That she had endured with him and
on his behalf the miseries of poverty, and the troubles of a life
which had known no smiles, is perhaps not to be alleged as much to
her honour. She had joined herself to him for better or worse, and
it was her manifest duty to bear such things; wives always have to
bear them, knowing when they marry that they must take their
chance. Mr Crawley might have been a bishop, and Mrs Crawley, when
she married him, perhaps thought it probable that such would be his
fortune. Instead of that he was now, just as he was approaching his
fiftieth year, a perpetual curate, with an income of one hundred
and thirty pounds per annum,—and a family. That had been Mrs
Crawley's luck in life, and of course she bore it. But she had also
done much more than this. She had striven hard to be contented, or,
rather, to appear to be contented, when he had been most wretched
and most moody. She had struggled to conceal from him her own
conviction as to his half-insanity, treating him at the same time
with the respect due to an honoured father of a family, and with
the careful measured indulgence fit for a sick and wayward child.
In all the terrible troubles of their life her courage had been
higher than his. The metal of which she was made had been tempered
to a steel which was very rare and fine, but the rareness and
fineness of which he had failed to appreciate. He had often told
her that she was without pride, because she was stooped to receive
from others on his behalf and on behalf of their children, things
which were needful, but which she could not buy. He had told her
that she was a beggar, and that it was better to starve than to
beg. She had borne the rebuke without a word in reply, and had then
begged again for him, and had endured the starvation herself.
Nothing in their poverty had, for years past, been a shame to her;
but every accident of their poverty was still, and ever had been, a
living disgrace to him.
They had had many children, and three were still alive. Of the
eldest, Grace Crawley, we shall hear much in the coming story. She
was at this time nineteen years old, and there were those who said
that, in spite of her poverty, her shabby outward apparel, and a
certain thin, unfledged, unrounded form of person, a want of
fulness in the lines of her figure, she was the prettiest girl in
that part of the world. She was living now at a school in
Silverbridge, where for the last year she had been a teacher; and
there were many in Silverbridge who declared that very bright
prospects were opening to her,—that young Major Grantly of Cosby
Lodge, who, though a widower with a young child, was the cynosure
of all female eyes in and around Silverbridge, had found beauty in
her thin face, and that Grace Crawley's fortune was made in the
teeth, as it were, of the prevailing ill-fortune of her family. Bob
Crawley, who was two years younger, was now at Marlbro' School,
from whence it was intended that he should proceed to Cambridge,
and be educated there at the expense of his godfather, Dean Arabin.
In this also the world saw a stroke of good luck. But then nothing
was lucky to Mr Crawley. Bob, indeed, who had done well at school,
might do well at Cambridge,—might achieve great things there. But
Mr Crawley would almost have preferred that the boy should work in
the fields, than that he should be educated in a manner so
manifestly eleemosynary. And then his clothes! How was he to be
provided with clothes fit either for school or for college? But the
dean and Mrs Crawley between them managed this, leaving Mr Crawley
very much in the dark, as Mrs Crawley was in the habit of leaving
him. Then there was a younger daughter, Jane, still at home, who
passed her life between her mother's work-table and her father's
Greek, mending linen, and learning to scan iambics,—for Mr Crawley
in his early days had been a ripe scholar.
And now there had come upon them all this terribly-crushing
disaster. That poor Mr Crawley had gradually got himself into a
mess of debt at Silverbridge, from which he was quite unable to
extricate himself, was generally known by all the world both of
Silverbridge and Hogglestock. To a great many it was known that
Dean Arabin had paid money for him, very much contrary to his own
consent, and that he had quarrelled, or attempted to quarrel, with
the dean in consequence,—had so attempted, although the money had
in part passed through his own hands. There had been one creditor,
Fletcher, the butcher of Silverbridge, who had of late been
specially hard upon poor Crawley. This man, who had not been
without good nature in his dealings, had heard stories of the
dean's good-will and such like, and had loudly expressed his
opinion that the perpetual curate of Hogglestock would show a
higher pride in allowing himself to be indebted to a rich brother
clergyman, than in remaining under thrall to a butcher. And thus a
rumour had grown up. And then the butcher had written repeated
letters to the bishop,—to Bishop Proudie of Barchester, who had at
first caused his chaplain to answer them, and had told Mr Crawley
somewhat roundly what was his opinion of a clergyman who eat meat
and did not pay for it. But nothing that the bishop could say or do
enabled Mr Crawley to pay the butcher. It was very grievous to such
a man as Mr Crawley to receive these letters from such a man as
Bishop Proudie; but the letters came, and made festering wounds,
but then there was an end of them. And at last there had come forth
from the butcher's shop a threat that if the money were not paid by
a certain date, printed bills should be posted about the county.
All who heard of this in Silverbridge were very angry with Mr
Fletcher, for no one there had ever known a tradesman to take such
a step before; but Fletcher swore that he would persevere, and
defended himself by showing that six or seven months since, in the
spring of the year, Mr Crawley had been paying money in
Silverbridge, but had paid none to him,—to him who had been not
only his earliest, but his most enduring creditor.
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