His hand and his imagination
had been too long confined to one groove; and the fruitless effort
to escape from the bonds and fetters which he had imposed upon
himself, showed itself in irregularities and errors. He had
despised the long, wearisome ladder to knowledge, and the first
fundamental law of the future great man, hard work. He gave vent to
his vexation. He ordered all his later productions to be taken out
of his studio, all the fashionable, lifeless pictures, all the
portraits of hussars, ladies, and councillors of state.
He shut himself up alone in his room, would order no food, and
devoted himself entirely to his work. He sat toiling like a
scholar. But how pitifully wretched was all which proceeded from
his hand! He was stopped at every step by his ignorance of the very
first principles: simple ignorance of the mechanical part of his
art chilled all inspiration and formed an impassable barrier to his
imagination. His brush returned involuntarily to hackneyed forms:
hands folded themselves in a set attitude; heads dared not make any
unusual turn; the very garments turned out commonplace, and would
not drape themselves to any unaccustomed posture of the body. And
he felt and saw this all himself.
"But had I really any talent?" he said at length: "did not I
deceive myself?" Uttering these words, he turned to the early works
which he had painted so purely, so unselfishly, in former days, in
his wretched cabin yonder in lonely Vasilievsky Ostroff. He began
attentively to examine them all; and all the misery of his former
life came back to him. "Yes," he cried despairingly, "I had talent:
the signs and traces of it are everywhere visible—"
He paused suddenly, and shivered all over. His eyes encountered
other eyes fixed immovably upon him. It was that remarkable
portrait which he had bought in the Shtchukinui Dvor. All this time
it had been covered up, concealed by other pictures, and had
utterly gone out of his mind. Now, as if by design, when all the
fashionable portraits and paintings had been removed from the
studio, it looked forth, together with the productions of his early
youth. As he recalled all the strange events connected with it; as
he remembered that this singular portrait had been, in a manner,
the cause of his errors; that the hoard of money which he had
obtained in such peculiar fashion had given birth in his mind to
all the wild caprices which had destroyed his talent—madness was on
the point of taking possession of him. At once he ordered the
hateful portrait to be removed.
But his mental excitement was not thereby diminished. His whole
being was shaken to its foundation; and he suffered that fearful
torture which is sometimes exhibited when a feeble talent strives
to display itself on a scale too great for it and cannot do so. A
horrible envy took possession of him—an envy which bordered on
madness. The gall flew to his heart when he beheld a work which
bore the stamp of talent. He gnashed his teeth, and devoured it
with the glare of a basilisk. He conceived the most devilish plan
which ever entered into the mind of man, and he hastened with the
strength of madness to carry it into execution. He began to
purchase the best that art produced of every kind. Having bought a
picture at a great price, he transported it to his room, flung
himself upon it with the ferocity of a tiger, cut it, tore it,
chopped it into bits, and stamped upon it with a grin of
delight.
The vast wealth he had amassed enabled him to gratify this
devilish desire. He opened his bags of gold and unlocked his
coffers. No monster of ignorance ever destroyed so many superb
productions of art as did this raging avenger. At any auction where
he made his appearance, every one despaired at once of obtaining
any work of art. It seemed as if an angry heaven had sent this
fearful scourge into the world expressly to destroy all harmony.
Scorn of the world was expressed in his countenance. His tongue
uttered nothing save biting and censorious words. He swooped down
like a harpy into the street: and his acquaintances, catching sight
of him in the distance, sought to turn aside and avoid a meeting
with him, saying that it poisoned all the rest of the day.
Fortunately for the world and art, such a life could not last
long: his passions were too overpowering for his feeble strength.
Attacks of madness began to recur more frequently, and ended at
last in the most frightful illness. A violent fever, combined with
galloping consumption, seized upon him with such violence, that in
three days there remained only a shadow of his former self.
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