Belmaine.
‘And why shouldn’t we?’ continued Ethelberta, with interest.
‘To Westminster Abbey?’ said Mr. Belmaine, a common man of
thirty, younger than his wife, who had lately come into the
room.
‘No; to where he lies comparatively alone—Cripplegate
Church.’
‘I always thought that Milton was buried in Poet’s Corner,’ said
Mr. Belmaine.
‘So did I,’ said Neigh; ‘but I have such an indifferent head for
places that my thinking goes for nothing.’
‘Well, it would be a pretty thing to do,’ said Mrs. Belmaine,
‘and instructive to all of us. If Mrs. Petherwin would like
to go, I should. We can take you in the carriage and call
round for Mrs. Doncastle on our way, and set you both down again
coming back.’
‘That would be excellent,’ said Ethelberta. ‘There is
nowhere I like going to so much as the depths of the city.
The absurd narrowness of world-renowned streets is so surprising—so
crooked and shady as they are too, and full of the quaint smells of
old cupboards and cellars. Walking through one of them
reminds me of being at the bottom of some crevasse or gorge, the
proper surface of the globe being the tops of the houses.’
‘You will come to take care of us, John? And you, Mr.
Neigh, would like to come? We will tell Mr. Ladywell that he
may join us if he cares to,’ said Mrs. Belmaine.
‘O yes,’ said her husband quietly; and Neigh said he should like
nothing better, after a faint aspect of apprehension at the
remoteness of the idea from the daily track of his thoughts.
Mr. Belmaine observing this, and mistaking it for an indication
that Neigh had been dragged into the party against his will by his
over-hasty wife, arranged that Neigh should go independently and
meet them there at the hour named if he chose to do so, to give him
an opportunity of staying away. Ethelberta also was by this
time doubting if she had not been too eager with her
proposal. To go on such a sentimental errand might be thought
by her friends to be simply troublesome, their adherence having
been given only in the regular course of complaisance. She
was still comparatively an outsider here, her life with Lady
Petherwin having been passed chiefly in alternations between
English watering-places and continental towns. However, it
was too late now to muse on this, and it may be added that from
first to last Ethelberta never discovered from the Belmaines
whether her proposal had been an infliction or a charm, so
perfectly were they practised in sustaining that complete divorce
between thinking and saying which is the hall-mark of high
civilization.
But, however she might doubt the Belmaines, she had no doubt as
to Neigh’s true sentiments: the time had come when he,
notwithstanding his air of being oppressed by almost every lively
invention of town and country for charming griefs to rest, would
not be at all oppressed by a quiet visit to the purlieus of St
Giles’s, Cripplegate, since she was the originator, and was going
herself.
It was a bright hope-inspiring afternoon in this mid-May time
when the carriage containing Mr. and Mrs. Belmaine, Mrs. Doncastle,
and Ethelberta, crept along the encumbered streets towards
Barbican; till turning out of that thoroughfare into Redcross
Street they beheld the bold shape of the old tower they sought,
clothed in every neutral shade, standing clear against the sky,
dusky and grim in its upper stage, and hoary grey below, where
every corner of every stone was completely rounded off by the waves
of wind and storm.
All people were busy here: our visitors seemed to be the only
idle persons the city contained; and there was no dissonance—there
never is—between antiquity and such beehive industry; for pure
industry, in failing to observe its own existence and aspect,
partakes of the unobtrusive nature of material things. This
intra-mural stir was a flywheel transparent by excessive motion,
through which Milton and his day could be seen as if nothing
intervened. Had there been ostensibly harmonious accessories,
a crowd of observing people in search of the poetical, conscious of
the place and the scene, what a discord would have arisen
there! But everybody passed by Milton’s grave except
Ethelberta and her friends, and for the moment the city’s less
invidious conduct appeared to her more respectful as a practice
than her own.
But she was brought out of this rumination by the halt at the
church door, and completely reminded of the present by finding the
church open, and Neigh—the, till yesterday, unimpassioned
Neigh—waiting in the vestibule to receive them, just as if he lived
there. Ladywell had not arrived. It was a long time
before Ethelberta could get back to Milton again, for Neigh was
continuing to impend over her future more and more visibly.
The objects along the journey had distracted her mind from him; but
the moment now was as a direct renewal and prolongation of the
declaration-time yesterday, and as if in furtherance of the
conclusion of the episode.
