
by use, and huge capacity, looked like an emblem of greater days,
and, pulling out an old pair of very thin lavender kid gloves
smelling strongly of Russia leather, from habitual proximity to the
cigar-case in the pocket of his overcoat, he stepped into a
hansom.
The cab rattled gaily along the streets, and old Jolyon was
struck by their unwonted animation.
'The hotels must be doing a tremendous business,' he thought. A
few years ago there had been none of these big hotels. He made a
satisfactory reflection on some property he had in the
neighbourhood. It must be going up in value by leaps and bounds!
What traffic!
But from that he began indulging in one of those strange
impersonal speculations, so uncharacteristic of a Forsyte, wherein
lay, in part, the secret of his supremacy amongst them. What atoms
men were, and what a lot of them! And what would become of them
all?
He stumbled as he got out of the cab, gave the man his exact
fare, walked up to the ticket office to take his stall, and stood
there with his purse in his hand—he always carried his money in a
purse, never having approved of that habit of carrying it loosely
in the pockets, as so many young men did nowadays. The official
leaned out, like an old dog from a kennel.
"Why," he said in a surprised voice, "it's Mr. Jolyon Forsyte!
So it is! Haven't seen you, sir, for years. Dear me! Times aren't
what they were. Why! you and your brother, and that auctioneer—Mr.
Traquair, and Mr. Nicholas Treffry—you used to have six or seven
stalls here regular every season. And how are you, sir? We don't
get younger!"
The colour in old Jolyon's eyes deepened; he paid his guinea.
They had not forgotten him. He marched in, to the sounds of the
overture, like an old war-horse to battle.
Folding his opera hat, he sat down, drew out his lavender gloves
in the old way, and took up his glasses for a long look round the
house. Dropping them at last on his folded hat, he fixed his eyes
on the curtain. More poignantly than ever he felt that it was all
over and done with him. Where were all the women, the pretty women,
the house used to be so full of? Where was that old feeling in the
heart as he waited for one of those great singers? Where that
sensation of the intoxication of life and of his own power to enjoy
it all?
The greatest opera-goer of his day! There was no opera now! That
fellow Wagner had ruined everything; no melody left, nor any voices
to sing it. Ah! the wonderful singers! Gone! He sat watching the
old scenes acted, a numb feeling at his heart.
From the curl of silver over his ear to the pose of his foot in
its elastic-sided patent boot, there was nothing clumsy or weak
about old Jolyon. He was as upright—very nearly—as in those old
times when he came every night; his sight was as good—almost as
good. But what a feeling of weariness and disillusion!
He had been in the habit all his life of enjoying things, even
imperfect things—and there had been many imperfect things—he had
enjoyed them all with moderation, so as to keep himself young. But
now he was deserted by his power of enjoyment, by his philosophy,
and left with this dreadful feeling that it was all done with. Not
even the Prisoners' Chorus, nor Florian's Song, had the power to
dispel the gloom of his loneliness.
If Jo were only with him! The boy must be forty by now.
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