He
appeared only to know that Miriam was beautiful, and that she
smiled graciously upon him; that the present moment was very sweet,
and himself most happy, with the sunshine, the sylvan scenery, and
woman's kindly charm, which it enclosed within its small
circumference. It was delightful to see the trust which he reposed
in Miriam, and his pure joy in her propinquity; he asked nothing,
sought nothing, save to be near the beloved object, and brimmed
over with ecstasy at that simple boon. A creature of the happy
tribes below us sometimes shows the capacity of this enjoyment; a
man, seldom or never.
"Donatello," said Miriam, looking at him thoughtfully, but
amused, yet not without a shade of sorrow, "you seem very happy;
what makes you so?"
"Because I love you!" answered Donatello.
He made this momentous confession as if it were the most natural
thing in the world; and on her part,—such was the contagion of his
simplicity,—Miriam heard it without anger or disturbance, though
with no responding emotion. It was as if they had strayed across
the limits of Arcadia; and come under a civil polity where young
men might avow their passion with as little restraint as a bird
pipes its note to a similar purpose.
"Why should you love me, foolish boy?" said she. "We have no
points of sympathy at all. There are not two creatures more unlike,
in this wide world, than you and I!"
"You are yourself, and I am Donatello," replied he. "Therefore I
love you! There needs no other reason."
Certainly, there was no better or more explicable reason. It
might have been imagined that Donatello's unsophisticated heart
would be more readily attracted to a feminine nature of clear
simplicity like his own, than to one already turbid with grief or
wrong, as Miriam's seemed to be. Perhaps, On the other hand, his
character needed the dark element, which it found in her. The force
and energy of will, that sometimes flashed through her eyes, may
have taken him captive; or, not improbably, the varying lights and
shadows of her temper, now so mirthful, and anon so sad with
mysterious gloom, had bewitched the youth. Analyze the matter as we
may, the reason assigned by Donatello himself was as satisfactory
as we are likely to attain.
Miriam could not think seriously of the avowal that had passed.
He held out his love so freely, in his open palm, that she felt it
could be nothing but a toy, which she might play with for an
instant, and give back again. And yet Donatello's heart was so
fresh a fountain, that, had Miriam been more world-worn than she
was, she might have found it exquisite to slake her thirst with the
feelings that welled up and brimmed over from it. She was far, very
far, from the dusty mediaeval epoch, when some women have a taste
for such refreshment. Even for her, however, there was an
inexpressible charm in the simplicity that prompted Donatello's
words and deeds; though, unless she caught them in precisely the
true light, they seemed but folly, the offspring of a maimed or
imperfectly developed intellect. Alternately, she almost admired,
or wholly scorned him, and knew not which estimate resulted from
the deeper appreciation. But it could not, she decided for herself,
be other than an innocent pastime, if they two—sure to be separated
by their different paths in life, to-morrow—were to gather up some
of the little pleasures that chanced to grow about their feet, like
the violets and wood-anemones, to-day.
Yet an impulse of rectitude impelled Miriam to give him what she
still held to be a needless warning against an imaginary peril.
"If you were wiser, Donatello, you would think me a dangerous
person," said she, "If you follow my footsteps, they will lead you
to no good. You ought to be afraid of me."
"I would as soon think of fearing the air we breathe," he
replied.
"And well you may, for it is full of malaria," said Miriam; she
went on, hinting at an intangible confession, such as persons with
overburdened hearts often make to children or dumb animals, or to
holes in the earth, where they think their secrets may be at once
revealed and buried. "Those who come too near me are in danger of
great mischiefs, I do assure you. Take warning, therefore! It is a
sad fatality that has brought you from your home among the
Apennines,—some rusty old castle, I suppose, with a village at its
foot, and an Arcadian environment of vineyards, fig-trees, and
olive orchards,—a sad mischance, I say, that has transported you to
my side. You have had a happy life hitherto, have you not,
Donatello?"
"O, yes," answered the young man; and, though not of a
retrospective turn, he made the best effort he could to send his
mind back into the past. "I remember thinking it happiness to dance
with the contadinas at a village feast; to taste the new, sweet
wine at vintage-time, and the old, ripened wine, which our podere
is famous for, in the cold winter evenings; and to devour great,
luscious figs, and apricots, peaches, cherries, and melons. I was
often happy in the woods, too, with hounds and horses, and very
happy in watching all sorts, of creatures and birds that haunt the
leafy solitudes. But never half so happy as now!"
"In these delightful groves?" she asked.
"Here, and with you," answered Donatello. "Just as we are
now."
"What a fulness of content in him! How silly, and how
delightful!" said Miriam to herself. Then addressing him again:
"But, Donatello, how long will this happiness last?"
"How long!" he exclaimed; for it perplexed him even more to
think of the future than to remember the past. "Why should it have
any end? How long! Forever! forever! forever!"
"The child! the simpleton!" said Miriam, with sudden laughter,
and checking it as suddenly. "But is he a simpleton indeed? Here,
in those few natural words, he has expressed that deep sense, that
profound conviction of its own immortality, which genuine love
never fails to bring. He perplexes me,—yes, and bewitches me,—wild,
gentle, beautiful creature that he is! It is like playing with a
young greyhound!"
Her eyes filled with tears, at the same time that a smile shone
out of them. Then first she became sensible of a delight and grief
at once, in feeling this zephyr of a new affection, with its
untainted freshness, blow over her weary, stifled heart, which had
no right to be revived by it. The very exquisiteness of the
enjoyment made her know that it ought to be a forbidden one.
"Donatello," she hastily exclaimed, "for your own sake, leave
me! It is not such a happy thing as you imagine it, to wander in
these woods with me, a girl from another land, burdened with a doom
that she tells to none.
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