They all alighted and went in, the coachman being told to take
the carriage to a quiet nook further on, and return in
half-an-hour. Mrs. Belmaine and her carriage some years
before had accidentally got jammed crosswise in Cheapside through
the clumsiness of the man in turning up a side street, blocking
that great artery of the civilized world for the space of a minute
and a half, when they were pounced upon by half-a-dozen policemen
and forced to back ignominiously up a little slit between the
houses where they did not mean to go, amid the shouts of the
hindered drivers; and it was her nervous recollection of that event
which caused Mrs. Belmaine to be so precise in her directions
now.
By the time that they were grouped around the tomb the visit had
assumed a much more solemn complexion than any one among them had
anticipated. Ashamed of the influence that she discovered
Neigh to be exercising over her, and opposing it steadily,
Ethelberta drew from her pocket a small edition of Milton, and
proposed that she should read a few lines from ‘Paradise
Lost.’ The responsibility of producing a successful afternoon
was upon her shoulders; she was, moreover, the only one present who
could properly manage blank verse, and this was sufficient to
justify the proposal.
She stood with her head against the marble slab just below the
bust, and began a selected piece, Neigh standing a few yards off on
her right looking into his hat in order to listen accurately, Mr.
and Mrs. Belmaine and Mrs. Doncastle seating themselves in a pew
directly facing the monument. The ripe warm colours of
afternoon came in upon them from the west, upon the sallow piers
and arches, and the infinitely deep brown pews beneath, the aisle
over Ethelberta’s head being in misty shade through which glowed a
lurid light from a dark-stained window behind. The sentences
fell from her lips in a rhythmical cadence one by one, and she
could be fancied a priestess of him before whose image she stood,
when with a vivid suggestiveness she delivered here, not many yards
from the central money-mill of the world, yet out from the very
tomb of their author, the passage containing the words:
‘Mammon led them on;
Mammon, the least erected spirit that fell
From heaven.’
When she finished reading Ethelberta left the monument, and then
each one present strayed independently about the building,
Ethelberta turning to the left along the passage to the south
door. Neigh—from whose usually apathetic face and eyes there
had proceeded a secret smouldering light as he listened and
regarded her—followed in the same direction and vanished at her
heels into the churchyard, whither she had now gone. Mr. and
Mrs. Belmaine exchanged glances, and instead of following the pair
they went with Mrs. Doncastle into the vestry to inquire of the
person in charge for the register of the marriage of Oliver
Cromwell, which was solemnized here. The church was now quite
empty, and its stillness was as a vacuum into which an occasional
noise from the street overflowed and became rarefied away to
nothing.
Something like five minutes had passed when a hansom stopped
outside the door, and Ladywell entered the porch. He stood
still, and, looking inquiringly round for a minute or two, sat down
in one of the high pews, as if under the impression that the others
had not yet arrived.
While he sat here Neigh reappeared at the south door opposite,
and came slowly in. Ladywell, in rising to go to him, saw
that Neigh’s attention was engrossed by something he held in his
hand. It was his pocket-book, and Neigh was looking at a few
loose flower-petals which had been placed between the pages.
When Ladywell came forward Neigh looked up, started, and closed the
book quickly, so that some of the petals fluttered to the ground
between the two men. They were striped, red and white, and
appeared to be leaves of the Harlequin rose.
‘Ah! here you are, Ladywell,’ he said, recovering himself.
‘We had given you up: my aunt said that you would not care to
come. They are all in the vestry.’ How it came to pass
that Neigh designated those in the vestry as ‘all,’ when there was
one in the churchyard, was a thing that he himself could hardly
have explained, so much more had it to do with instinct than with
calculation.
‘Never mind them—don’t interrupt them,’ said Ladywell.
‘The plain truth is that I have been very greatly disturbed in
mind; and I could not appear earlier by reason of it. I had
some doubt about coming at all.’
‘I am sorry to hear that.’
‘Neigh—I may as well tell you and have done with it. I
have found that a lady of my acquaintance has two strings to her
bow, or I am very much in error.’
‘What—Mrs. Petherwin?’ said Neigh uneasily. ‘But I thought
that—that fancy was over with you long ago. Even your
acquaintance with her was at an end, I thought.’
