But if you can treat them as you treated Jenkins
—get them in their studies, surrounded by what in their case stands for
the broken lay figures and the faded serge curtains—it will be exactly the
thing. It will be a new line, or rather—what is a great deal better,
mind you—an old line treated in a slightly, very slightly different
way. That's what the public wants."
"Ah, yes," I said, "that's what the public wants. But all the same, it's
been done time out of mind before. Why, I've seen photographs of you and
your arm-chair and your pen-wiper and so on, half a score of times in the
sixpenny magazines."
Callan again indicated bland superiority with a wave of his hand.
"You undervalue yourself," he said.
I murmured—"Thanks."
"This is to be—not a mere pandering to curiosity—but an attempt to get
at the inside of things—to get the atmosphere, so to speak; not merely
to catalogue furniture."
He was quoting from the prospectus of the new paper, and then cleared
his throat for the utterance of a tremendous truth.
"Photography—is not—Art," he remarked.
The fantastic side of our colloquy began to strike me.
"After all," I thought to myself, "why shouldn't that girl have played
at being a denizen of another sphere? She did it ever so much better
than Callan. She did it too well, I suppose."
"The price is very decent," Callan chimed in. "I don't know how much per
thousand, …but…."
I found myself reckoning, against my will as it were.
"You'll do it, I suppose?" he said.
I thought of my debts … "Why, yes, I suppose so," I answered. "But who
are the others that I am to provide with atmospheres?"
Callan shrugged his shoulders.
"Oh, all sorts of prominent people—soldiers, statesmen, Mr. Churchill,
the Foreign Minister, artists, preachers—all sorts of people."
"All sorts of glory," occurred to me.
"The paper will stand expenses up to a reasonable figure," Callan
reassured me.
"It'll be a good joke for a time," I said. "I'm infinitely obliged to
you."
He warded off my thanks with both hands.
"I'll just send a wire to Fox to say that you accept," he said, rising.
He seated himself at his desk in the appropriate attitude. He had an
appropriate attitude for every vicissitude of his life. These he had
struck before so many people that even in the small hours of the morning
he was ready for the kodak wielder. Beside him he had every form of
labour-saver; every kind of literary knick-knack. There were
book-holders that swung into positions suitable to appropriate
attitudes; there were piles of little green boxes with red capital
letters of the alphabet upon them, and big red boxes with black small
letters. There was a writing-lamp that cast an æsthetic glow upon
another appropriate attitude—and there was one typewriter with
note-paper upon it, and another with MS. paper already in position.
"My God!" I thought—"to these heights the Muse soars."
As I looked at the gleaming pillars of the typewriters, the image of my
own desk appeared to me; chipped, ink-stained, gloriously dusty. I
thought that when again I lit my battered old tin lamp I should see
ashes and match-ends; a tobacco-jar, an old gnawed penny penholder, bits
of pink blotting-paper, match-boxes, old letters, and dust everywhere.
And I knew that my attitude—when I sat at it—would be inappropriate.
Callan was ticking off the telegram upon his machine. "It will go in the
morning at eight," he said.
CHAPTER THREE
To encourage me, I suppose, Callan gave me the proof-sheets of his next
to read in bed. The thing was so bad that it nearly sickened me of him
and his jobs. I tried to read the stuff; to read it conscientiously, to
read myself to sleep with it. I was under obligations to old Cal and I
wanted to do him justice, but the thing was impossible. I fathomed a
sort of a plot. It dealt in fratricide with a touch of adultery; a Great
Moral Purpose loomed in the background. It would have been a dully
readable novel but for that; as it was, it was intolerable. It was
amazing that Cal himself could put out such stuff; that he should have
the impudence. He was not a fool, not by any means a fool. It revolted
me more than a little.
I came to it out of a different plane of thought. I may not have been
able to write then—or I may; but I did know enough to recognise the
flagrantly, the indecently bad, and, upon my soul, the idea that I, too,
must cynically offer this sort of stuff if I was ever to sell my tens
of thousands very nearly sent me back to my solitude. Callan had begun
very much as I was beginning now; he had even, I believe, had ideals in
his youth and had starved a little. It was rather trying to think that
perhaps I was really no more than another Callan, that, when at last I
came to review my life, I should have much such a record to look back
upon.
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