"I was first in my
form last term."
"Fancy!
To think of that! D'you hear, father, what a scholar
Master
Lucian be getting?"
"He
be a rare grammarian, I'm sure," said the farmer.
"You do take after your father, sir; I always do say that nobody have got
such a good deliverance in the pulpit."
Lucian
did not find the Blenheim Orange as good as the cider, but he ate it with all
the appearance of relish, and put another, with thanks, in his pocket. He
thanked the farmer again when he got up to go; and Annie curtsied and smiled,
and wished him good-day, and welcome, kindly.
Lucian
heard her saying to her father as he went out what a nice-mannered young
gentleman he was getting, to be sure; and he went on his way, thinking that
Annie was really very pretty, and speculating as to whether he would have the
courage to kiss her, if they met in a dark lane. He was quite sure she would
only laugh, and say, "Oh, Master Lucian!"
For
many months he had occasional fits of recollection, both cold and hot; but the
bridge of time, gradually lengthening, made those dreadful and delicious images
grow more and more indistinct, till at last they all passed into that
wonderland which a youth looks back upon in amazement, not knowing why this
used to be a symbol of terror or that of joy. At the end of each term he would
come home and find his father a little more despondent,
and harder to cheer even for a moment; and the wall paper and the furniture
grew more and more dingy and shabby. The two cats, loved and ancient beasts,
that he remembered when he was quite a little boy, before he went to school,
died miserably, one after the other. Old Polly, the pony, at last fell down in
the stable from the weakness of old age, and had to be killed there; the
battered old trap ran no longer along the well-remembered lanes. There was long
meadow grass on the lawn, and the trained fruit trees on the wall had got quite
out of hand. At last, when Lucian was seventeen, his father was obliged to take
him from school; he could no longer afford the fees. This was the sorry ending
of many hopes, and dreams of a double-first, a fellowship, distinction and
glory that the poor parson had long entertained for his son, and the two moped
together, in the shabby room, one on each side of the sulky fire, thinking of
dead days and finished plans, and seeing a grey future in the years that
advanced towards them. At one time there seemed some chance of a distant
relative coming forward to Lucian's assistance; and indeed it was quite settled
that he should go up to London with certain definite aims. Mr. Taylor told the
good news to his acquaintances—his coat was too green now for any pretence of
friendship; and Lucian himself spoke of his plans to Burrows the doctor and Mr.
Dixon, and one or two others. Then the whole scheme fell through, and the
parson and his son suffered much sympathy. People, of course, had to say they
were sorry, but in reality the news was received with high spirits, with the
joy with which one sees a stone, as it rolls down a steep place, give yet
another bounding leap towards the pool beneath. Mrs. Dixon heard the pleasant
tidings from Mrs. Colley, who came in to talk about the Mothers' Meeting and
the Band of Hope. Mrs. Dixon was nursing little Athelwig,
or some such name, at the time, and made many affecting observations on the
general righteousness with which the world was governed. Indeed, poor Lucian's
disappointment seemed distinctly to increase her faith in the Divine Order, as
if it had been some example in Butler's Analogy.
"Aren't
Mr. Taylor's views very extreme?"
she said to her husband the same evening.
"I
am afraid they are," he replied. "I was quite grieved at the last Diocesan Conference at the way in which he
spoke. The dear old bishop had given an address on Auricular Confession; he was
forced to do so, you know, after what
had happened, and I must say that I never felt prouder of our beloved
Church."
Mr.
Dixon told all the Homeric story of the conference, reciting the achievements
of the champions, "deploring" this and applauding that. It seemed
that Mr. Taylor had had the audacity to quote authorities which the bishop
could not very well repudiate, though they were directly opposed to the
"safe" Episcopal pronouncement.
Mrs.
Dixon of course was grieved; it was "sad" to think of a clergyman
behaving so shamefully.
"But
you know, dear," she proceeded, "I have been thinking about that
unfortunate Taylor boy and his disappointments, and after what
you've just told me, I am sure it's some kind of judgment on them both. Has Mr.
Taylor forgotten the vows he took at his ordination? But don't you think, dear,
I am right, and that he has been punished: 'The sins of the fathers'?"
Somehow
or other Lucian divined the atmosphere of threatenings
and judgments, and shrank more and more from the small society of the
countryside. For his part, when he was not "mooning" in the beloved
fields and woods of happy memory, he shut himself up with books, reading
whatever could be found on the shelves, and amassing a store of incongruous and
obsolete knowledge. Long did he linger with the men of the seventeenth century;
delaying the gay sunlit streets with Pepys, and
listening to the charmed sound of the Restoration Revel; roaming by peaceful
streams with Izaak Walton, and the great Catholic
divines; enchanted with the portrait of Herbert the loving ascetic; awed by the
mystic breath of Crashaw. Then the cavalier poets
sang their gallant songs; and Herrick made Dean Prior magic ground by the holy
incantation of a verse. And in the old proverbs and homely sayings of the time
he found the good and beautiful English life, a time full of grace and dignity
and rich merriment.
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