‘In a measure it is at an end. But let me tell you that
what you call a fancy has been anything but a fancy with me, to be
over like a spring shower. To speak plainly, Neigh, I
consider myself badly used by that woman; damn badly used.’
‘Badly used?’ said Neigh mechanically, and wondering all the
time if Ladywell had been informed that Ethelberta was to be one of
the party to-day.
‘Well, I ought not to talk like that,’ said Ladywell, adopting a
lighter tone. ‘All is fair in courtship, I suppose, now as
ever. Indeed, I mean to put a good face upon it: if I am
beaten, I am. But it is very provoking, after supposing
matters to be going on smoothly, to find out that you are quite
mistaken.’
‘I told you you were quite mistaken in supposing she cared for
you.’
‘That is just the point I was not mistaken in,’ said Ladywell
warmly. ‘She did care for me, and I stood as well with her as
any man could stand until this fellow came, whoever he is. I
sometimes feel so disturbed about it that I have a good mind to
call upon her and ask his name. Wouldn’t you, Neigh?
Will you accompany me?’
‘I would in a moment, but, but— I strongly advise you not to
go,’ said Neigh earnestly. ‘It would be rash, you know, and
rather unmannerly; and would only hurt your feelings.’
‘Well, I am always ready to yield to a friend’s arguments. . .
. A sneaking scamp, that’s what he is. Why does he not
show himself?’
‘Don’t you really know who he is?’ said Neigh, in a pronounced
and exceptional tone, on purpose to give Ladywell a chance of
suspecting, for the position was getting awkward. But
Ladywell was blind as Bartimeus in that direction, so well had
indifference to Ethelberta’s charms been feigned by Neigh until he
thought seriously of marrying her. Yet, unfortunately for the
interests of calmness, Ladywell was less blind with his outward
eye. In his reflections his glance had lingered again upon
the pocket-book which Neigh still held in his hand, and upon the
two or three rose-leaves on the floor, until he said idly,
superimposing humorousness upon misery, as men in love can:
‘Rose-leaves, Neigh? I thought you did not care for
flowers. What makes you amuse yourself with such sentimental
objects as those, only fit for women, or painters like me? If
I had not observed you with my own eyes I should have said that you
were about the last man in the world to care for things of that
sort. Whatever makes you keep rose-leaves in your
pocket-book?’
‘The best reason on earth,’ said Neigh. ‘A woman gave them
to me.’
‘That proves nothing unless she is a great deal to you,’ said
Ladywell, with the experienced air of a man who, whatever his
inferiority in years to Neigh, was far beyond him in knowledge of
that sort, by virtue of his recent trials.
‘She is a great deal to me.’
‘If I did not know you to be such a confirmed misogynist I
should say that this is a serious matter.’
‘It is serious,’ said Neigh quietly. ‘The probability is
that I shall marry the woman who gave me these. Anyhow I have
asked her the question, and she has not altogether said no.’
‘I am glad to hear it, Neigh,’ said Ladywell heartily. ‘I
am glad to hear that your star is higher than mine.’
Before Neigh could make further reply Ladywell was attracted by
the glow of green sunlight reflected through the south door by the
grass of the churchyard, now in all its spring freshness and
luxuriance. He bent his steps thither, followed anxiously by
Neigh.
‘I had no idea there was such a lovely green spot in the city,’
Ladywell continued, passing out. ‘Trees too, planted in the
manner of an orchard. What a charming place!’
The place was truly charming just at that date. The
untainted leaves of the lime and plane trees and the newly-sprung
grass had in the sun a brilliancy of beauty that was brought into
extraordinary prominence by the sable soil showing here and there,
and the charcoaled stems and trunks out of which the leaves budded:
they seemed an importation, not a produce, and their delicacy such
as would perish in a day.
‘What is this round tower?’ Ladywell said again, walking towards
the iron-grey bastion, partly covered with ivy and Virginia
creeper, which stood obtruding into the enclosure.
‘O, didn’t you know that was here? That’s a piece of the
old city wall,’ said Neigh, looking furtively around at the same
time. Behind the bastion the churchyard ran into a long
narrow strip, grassed like the other part, but completely hidden
from it by the cylinder of ragged masonry. On rounding this
projection, Ladywell beheld within a few feet of him a lady whom he
knew too well.
