It's not
hopelessly shut—is it? Why don't I find it and be off? Answer me
that, little sister." But he gave her no time to answer.
"I'm exactly like that insect again. For some reason"—Jonathan
paused between the words—"it's not allowed, it's forbidden, it's
against the insect law, to stop banging and flopping and crawling
up the pane even for an instant. Why don't I leave the office? Why
don't I seriously consider, this moment, for instance, what it is
that prevents me leaving? It's not as though I'm tremendously tied.
I've two boys to provide for, but, after all, they're boys. I could
cut off to sea, or get a job up-country, or—" Suddenly he smiled at
Linda and said in a changed voice, as if he were confiding a
secret, "Weak... weak. No stamina. No anchor. No guiding principle,
let us call it." But then the dark velvety voice rolled out:
"Would ye hear the story
How it unfolds itself... "
and they were silent.
The sun had set. In the western sky there were great masses of
crushed-up rose-coloured clouds. Broad beams of light shone through
the clouds and beyond them as if they would cover the whole sky.
Overhead the blue faded; it turned a pale gold, and the bush
outlined against it gleamed dark and brilliant like metal.
Sometimes when those beams of light show in the sky they are very
awful. They remind you that up there sits Jehovah, the jealous God,
the Almighty, Whose eye is upon you, ever watchful, never weary.
You remember that at His coming the whole earth will shake into one
ruined graveyard; the cold, bright angels will drive you this way
and that, and there will be no time to explain what could be
explained so simply... But to-night it seemed to Linda there was
something infinitely joyful and loving in those silver beams. And
now no sound came from the sea. It breathed softly as if it would
draw that tender, joyful beauty into its own bosom.
"It's all wrong, it's all wrong," came the shadowy voice of
Jonathan. "It's not the scene, it's not the setting for... three
stools, three desks, three inkpots and a wire blind."
Linda knew that he would never change, but she said, "Is it too
late, even now?"
"I'm old—I'm old," intoned Jonathan. He bent towards her, he
passed his hand over his head. "Look!" His black hair was speckled
all over with silver, like the breast plumage of a black fowl.
Linda was surprised. She had no idea that he was grey. And yet,
as he stood up beside her and sighed and stretched, she saw him,
for the first time, not resolute, not gallant, not careless, but
touched already with age. He looked very tall on the darkening
grass, and the thought crossed her mind, "He is like a weed."
Jonathan stooped again and kissed her fingers.
"Heaven reward thy sweet patience, lady mine," he murmured. "I
must go seek those heirs to my fame and fortune... " He was
gone.
Chapter 1.XI.
Light shone in the windows of the bungalow. Two square patches
of gold fell upon the pinks and the peaked marigolds. Florrie, the
cat, came out on to the veranda, and sat on the top step, her white
paws close together, her tail curled round. She looked content, as
though she had been waiting for this moment all day.
"Thank goodness, it's getting late," said Florrie. "Thank
goodness, the long day is over." Her greengage eyes opened.
Presently there sounded the rumble of the coach, the crack of
Kelly's whip. It came near enough for one to hear the voices of the
men from town, talking loudly together. It stopped at the Burnells'
gate.
Stanley was half-way up the path before he saw Linda.
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