“Mind you make a good fire. It’s
very cold.”
The girl turned and showed me a startled face. It was not Emily at
all!
“Where’s Emily? ” I exclaimed.
“You mean the girl as was ‘ere before me?”
“Has Emily left?”
“I came on the 6th,” she replied sullenly, “and she’d gone then.” I
got my book and went back to bed. Emily must have been sent away
almost immediately after our conversation. This reflection kept coming
between me and the printed page. I was glad when it was time to get up.
Such prompt energy, such merciless decision, seemed to argue
something of importance—to somebody.
Nov. 13.—The wound inflicted by the cat’s claw has swollen, and
causes me annoyance and some pain. It throbs and itches. I’m afraid my
blood must be in poor condition, or it would have healed by now. I
opened it with a penknife soaked in an antiseptic solution, and
cleansed it thoroughly. I have heard unpleasant stories of the results
of wounds inflicted by cats.
Nov. 14.—In spite of the curious effect this house certainly
exercises upon my nerves, I like it. It is lonely and deserted in the
very heart of London, but it is also for that reason quiet to work in.
I wonder why it is so cheap. Some people might he suspicious, but I did
not even ask the reason. No answer is better than a lie. If only I
could remove the cats from the outside and the rats from the inside. I
feel that I shall grow accustomed more and more to its peculiarities,
and shall die here. Ah, that expression reads queerly and gives a
wrong impression: I meant live and die here. I shall renew the lease
from year to year till one of us crumbles to pieces. From present
indications the building will be the first to go.
Nov. 16.—It is abominable the way my nerves go up and down with
me—and rather discouraging. This morning I woke to find my clothes
scattered about the room, and a cane chair overturned beside the bed.
My coat and waistcoat looked just as if they had been tried on by
someone in the night. I had horribly vivid dreams, too, in which
someone covering his face with his hands kept coming close up to me,
crying out as if in pain.
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