‘Mrs. Petherwin here!’ exclaimed he, proving how ignorant he had
been of the composition of the party he was to meet, and accounting
at the same time for his laxity in attending it.
‘I forgot to tell you,’ said Neigh awkwardly, behind him, ‘that
Mrs. Petherwin was to come with us.’
Ethelberta’s look was somewhat blushful and agitated, as if from
some late transaction: she appeared to have been secluding herself
there till she should have recovered her equanimity. However,
she came up to him and said, ‘I did not see you before this moment:
we had been thinking you would not come.’
While these words were being prettily spoken, Ladywell’s face
became pale as death. On Ethelberta’s bosom were the stem and
green calyx of a rose, almost all its flower having
disappeared. It had been a Harlequin rose, for two or three
of its striped leaves remained to tell the tale.
She could not help noticing his fixed gaze, and she said
quickly, ‘Yes, I have lost my pretty rose: this may as well go
now,’ and she plucked the stem from its fastening in her dress and
flung it away.
Poor Ladywell turned round to meet Mr. and Mrs. Belmaine, whose
voices were beginning to be heard just within the church door,
leaving Neigh and Ethelberta together. It was a graceful act
of young Ladywell’s that, in the midst of his own pain at the
strange tale the rose-leaves suggested—Neigh’s rivalry,
Ethelberta’s mutability, his own defeat—he was not regardless of
the intense embarrassment which might have been caused had he
remained.
The two were silent at first, and it was evident that
Ethelberta’s mood was one of anger at something that had gone
before. She turned aside from him to follow the others, when
Neigh spoke in a tone somewhat bitter and somewhat stern.
‘What—going like that! After being compromised together,
why don’t you close with me? Ladywell knows all: I had
already told him that the rose-leaves were given me by my intended
wife. We seem to him to be practising deceptions all of a
piece, and what folly it is to play off so! As to what I did,
that I ask your forgiveness for.’
Ethelberta looked upon the ground and maintained a compressed
lip. Neigh resumed: ‘If I showed more feeling than you care
for, I insist that it was not more than was natural under the
circumstances, if not quite proper. Opinions may differ, but
my experience goes to prove that conventional squeamishness at such
times as these is more talked and written about than
practised. Plain behaviour must be expected when marriage is
the question. Nevertheless, I do say—and I cannot say
more—that I am sincerely sorry to have offended you by exceeding my
privileges. I will never do so again.’
‘Don’t say privileges. You have none.’
‘I am sorry that I thought otherwise, and that others will think
so too. Ladywell is, at any rate, bent on thinking so. . .
. It might have been made known to him in a gentle way—but
God disposes.’
‘There is nothing to make known—I don’t understand,’ said
Ethelberta, going from him.
By this time Ladywell had walked round the gravel walks with the
two other ladies and Mr. Belmaine, and they were all turning to
come back again. The young painter had deputed his voice to
reply to their remarks, but his understanding continued poring upon
other things. When he came up to Ethelberta, his agitation
had left him: she too was free from constraint; while Neigh was
some distance off, carefully examining nothing in particular in an
old fragment of wall.
The little party was now united again as to its persons; though
in spirit far otherwise. They went through the church in
general talk, Ladywell sad but serene, and Ethelberta keeping
far-removed both from him and from Neigh. She had at this
juncture entered upon that Sphinx-like stage of existence in which,
contrary to her earlier manner, she signified to no one of her
ways, plans, or sensations, and spoke little on any subject at
all. There were occasional smiles now which came only from
the face, and speeches from the lips merely.
The journey home was performed as they had come, Ladywell not
accepting the seat in Neigh’s cab which was phlegmatically offered
him. Mrs. Doncastle’s acquaintance with Ethelberta had been
slight until this day; but the afternoon’s proceeding had much
impressed the matron with her younger friend. Before they
parted she said, with the sort of affability which is meant to
signify the beginning of permanent friendship: ‘A friend of my
husband’s, Lord Mountclere, has been anxious for some time to meet
you. He is a great admirer of the poems, and more still of
the story-telling invention, and your power in it. He has
been present many times at the Mayfair Hall to hear you. When
will you dine with us to meet him? I know you will like
him. Will Thursday be convenient?’
Ethelberta stood for a moment reflecting, and reflecting hoped
that Mrs.
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