You
pass instantly from town to country; there is no transition as in a
small country town, no soft gradations of wider lawns and orchards,
with houses gradually becoming less dense, but a dead stop. I believe
the people who live there mostly go into the City. I have seen once
or twice a laden bus bound thitherwards. But however that may be, I
can’t conceive a greater loneliness in a desert at midnight than
there is there at midday. It is like a city of the dead; the streets
are glaring and desolate, and as you pass it suddenly strikes you
that this too is part of London. Well, a year or two ago there was a
doctor living there; he had set up his brass plate and his red lamp
at the very end of one of those shining streets, and from the back of
the house, the fields stretched away to the north. I don’t know what
his reason was in settling down in such an out-of-the-way place,
perhaps Dr. Black, as we call him, was a far-seeing man and looked
ahead. His relations, so it appeared afterwards, had lost sight of
him for many years and didn’t even know he was a doctor, much less
where he lived. However, there he was settled in Harlesden, with some
fragments of a practice, and an uncommonly pretty wife. People used
to see them walking out together in the summer evenings soon after
they came to Harlesden, and, so far as could be observed, they seemed
a very affectionate couple. These walks went on through the autumn,
and then ceased, but, of course, as the days grew dark and the
weather cold, the lanes near Harlesden might be expected to lose many
of their attractions. All through the winter nobody saw anything of
Mrs.
Black, the doctor used to reply to his patients’ inquiries that
she was a ‘little out of sorts, would be better, no doubt, in the
spring.’ But the spring came, and the summer, and no Mrs. Black
appeared, and at last people began to rumour and talk amongst
themselves, and all sorts of queer things were said at ‘high teas,’
which you may possibly have heard are the only form of entertainment
known in such suburbs. Dr. Black began to surprise some very odd
looks cast in his direction, and the practice, such as it was, fell
off before his eyes. In short, when the neighbours whispered about
the matter, they whispered that Mrs. Black was dead, and that the
doctor had made away with her. But this wasn’t the case; Mrs. Black
was seen alive in June. It was a Sunday afternoon, one of those few
exquisite days that an English climate offers, and half London had
strayed out into the fields, north, south, east, and west to smell
the scent of the white May, and to see if the wild roses were yet in
blossom in the hedges. I had gone out myself early in the morning,
and had had a long ramble, and somehow or other as I was steering
homeward I found myself in this very Harlesden we have been talking
about. To be exact, I had a glass of beer in the General Gordon, the
most flourishing house in the neighbourhood, and as I was wandering
rather aimlessly about, I saw an uncommonly tempting gap in a
hedgerow, and resolved to explore the meadow beyond. Soft grass is
very grateful to the feet after the infernal grit strewn on suburban
sidewalks, and after walking about for some time I thought I should
like to sit down on a bank and have a smoke. While I was getting out
my pouch, I looked up in the direction of the houses, and as I looked
I felt my breath caught back, and my teeth began to chatter, and the
stick I had in one hand snapped in two with the grip I gave it. It
was as if I had had an electric current down my spine, and yet for
some moment of time which seemed long, but which must have been very
short, I caught myself wondering what on earth was the matter. Then I
knew I what had made my very heart shudder and my bones grind
together in an agony. As I glanced up I had looked straight towards
the last house in the row before me, and in an upper.window of that
house I had seen for some short fraction of a second a face. It was
the face of a woman, and yet it was not human. You and I, Salisbury,
have heard in our time, as we sat in our seats in church in sober
English fashion, of a lust that cannot be satiated and of a fire that
is unquenchable, but few of us have any notion what these words mean.
I hope you never may, for as I saw that face at the window, with the
blue sky above me and the warm air playing in gusts about me, I knew
I had looked into another world—looked through the window of a
commonplace, brand-new house, and seen hell open before me.
1 comment