He
thanked me for bringing him his hat, saying, ‘I don’t think I should
ever have got it, I can’t run much now. A gusty day, sir, isn’t
it?’
and with this he was turning way, but by little and little I
contrived to draw him into the current of conversation, and we walked
together eastward. I think the man would have been glad to get rid of
me; but I didn’t intend to let him go, and he stopped at last in
front of a miserable house in a miserable street. It was, I verily
believe, one of the most wretched quarters I have ever seen:
houses that must have been sordid and hideous enough when new,
that had gathered foulness with every year, and now seemed to lean
and totter to their fall. ‘I live up there,’ said Black, pointing to
the tiles, ‘not in the front—in the back. I am very quiet
there. I won’t ask you to come in now, but perhaps some other
day—’ I caught him up at that, and told him I should be only
too.glad to come and see him. He gave me an odd sort of glance, as if
he were wondering what on earth I or anybody else could care about
him, and I left him fumbling with his latchkey. I think you will say
I did pretty well when I tell you that within a few weeks I had made
myself an intimate friend of Black’s. I shall never forget the first
time I went to his room; I hope I shall never see such abject,
squalid misery again. The foul paper, from which all pattern or trace
of a pattern had long vanished, subdued and penetrated with the grime
of the evil street, was hanging in mouldering pennons from the wall.
Only at the end of the room was it possible to stand upright, and the
sight of the wretched bed and the odour of corruption that pervaded
the place made me turn faint and sick. Here I found him munching a
piece of bread; he seemed surprised to find that I had kept my
promise, but he gave me his chair and sat on the bed while we talked.
I used to go to see him often, and we had long conversations
together, but he never mentioned Harlesden or his wife. I fancy that
he supposed me ignorant of the matter, or thought that if I had heard
of it, I should never connect the respectable Dr. Black of Harlesden
with a poor garreteer in the backwoods of London. He was a strange
man, and as we sat together smoking, I often wondered whether he were
made or sane, for I think the wildest dreams of Paracelsus and the
Rosicrucians would appear plain and sober fact compared with the
theories I have heard him earnestly advance in that grimy den of his.
I once ventured to hint something of the sort to him. I suggested
that something he had said was in flat contradiction to all science
and all experience.
‘No,’ he answered, ‘not all experience, for mine counts for
something. I am no dealer in unproved theories; what I say I have
proved for myself, and at a terrible cost. There is a region of
knowledge which you will never know, which wise men seeing from afar
off shun like the plague, as well they may, but into that region I
have gone. If you knew, if you could even dream of what may be done,
of what one or two men have done in this quiet world of ours, your
very soul would shudder and faint within you. What you have heard
from me has been but the merest husk and outer covering of true
science—that science which means death, and that which is more
awful than death, to those who gain it. No, when men say that there
are strange things in the world, they little know the awe and the
terror that dwell always with them and about them.’
There was a sort of fascination about the man that drew me to him,
and I was quite sorry to have to leave London for a month or two; I
missed his odd talk. A few days after I came back to town I thought I
would look him up, but when I gave the two rings at the bell that
used to summon him, there was no answer. I rang and rang again, and
was just turning to go away, when the door opened and a dirty woman
asked me what I wanted. From her look I fancy she took me for a
plain-clothes officer after one of her lodgers, but when I inquired
if Mr. Black were in, she gave me a stare of another kind. ‘There’s
no Mr. Black lives here,’ she said. ‘He’s gone. He’s dead this six
weeks.’ I always thought he was a bit queer in his head, or else had
been and got into some trouble or other. He used to go out every
morning from ten till one, and one Monday morning we heard him come
in, and go into his room and shut the door, and a few minutes after,
just as we was a-sitting down to our dinner, there was such a scream
that I thought I should have gone right off.
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