I do believe it is now photographed there.
It is a sad face to keep so close to one's heart; only what is so
very beautiful can never be quite a pain. Well; after studying it
in this way, I know not how many times, I came home, and have done
my best to transfer the image to canvas."
"Here it is, then," said Miriam, contemplating Hilda's work with
great interest and delight, mixed with the painful sympathy that
the picture excited. "Everywhere we see oil-paintings, crayon
sketches, cameos, engravings, lithographs, pretending to be
Beatrice, and representing the poor girl with blubbered eyes, a
leer of coquetry, a merry look as if she were dancing, a piteous
look as if she were beaten, and twenty other modes of fantastic
mistake. But here is Guido's very Beatrice; she that slept in the
dungeon, and awoke, betimes, to ascend the scaffold, And now that
you have done it, Hilda, can you interpret what the feeling is,
that gives this picture such a mysterious force? For my part,
though deeply sensible of its influence, I cannot seize it."
"Nor can I, in words," replied her friend. "But while I was
painting her, I felt all the time as if she were trying to escape
from my gaze. She knows that her sorrow is so strange and so
immense, that she ought to be solitary forever, both for the
world's sake and her own; and this is the reason we feel such a
distance between Beatrice and ourselves, even when our eyes meet
hers. It is infinitely heart-breaking to meet her glance, and to
feel that nothing can be done to help or comfort her; neither does
she ask help or comfort, knowing the hopelessness of her case
better than we do. She is a fallen angel,—fallen, and yet sinless;
and it is only this depth of sorrow, with its weight and darkness,
that keeps her down upon earth, and brings her within our view even
while it sets her beyond our reach."
"You deem her sinless?" asked Miriam; "that is not so plain to
me. If I can pretend to see at all into that dim region, whence she
gazes so strangely and sadly at us, Beatrice's own conscience does
not acquit her of something evil, and never to be forgiven!"
"Sorrow so black as hers oppresses her very nearly as sin
would," said Hilda.
"Then," inquired Miriam, "do you think that there was no sin in
the deed for which she suffered?"
"Ah!" replied Hilda, shuddering, "I really had quite forgotten
Beatrice's history, and was thinking of her only as the picture
seems to reveal her character. Yes, yes; it was terrible guilt, an
inexpiable crime, and she feels it to be so. Therefore it is that
the forlorn creature so longs to elude our eyes, and forever vanish
away into nothingness! Her doom is just!"
"O Hilda, your innocence is like a sharp steel sword!" exclaimed
her friend. "Your judgments are often terribly severe, though you
seem all made up of gentleness and mercy. Beatrice's sin may not
have been so great: perhaps it was no sin at all, but the best
virtue possible in the circumstances. If she viewed it as a sin, it
may have been because her nature was too feeble for the fate
imposed upon her. Ah!" continued Miriam passionately, "if I could
only get within her consciousness!—if I could but clasp Beatrice
Cenci's ghost, and draw it into myself! I would give my life to
know whether she thought herself innocent, or the one great
criminal since time began."
As Miriam gave utterance to these words, Hilda looked from the
picture into her face, and was startled to observe that her
friend's expression had become almost exactly that of the portrait;
as if her passionate wish and struggle to penetrate poor Beatrice's
mystery had been successful.
"O, for Heaven's sake, Miriam, do not look so!" she cried. "What
an actress you are! And I never guessed it before. Ah! now you are
yourself again!" she added, kissing her. "Leave Beatrice to me in
future."
"Cover up your magical picture, then," replied her friend, "else
I never can look away from it. It is strange, dear Hilda, how an
innocent, delicate, white soul like yours has been able to seize
the subtle mystery of this portrait; as you surely must, in order
to reproduce it so perfectly. Well; we will not talk of it any
more. Do you know, I have come to you this morning on a small
matter of business. Will you undertake it for me?"
"O, certainly," said Hilda, laughing; "if you choose to trust me
with business."
"Nay, it is not a matter of any difficulty," answered Miriam;
"merely to take charge of this packet, and keep it for me
awhile."
"But why not keep it yourself?" asked Hilda.
"Partly because it will be safer in your charge," said her
friend. "I am a careless sort of person in ordinary things; while
you, for all you dwell so high above the world, have certain little
housewifely ways of accuracy and order. The packet is of some
slight importance; and yet, it may be, I shall not ask you for it
again. In a week or two, you know, I am leaving Rome. You, setting
at defiance the malarial fever, mean to stay here and haunt your
beloved galleries through the summer. Now, four months hence,
unless you hear more from me, I would have you deliver the packet
according to its address."
Hilda read the direction; it was to Signore Luca Barboni, at the
Plazzo Cenci, third piano.
"I will deliver it with my own hand," said she, "precisely four
months from to-day, unless you bid me to the contrary. Perhaps I
shall meet the ghost of Beatrice in that grim old palace of her
forefathers."
"In that case," rejoined Miriam, "do not fail to speak to her,
and try to win her confidence. Poor thing! she would be all the
better for pouring her heart out freely, and would be glad to do
it, if she were sure of sympathy. It irks my brain and heart to
think of her, all shut up within herself." She withdrew the cloth
that Hilda had drawn over the picture, and took another long look
at it.
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