I was immediately handled and tossed up to see if
I were sound by some of the crew; and I was now persuaded that I
had gotten into a world of bad spirits, and that they were going to
kill me. Their complexions too differing so much from ours, their
long hair, and the language they spoke, (which was very different
from any I had ever heard) united to confirm me in this belief.
Indeed such were the horrors of my views and fears at the moment,
that, if ten thousand worlds had been my own, I would have freely
parted with them all to have exchanged my condition with that of
the meanest slave in my own country. When I looked round the ship
too and saw a large furnace or copper boiling, and a multitude of
black people of every description chained together, every one of
their countenances expressing dejection and sorrow, I no longer
doubted of my fate; and, quite overpowered with horror and anguish,
I fell motionless on the deck and fainted. When I recovered a
little I found some black people about me, who I believed were some
of those who brought me on board, and had been receiving their pay;
they talked to me in order to cheer me, but all in vain. I asked
them if we were not to be eaten by those white men with horrible
looks, red faces, and loose hair. They told me I was not; and one
of the crew brought me a small portion of spirituous liquor in a
wine glass; but, being afraid of him, I would not take it out of
his hand. One of the blacks therefore took it from him and gave it
to me, and I took a little down my palate, which, instead of
reviving me, as they thought it would, threw me into the greatest
consternation at the strange feeling it produced, having never
tasted any such liquor before. Soon after this the blacks who
brought me on board went off, and left me abandoned to despair. I
now saw myself deprived of all chance of returning to my native
country, or even the least glimpse of hope of gaining the shore,
which I now considered as friendly; and I even wished for my former
slavery in preference to my present situation, which was filled
with horrors of every kind, still heightened by my ignorance of
what I was to undergo. I was not long suffered to indulge my grief;
I was soon put down under the decks, and there I received such a
salutation in my nostrils as I had never experienced in my life: so
that, with the loathsomeness of the stench, and crying together, I
became so sick and low that I was not able to eat, nor had I the
least desire to taste any thing. I now wished for the last friend,
death, to relieve me; but soon, to my grief, two of the white men
offered me eatables; and, on my refusing to eat, one of them held
me fast by the hands, and laid me across I think the windlass, and
tied my feet, while the other flogged me severely. I had never
experienced any thing of this kind before; and although, not being
used to the water, I naturally feared that element the first time I
saw it, yet nevertheless, could I have got over the nettings, I
would have jumped over the side, but I could not; and, besides, the
crew used to watch us very closely who were not chained down to the
decks, lest we should leap into the water: and I have seen some of
these poor African prisoners most severely cut for attempting to do
so, and hourly whipped for not eating. This indeed was often the
case with myself. In a little time after, amongst the poor chained
men, I found some of my own nation, which in a small degree gave
ease to my mind. I inquired of these what was to be done with us;
they gave me to understand we were to be carried to these white
people's country to work for them. I then was a little revived, and
thought, if it were no worse than working, my situation was not so
desperate: but still I feared I should be put to death, the white
people looked and acted, as I thought, in so savage a manner; for I
had never seen among any people such instances of brutal cruelty;
and this not only shewn towards us blacks, but also to some of the
whites themselves. One white man in particular I saw, when we were
permitted to be on deck, flogged so unmercifully with a large rope
near the foremast, that he died in consequence of it; and they
tossed him over the side as they would have done a brute. This made
me fear these people the more; and I expected nothing less than to
be treated in the same manner. I could not help expressing my fears
and apprehensions to some of my countrymen: I asked them if these
people had no country, but lived in this hollow place (the ship):
they told me they did not, but came from a distant one. 'Then,'
said I, 'how comes it in all our country we never heard of them?'
They told me because they lived so very far off. I then asked where
were their women? had they any like themselves? I was told they
had: 'and why,' said I,'do we not see them?' they answered, because
they were left behind. I asked how the vessel could go? they told
me they could not tell; but that there were cloths put upon the
masts by the help of the ropes I saw, and then the vessel went on;
and the white men had some spell or magic they put in the water
when they liked in order to stop the vessel. I was exceedingly
amazed at this account, and really thought they were spirits. I
therefore wished much to be from amongst them, for I expected they
would sacrifice me: but my wishes were vain; for we were so
quartered that it was impossible for any of us to make our escape.
While we stayed on the coast I was mostly on deck; and one day, to
my great astonishment, I saw one of these vessels coming in with
the sails up. As soon as the whites saw it, they gave a great
shout, at which we were amazed; and the more so as the vessel
appeared larger by approaching nearer. At last she came to an
anchor in my sight, and when the anchor was let go I and my
countrymen who saw it were lost in astonishment to observe the
vessel stop; and were not convinced it was done by magic. Soon
after this the other ship got her boats out, and they came on board
of us, and the people of both ships seemed very glad to see each
other. Several of the strangers also shook hands with us black
people, and made motions with their hands, signifying I suppose we
were to go to their country; but we did not understand them. At
last, when the ship we were in had got in all her cargo, they made
ready with many fearful noises, and we were all put under deck, so
that we could not see how they managed the vessel. But this
disappointment was the least of my sorrow.
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